I used to buy notebooks and journals all the time, and never write in them. Then, in about 2015, I started filling them and I haven’t stopped. The words just keep pouring out of me. During the times in my life when I lost my voice and gave my power away to other people and other things outside of myself, I withheld my creative expression. Now, it’s as if the floodgates have opened!
I remember times in my life when my energy overwhelmed the people I was closest to in my life. I remember times of having my words and actions questioned to the point of causing me to retreat deep inside of myself, because I felt “wrong” in every way I was trying to show up in the world. I remember the numerous times when people said I talked too much. You know, when you’re as sensitive as I am, you’re hearing people’s words and sensing what they’re thinking and feeling about you.
I am so happy that I have taken the time to get really confident in myself to the point of not caring if someone doesn’t like the way I’m showing up. I know that my energy attracts my tribe and I see how the people and situations in my life have shifted accordingly. I am happy that I have cultivated my communication over the years, because it’s extremely important for my purpose and the work I do. Communication is key to my favorite — connection. I’m so glad that through the course of my lifetime, I have taken classes, and have been in situations that required me to write a LOT. Again, all important for my purpose.
On May 31, 2018, after leaving my last shift as an RN in the hospital, I wrote: “I have chosen to follow my intuition, the synchronicities, and the urgings of my spirit and step onto a mostly invisible path. And I’ve never felt more at peace or more confident in my decisions as I do right now. I turn 39 tomorrow and fly around the world to a place I have dreamed of going since I was 18 — AUSTRALIA! It has taken me the better part of 39 years to get to this place. Today, I feel like I walked to the edge of a tall, spiring cliff, arms raised up like wings in the air, and jumped off into the great unknown with a confidence I didn’t have 3 years ago.”
Show up! Take risks! Live large!
I could have never seen the changes that would happen in my life from the ones I made back in 2018. My life looks nothing like I thought it would. I’m doing things for work now that didn’t even know existed back then! My personal sessions of Holographic Kinetics have only added to my confidence. One of the issues I cleared isn’t one I knew I had – feeling like there was something wrong with me. I had been carrying that around with me since my 20’s. It has been an experiment of sorts to clear issues like this one through Holographic Kinetics and then wait and see how it shifts my life. It’s hard to pinpoint the individual shifts and what issue’s release led to them, but I do know that I just feel so much more confident and comfortable in my own skin, and so much more trusting in my journey.
If you’re interested in having a Holographic Kinetics session with me, email me at email@example.com for more information. This week, I have openings on Thursday morning, Friday evening, and Saturday. I usually have availability on Tuesday and Thursday mornings and Saturday and Sunday. I schedule within the week we’re in. You can also visit http://www.holographickinetics.com for more information.
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My current song obsession can be heard HERE. It’s Nahko and Medicine for the People’s “Aloha Ke Akua”. And the even more fitting song, “Confidence” by Matisyahu HERE.
When you open my chest on the autopsy table you will find the silver lining around my scarred heart marking the illness I overcame.
You will find a turquoise sea of love that I experienced throughout my lifetime.
Lust for places I traveled to and fell in love with, and all of the places that were always on my list for a future time.
You will find images of my son tucked away — saving them like photographs in an old static-cling photo album we always had when I was a kid.
You will find the joy that filled my days after the needle that removed the serosanguineous fluid from around my heart gave me a second chance at life — true, fully alive life.
You will find parts of every person I have connected with, every moment in nature I’ve spent, and every adventure I have ever had.
Body decaying, spirit gone on to the next life to live and love again through another suit with its own bones and flesh and organs.
A chest open with remnants remaining with the spark of my spirit on to the next time and place.
When you open my chest on the autopsy table, you won’t find me.
I am boundless and ever-evolving.
I’ll be back among the stars.
Energy swirling around the cosmos connecting back in with the Source that I AM.
When my body died, my spirit lept out and became everything that it always was — INFINITE.
I wrote this in a spoken word workshop I participated in this past weekend. We all had to include the same 5 words (I accidentally left one of them out) with the same opening line. We wrote for 10 minutes. This is what came of it. I hadn’t really thought about what I had written until I stood in front of the group to read it. Reading it out loud moved me to tears. It made me realize how even with everything I’ve been through, life is so very beautiful.
