We’ve Been Locked in an Energetic Prison

 

 

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We’re slaves in a energy-depleting system designed to keep us down, suffering, and feeling separate from one another. We spend the majority of our lives giving our energy to jobs we don’t like in exchange for a paycheck. We are then sold a measure of success based on outside things like degrees, houses, cars, other high-priced material items that we then go into large amounts of debt to attain. The system is set up so that we feel worthless without these items. The truth is that we all have intrinsic worth. The debt only acts to further enslave us, because we work the majority of our time to use the majority of our paycheck to pay down our debts. Rinse and repeat. Year after year. Generation after generation. Enough is enough!

We’re trading our most valuable commodity (our energy) for a paycheck. Most of us are working jobs that only serve to take our energy and do not give any back to us. It’s designed this way. I realize now how draining my RN job in the hospital was. Yes, I ‘only’ had to work 3 days a week (for a minimum of 36 hours, note full-time), so I had 4 days off a week. When I look back, I see how I’d give away most of my energy at work, then I’d have days off and by the end of it, I would have raised my vibration a little, only to go back to give my energy away again. It’s like I was stuck in a repeating cycle of low energy. Mind you, I LOVED working with people in a caring/nursing capacity. What I didn’t enjoy was the way that it was ran, and the constant drama created as more tasks were added to an already packed schedule and the worst nurses were always the ones getting rewarded and promoted to management positions. The negative energy was multiplied and I always left wishing that I could spend more time with my patients rather than in front of the computer. It’s all by design. If we had extra energy on our days off and didn’t have to spend them primarily catching up on the chores at home that we let slip during the rest of the week, we’d likely do more fun things which would raise our vibration. But as it stands, ‘fun’ is treated more as a luxury or bonus than what it actually is, a necessity. It’s necessary, because having fun and feeling good is a big part of what elevates our vibration and aligns us with our spirit. Following my joy and intuition about EVERYTHING in my life has been KEY to the level of awareness (consciousness) at which I currently function, and my alignment with my own spirit.

Most people are functioning at such a low vibrational level, because during the day, they’re working at jobs they hate. In the evenings, they’re watching all of the television PROGRAMMING designed to fill us with low-vibration, negative emotions. On weekends, many people spend much of their time doing household chores during the day, and drinking alcohol and/or doing drugs to cope with their generally low vibrational life at night, which acts to further lower their vibration. Alcohol is such a widely accepted way to numb our feelings and ignore the fact that we are living lives that do not make us happy. It may seem that alcohol (a depressant) makes you feel better, but in fact, it’s just another thing that lowers your energetic vibration, plus it lowers your defenses and can open you up to inter-dimensional interferences that can then enter your field and create further havoc in your life. When I became aware that my RN job was affecting me so negatively, I had the thought that I should maybe take up drinking wine in the evenings or smoking pot to cope with the levels of stress I was experiencing. I drank some wine, but never started smoking pot. If you’re at that point, I can tell you from experience that you need to find a new job. If our work is making us feel like we need drugs and alcohol to get through it, then we’re doing the wrong work. There’s no way around it. I’m not saying that everyone needs to leap out of their current job cold turkey, but the mindful thing to do would be to start imagining up what you would like to do instead. Take steps to learn something new to expand your horizons. Start seeing your current gig as the stepping stone to your next life adventure! When you come into alignment with your own spirit, you will feel high on life, and won’t need substances to do it.

When humans are kept on this intended negative energy treadmill, our energy keeps us experiencing life in a limited way as we are forced into connecting with ourselves only as physical bodies and the physical world around us with our extremely limited five senses. We tend to be filled with feelings of hopelessness, fear, anger, loneliness and separation. In this state, not only are we easier to control, but we are never able to tap into our innate, limitless infinite consciousness and well-being. When we’re made to be so focused only on ‘what is’ in our physically detectable world, we miss out on being able to see all that’s possible, and all that we ARE. We have to get to a point where we realize our infinite potential if we truly want to escape this limited reality and manifest an amazing, boundless life!

We’re made to feel angry about things such as:  differing political parties that don’t really control things. All sides/parties are on the same side of controlling us; race that is only part of our rented meat suits for this one life as our spirits are raceless. It’s another distraction from real issues and is meant to further separate us. Inequality based on race is fueling that division; gender division and therefore separateness in our solutions to the inequality we see in the physical world. We are only going to see substantial shifts and elevated energy states in the collective if we stop allowing things outside of ourselves to control our emotions (our energy), and our feelings of self-worth. Stop doing things that feel bad. Stop watching the fear-based PROGRAMMING. Stop focusing on everything politicians say or do. Stop thinking that everything outside of you has to be a certain way in order for you to be OK. In other words, TAKE BACK YOUR POWER. Stop getting distracted by all of the purposeful energy sucks outside of you. YOU and only you have the power to direct your energy towards the things you WANT to see in your life and the world. Cultivate inner peace that doesn’t get disrupted by outside things. The outside things are not going to improve until all of our inner things are dealt with and healed. Erase the term selfish from your vocabulary, because when we each do our work to serve up our highest vibration and authentic self in this world, we aren’t just helping ourselves, we’re helping EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING. Internalize the fact that we are all energetic beings living in an energetic world, and our energy is the MOST important asset we have, because it is DIRECTLY connected to our mental, physical, and spiritual health.