When I do leave this body, I want the people who love me to internalize this message. Read this at a party on the beach around a bonfire while people drum, dance, and celebrate! Toss my cremated remains into the sea and move on with gratitude for any moments you shared with me. We are far more than the meat suits we’re currently wearing. Life would not be so sweet without death. We are all infinite spiritual beings having a human experience.
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Dancing has never just been about dancing. The indigenous people around the globe know it. The church has known it (which is why some have tried to stop it from happening in the past). There is a true freedom that arises when we dance. A pure joy that emanates from the spiritual beings that we are. A swirling and igniting of energies that ripple out from our own field and connect with the earth, the spirits of everything in nature, and each other. Expressing ourselves fully through free-form movement and dance can change the world!
I have found that being authentic, following my joy, and following my intuition (guidance from my own spirit) has led to my alignment with my own spirit. Alignment is the KEY to everything we seek! Well-being of body, mind, and spirit, inner peace and a sense of fulfillment, happiness, love, freedom, and abundance. Our alignment holds the answers for all of the questions we seek answers to in regards to the meaning of our life and our purpose this go around.
When we dance, we tap into our true nature. We can set intentions when we dance to create and send love out into the universe. By doing so, we extend even more positive energy out into the world from living our joy and dancing!
Dance more! Shine your light! Your energy ripples out into the world and affects everyone and everything. Be mindful of the kinds of ripples you’re creating. Follow your joy! Allow yourself to thrive! DANCE ALIGN ELEVATE THRIVE!
I’m on a cloud today after speaking at Visalia Talks & Wine last night about “Healing Depression with Mindfulness and Holographic Kinetics”. I shared some deep parts of my personal experiences with depression and suicide. Stay tuned, because I’ll be posting the video of it when it’s ready! I know it was the first of many such opportunities and I’m so excited!! Thank you to @kelseylowshow for creating the event and being so dang amazing and for everyone who took the time to come to the event and connect with me afterwards! I am so grateful!
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“The light within each of us fears nothing, accepts everything, and sees the value of it all as a means for deeper growth and healing. Trust in your light. It will make sense of your darkness.” — by Scott Stabile “just love.”
I recently had a new college graduate reach out to me for some advice. At the end of the conversation, I realized that what I had shared could potentially help a lot of people. So, I’ve decided to post it here. Conversations like this one light me up and keep me going. It is my intention to simply direct people back to themselves, to their own inner knowing, and to alignment with their own spirits. Always trust in your light!
I realize the power of my perspective to help shift people into a new level of awareness. But, I am acutely aware that all knowledge and wisdom lies in the person themselves. As spiritual beings having a human experience, we each have the answers that we seek within us. We hold the keys to what is holding us back and the keys to our own healing. We hold the key to our next steps along our path. We just have to quiet our minds and really listen to the whispers of our own spirit. Life is about living as the main character in our own show without allowing the loud roar of voices from our families, society, and even our own egos distract us from following our own inner guidance system. You came here to be exactly YOU!
Just the fact that you’re here, on this planet is enough for you to deserve everything your heart desires, because only you hold your exact energetic frequency. You vibrate higher when you show up authentically and unapologetically YOURSELF while you follow your joy and live your life to the fullest, whatever that looks like for YOU! (not me or your parents or your teachers or society.) Just because things have been a certain way for a lot of years doesn’t mean anything other than humans may have gotten into a bit of a rut. We are in great need of some movers and shakers to help change it up. So, instead of worrying about how to manage your anxiety as you bend and fold yourself to fit into an existing box that you’re terrified of getting stuck in, align with your own spirit, and stay the hell away from any box or any person trying to fit you into one! (or at least don’t ask for or take advice from those people). Run and be free and forge your own path! It’s 2020, it’s time to get clear on the vision you want for your own life.
College Graduate: “Hi, I just saw your IG tv video on why the govt wants to control indigenous people and agree with you completely. However, this makes me look at my own life and I feel so trapped. I’m about to graduate college and have been putting off applying to jobs just because I don’t want to be a slave. I want to break free but it goes against everything and I feel so lost. I want to live freely and in alignment but my poverty mindset & trauma seems to stop me. Do you have any words of advice?“
Me: “Wow thanks for reaching out to me! I hear you. I see you. And I appreciate you.
If you’re feeling like you don’t want to apply to jobs right now, then my advice? Don’t apply to jobs. You JUST graduated. There’s no real hurry to jump into something you’re not going to feel passionate about. I just went to a powerful intention setting ceremony today and it was powerful.
Sit quietly with your eyes closed, clear your mind and ask: what is God’s (my own spirit is what I asked, universe etc) highest vision for my life in 2020?
For me a word came into mind almost instantly. See what comes up for you. And then listen to it and take a step towards it.
I am a practitioner of Holographic Kinetics, a powerful healing modality based on Dreamtime Healing of the aboriginal people of Australia and I personally highly recommend it for clearing a poverty mindset and childhood trauma. It’s been so powerful for me that I plan to go have a session as soon as I can to clear some more things. You can read more at www.holographickinetics.com and see if there is a practitioner near you.
Lastly, know that those of us who are older than you don’t have the answers. Only you have the answers you seek. Ignore the outside voices and inner voice telling you what you “should” do and listen and feel into what you think you’d be really excited to do! The world is changing. The way things have been done are not the way they are anymore. Follow your joy! Follow your passion! Follow your own intuition and take a leap and ENJOY THE RIDE! You’re only a new college graduate once! Live it up!”
College Graduate: “Thank you so much for your kind words! It means so much & appreciate you taking the time and everything you’ve posted!
Thank you for the link as well, I’ve seen some of your posts mentioning it but thought I was too far for all of these practices that I see on IG in general. I read through the list and someone is near me! I’m going to look more into it and reach out to (practitioner name) 🙂
And I agree the world is changing, I’ve heard how many of the more creative fields will actually come back in demand, which is really nice (since I was lead to believe my degree was pointless)
However, it’s sometimes hard for me to distinguish which voice is which, how do you know when it’s your intuition speaking? (& not ur ego/ socialization)”
Me: “I wouldn’t worry about what ‘they’ say about any field. It doesn’t really matter. You just need to find the thing you’re most passionate about at any given time and do that! Success is inner peace, not the outside rewards like you’ve been taught.
Your spirit speaks to you through your intuition. Choosing based on live instead of fear can help you tap into it. As can following your joy and doing what you feel called to do even when the outside is telling you differently. Your intuition won’t ‘should’ you and make you feel guilty for things. It won’t talk negatively to you or get you to compare yourself to others. Your spirit/intuition is much more quiet at first than your ego. But as you learn to quiet your mind (meditation is great!) and follow your intuition, it’ll get stronger and you’ll trust it more once you realize it always leads you to amazing people, opportunities, and situations. Learn to observe your thoughts and actions and question everything that you think, especially when it’s making you feel bad.
I don’t know if this is something you’d enjoy, but find a way to travel somewhere you’ve always wanted to go. Travel does so much for our self discovery. I assume you don’t have much responsibility yet, so now is the time to do the fun things. Jobs will be there when you get back and you’ll have a better sense of what you want to do. Have fun!!!”
College Graduate: “I was so worried about not wanting to play the game without direction, working for someone and all that, and was considering living in a hippie commune. I thought about what I actually like to do, writing & reading- I’ve always liked it, it’s a hobby of mine, it’s a “tool” I honed in college. I want to be a writer, and you’re right no one else could have told me that. I really had to purge all my stress to really see deep down. These answers lie within. Lies within our patterns, what we liked doing as kids, what we liked (but may have suppressed) now. I want to thank you again, your words sparked something in me after I really sat with them and my thoughts. This was all an abridged version of what I resolved but again, thank you. Much love ✨”
Me: “Oh this is so awesome to hear! I am so happy that you’ve found some answers for yourself. Your story and way of seeing the world is unique and you never know who can benefit from it. Write write write!!!! You are so welcome. Sending lots of love right back to you! Never lose your passion! Never stop following your own inner guidance! You are the only you and no one else can tell you how to live your best life. I hope you have a fantastic day!! ❤️”
Ripples people. Ripples! I’ll end this with a quote from the book “The Vortex” by Esther and Jerry Hicks:
“Most of the guidance, rules, and laws that are passed down from generation to generation are written by people who are not in the state of “allowing” their Connection with their Broader knowledge. In other words, the majority of the guidance that is thrust upon you has come from a perspective of lack, and it cannot lead you to an improved situation.”
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As I closed this post out, I had these lyrics for Digable Planets “Escapism (Gettin’ Free) (listen HERE!) pop into my head:
“Get free, get free y’all Get free, get free y’all Get free, get free y’all Get free, get free y’all”
It’s time we all get FREE! How? Alignment with our own spirits!
I saw this post come up in my FB feed recently and out of curiosity, I began to read the comments, which I don’t often do. Most people were saying that observing rather than absorbing the energy around them was an impossibility as empaths and “healers”. My intention was to shed some light on the subject to help give people a sense of their power for creating their reality. Humans are quick to label and be fit into boxes with self-limitations. Realizing I fit the description of an “empath” was only the beginning of the truth for me on that subject, not the end. It helped some things about me make more sense, but it hasn’t ultimately defined me. I have learned that I had to grow from that place, vs stay stagnant in the definition of empath. The truth is that we are infinite consciousness in human form and therefore powerful creators of our realities! I decided that it may be helpful to include what I wrote in the comments here, so that the messages can reach more people. I had several people write and ask questions or comment and this is missing their portions, but it is my hope that you’ll still be able to take something useful away from it nonetheless. This information can be helpful for everyone, not just those who identify as being empathic.
“I think people are missing the point. Empaths pick up on energy, but we definitely don’t have to be absorbing it. That’s part of being an empath is learning self-care and boundary setting and realizing our power to NOT be swayed by the energy of the things and people around us by simply stating Observe not absorb. We are all energetic beings who are affected by energy around us. Stating this helps us be an observer of games we walk into without falling into it. This is also an extremely important phrase to say that prevents us from taking on things from other dimensions that wish to control us. I say it to myself before I watch movies and listen to the radio, before going to a bar to dance, before going to public events, or places with group meditations going on. We are living by universal laws, NOT human laws, and this is a phrase that stands to help us all immensely.”
Responding to someone who equated being an empath to HAVING to absorb energy:
“Yes I’m included in that group (empaths), and I have had to learn my own power to find ways to not absorb. It’s not that we have to absorb just because we’re sensitive to energy and absorb naturally. Setting intentions to not absorb and learning how to differentiate our energy from the energy outside of ourselves is key. It’s been a journey to get to where I’m at with it and part of it is knowing I don’t have to absorb if I don’t want to. We think it’s so difficult, but saying ‘observe not absorb as an intention to our own spirit really is powerful. When we make requests to our own spirit, it will rearrange the universe to make things happen. We’ve lost sight of this because people think they need prayers to a god or angels to make things happen. We do not. In fact, that only opens us up to things in other dimensions. Do I transmute energy by being me? Yes. Do I shift energy around me by being in alignment? Yes. Can I get knocked out of balance by another person’s energy? Yes. Does energy of the collective affect me? Yes. But I’m aware now and can recognize it and I know effective ways to not take on energy/interdimensional interferences around me. Empaths need to learn their power. Many have gotten stuck at the discovery that they are extra sensitive and have wrongly, seemingly, assumed the role of a victim because many of us have gone through relationships with narcissists. Our empathy is actually our superpower and can be used in amazing ways when we learn how.”
Responding to someone experiencing a lot of “negative” energy currently:
“There’s a lot coming through for all of us right now as part of the collective to show us things we need to heal at a deeper level. For example lots of childhood wounds have been coming up for me and friends of mine because our spirits are ready for us to heal these things once and for all. Just recognizing the energy and feeling the emotions it brings or saying that you release what isn’t yours helps. When we recognize energy as not being ours, we can ask to not absorb it or to allow it to move through if it needs to and then be released. We never have to cling to energy and try and figure it out with our minds. Sometimes just cultivating that awareness that you are is enough to not have it affect you as much. Feeling negative energy isn’t a problem. It’s when we internalize it that it gives us problems.”
Responding to someone who spoke of light forces and dark forces and the belief that we’re not doing any of this alone (referring to spirit guides etc):
“I have come to realize that all I need is alignment with my own spirit. I do not wish to call on anything from outside of myself because of what I have learned on my journey. I have no doubt that we also have benevolent beings assisting us, but I have come to realize my own power in my alignment that I do not need outside help anymore. I know what you’re saying. Our beliefs sound similar and a bit different which is welcome by me and OK. This is how we expand our consciousness. If you want to know some of what I have learned, feel free to check out the powerful healing modality I’m trained in called Holographic Kinetics based on Dreamtime Healing of the aboriginal people of Australia at www.holographickinetics.com. Many of my views shifted after this training and what I’ve witnessed in my own sessions and my clients’ sessions. I will never pray to gods or guides or angels again, just as I will never practice reiki or any healing where I get the energy from anywhere but my own spirit. When we learn universal laws at work and how interdimensional interferences can get in to control us, we get VERY selective and intentional about everything in our lives. Just as things like religion have tricked us into being controlled, so has the “new age” movement in many ways. People are so quick to still think they need help from outside of themselves when I’ve had the same results with sending only healing energy from my own spirit, and the same results asking my own spirit for guidance as I used to from other sources. If we’re being told we need to rely on ANYTHING from outside of ourselves, we’re being lied to. I appreciate this conversation with you. Thank you for opening this up so much.”
Responding to someone who said they wished they could experience life from my perspective and who asked if I had advice about learning how to not take on other people’s energy:
“I really appreciated this message when I read it earlier. Thank you for being a witness. I wanted to take time to think about how to respond to you. The most basic thing I can say about what I’ve learned is that alignment with our own spirit is the KEY to absolutely everything else. It is also important to learn how to quiet the mind and be an observer of our thoughts. I have spent so much time in alignment now that I know how that feels in my body and mind. For instance, I used to have so many thoughts a day that it was overwhelming at times. Or maybe I didn’t know it was happening but it was affecting me. Now, being mostly in the present moment at any given time, my mind is much quieter. So I can really tell if I’m having a day where my mind is all over the place and feels jumbled. I recognize it and then practice calming it. Same for energy. Really I think being a nurse in the hospital for nearly 5.5 years was my best practice for learning what was mind vs someone else’s. It started to be obvious to me when my mood took a nose dive after giving report to a night nurse who had a lot of negative energy coming from her. The first time it happened, my mood went down and it affected me for the night. Then, I started noticing the pattern and that awareness could then allow me to release that energy I had taken on as not my own to deal with and my mood would shift fairly quickly. Then, the practice became recognizing their energy as it was happening and choosing to not absorb it so then my energy and mood wasn’t affected at all. I just started feeling love towards the person as it was apparent to me that they had something going on in their life. Where I once dreaded giving report to this person, I stopped taking it personally (at first it felt like they didn’t like me at all). Before I left that job, she was one nurse who would always get excited when she saw I was giving her report! We see what we expect to see. If we believe that we’re empaths and in a way victims of taking on energy from around us, then we get stuck in that role. But we don’t have to stay there. I’m still sensitive to energy, like being able to read it and be super aware of it, but I choose to not take it on. Our intentions that we say out loud are extremely powerful. Start by setting the intention to only observe and not absorb anything as you start your day. Set the intention to not take on other people’s energy as you move through your day and tell your spirit to let you know when you’re picking up something from someone else. Or if you notice someone giving off energy you don’t want to take on, then say so in your head as you’re around them. Our thoughts and words are THAT powerful. We don’t need a ritual or a prayer or a crystal to do it because we have our infinite, limitless, powerful spirits to do it for us! In our sovereignty, we hold all the power.”
This isn’t my complete view on these subjects, but this is what came out during the discussion with multiple other people. No subject is black and white, and I remain open to adjusting my perspective with everything I come to learn and experience day by day. I hope that you give yourself and your mind that same freedom. We never have to lock into one way of being, doing, seeing, or believing. We are multidimensional beings who are constantly evolving our consciousness past the boundaries that we functioned within yesterday, or even 10 minutes ago. The more comfortable we get with questioning everything and not holding tight to any belief, the more free we become, and our spirits yearn to be FREE!
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I learned the true value in maintaining an elevated energetic vibration and the alignment with my own spirit. For once in my life, I placed these things and my own well-being FIRST. I felt into everything I did, and got strong in following my intuition wholeheartedly. I now trust myself and my own guidance fully, and no longer feel like I need guidance from any outside source.
I met a lot of new members of my tribe. I danced more. I sang more. I hiked more. I connected more. I healed more. I taught more. I created art more. I manifested more. And not only did I do these things, but I did them in front of other people through public dance parties, classes, speaking, and even my first art show! This year has been a year of getting to know my power as a powerful creator. It has meant not playing small and staying hidden hoping that people won’t notice my differences. It’s been about not only accepting my differences, but really learning to love and appreciate them. I’ve been putting myself out there more by sharing my perspectives more openly.
There have been painful times in this year as I’ve peeled back more layers in my healing process. Working through identifying more with my spirit than my ego has required some deep, personal introspection. It required a lot of solitude. For once, I was fully ready and willing to look at my issues and face them without deflecting to other people or situations. I stood in my own shit and owned it all.
In 2019, I came out of my shell and stepped more into my light in a public way. With help from Holographic Kinetics, I gained a confidence in myself and my abilities that I had never before experienced. I plan to up my life game in big ways in 2020. I realize that I’ve been functioning at probably half my capacity. I feel like it’s time to blow the top off of any remaining perceived limitations I have about myself and life and go all in!
2020 is going to be BIG!
Happy New Year to all of the people here who have followed me on this incredible journey of self-discovery and self-transformation. I appreciate you! 2020 here we come!
If you only know my blog and want to see the dancing and art I created this year, check out my IG at peaceful.jellyfish or FB at /peacefuljellyfish. I’ve posted a lot of videos this year that you will enjoy of you enjoy my blog.
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I can’t help but think of Prince’s song “1999” on this last day of 2019! Enjoy!
I had a friend message me yesterday and feel like maybe their questioning and my perspective might help someone. I appreciate them for starting this conversation with me. Thank you!
Their message to me:
“I don’t understand why I hear people talk about how they don’t want to experience pain sadness or to even cry. Experiencing emotion is how we empathize with others and different dimensions. Someone told me today that crying is the old being lol“
“It’s because some of us are so incredibly sensitive to the energies around us and for our perceived safety and to get love from our parents, we shut down our feelings as a coping mechanism as children to get through trauma. I had to learn how to feel my feelings in my 30’s after a lifetime of pushing them down because they overwhelmed me so much. I didn’t know how to cope with them. This is the reality for MANY people which is why addiction is so prevalent. It feels safer for people to feel physical pain than to feel their emotions. People are so out of touch with their spirits because the program we’re in seeks to keep us small and disconnected. People are generally trapped in relationships and jobs that are miserable but they don’t see a way out. When we are so out of alignment with our spirit that we’re forcing ourselves to do things we don’t enjoy, the emotions from that are intense. People don’t know what to do with them, so they push them down so they can just live and get by in their lives. Feeling emotions as they come up is something that many of us have had to learn as adults. So yeah, I get it.”
I’ve written a lot more about this topic on my blog HERE in my post titled “Emotions vs Physical Pain”.
It’s important to remember that we are all literally creating our own realities. This is why we can all have such varied experiences even within the same families. No two people experience this life in the same way. I do not know your journey, just as you do not know mine. We can have a lot of similarities, but our responses to situations and the perspective we glean will be completely different. I love when someone takes the time to get to know me and I feel like they really see me fully, but I don’t expect them to understand me anymore, because they are not me. The best thing we can do for each other is to support and encourage each other as we all walk our own, unique paths. There’s no room for judgement in this new energy. It’s time we all leave our preconceived notions about life and each other back in 2019. Grace and love are the new normals.
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