People think I’m magic, because in relation to the general size of the world’s population, there are very few of us who have figured out how to tap into the power of our own spirit. I cannot say this enough: all that is available to me is available to you! You are infinite consciousness in a human meat suit too. You can find a way to rise above the nonsense of the game just as I have learned to do. You are more powerful than the powers that be want you to know. As a powerful creator of your own reality, you have the ability to consciously create the life of your dreams. But to do so, you MUST find ways to elevate your energy. One of the easiest ways to do this is with a daily gratitude practice. When you shift into the energy of appreciation for all that you have, you draw to your life more things to be thankful for. You also increase increase your happiness by noticing all of the things in your life that are going RIGHT!

Another easy way to shift your energy up is to start following your joy as much as possible. Have you forgotten what brings you joy? This is pretty common in a system that is set up to have us put our own needs last. Start by making a list of what brought you joy as a kid. As children, we’re more in tune with our own spirits, as well have more balanced left brain/right brain approach to life. So quite often, the things that we loved most about life when we were young are the same things we love later in life. In the end of my position in the hospital, I learned to keep my energy elevated by developing an uplifting morning routine that had me waking up at 4 am, excited to get out of bed (I had to punch in by 6 am)! I’d sent the intention before going in that I was going to have a great day and that regardless of what happened, nothing was going to bring me down! Of course stressful situations still arose, but I began to see the humor in what I was able to handle and go through yet still come out of my day smiling. I never considered myself a morning person, but my job required that I be. Give yourself the gift of an uplifting morning routine: meditate, listen to music you love, listen to positive podcasts or YouTube videos, dance, sing, do yoga, read positive affirmations, get outside! Do whatever makes YOU feel good!

Part of the system is also about making us more left-brain dependent by pushing science, which wrongly teaches us that only things provable in a physical way are real, when in fact much of this multidimensional world exists outside of our limited perception. So, we’ve got science dismissing our spiritual nature and we have organized religion convincing us that god is somewhere “out there”, when in fact source/god energy is what we’re all made of. Science and religion each cause us to seek answers from outside of ourselves, when actually we contain all of the answers we’ll ever need within us, our spirit. Even the current ‘New Age’ movement also leads us to seek help from outside of ourselves in the form of angels, crystals, and light/energy. In alignment with our spirit, we realize our true power, and we stop feeling the need to call things from outside of ourselves. All that I had been noticing and feeling about my own alignment with my spirit was confirmed at my training in Holographic Kinetics. When we are aligned with our own spirit, we heal ourselves and others, we are naturally protected from things that seek to cause us harm (which has manifested in me feeling completely safe even when traveling around big cities alone), and our innate psychic abilities increase as does our ability to manifest things in our life. You can balance out your left brain right brain use by balancing your use of logic with your use of your imagination and creativity. Music lessons to balance the science classes. Following your intuition will also help you tap into the abilities of the right side of your brain. Encourage your kids to play freely when they’re out of the walls of their classrooms. We’ve got to keep our inner child alive and well to push past all of the programming that is being fed to us daily. Remember, it’s our inner child that is tuned in with our spirit, and therefore our joy.

It’s important as you move through life having various experiences that you take note of how they make you feel. Start making a mental note of what you’re doing when you feel most alive, and then do those things as often as you can. In my experience, as you start doing one thing that lights you up, you will naturally be guided to other activities that also uplift you. As you follow your intuition by saying yes to joy and no to things/people that leave you feeling bad, your intuition will get stronger. You’ll start to feel more alive and you’re energetic vibration will increase. Your spirit will then guide you to purge all in your life that is no longer serving your highest good, while it sends you new people, opportunities, and situations that match your new, increased frequency. As you get more in tune with your spirit, you will be able to sense people’s energies and intentions even before you physically meet them, which then allows you to choose when to focus your energy on a connection or not. Gone are the days of giving our energy away to situations and people that will not ultimately serve our highest good. Life gets better and better from there!

Contrary to what we’ve been led to believe, life is meant to be fully LIVED with lots of love, joy, well-being, and connection! We are limitless! Life is limitless! Prioritize your own energetic frequency, so that you’re able to align with your own spirit. From that place of alignment, life becomes a fun adventure, and absolutely EVERYTHING is possible!!

If you need extra support as you level up, expand, and move into spiritual alignment, I am available for Mindfulness Coaching and Classes. I currently teach a Mindfulness for Children class through my local Parks and Recreation for 8 to 12 year olds. If you’re ready to purge issues that have been repeatedly holding you back, I can’t recommend highly enough that you try a session of Dreamtime Healing using Holographic Kinetics with me locally, or with a Practitioner near you! It has changed my life in so many positive ways, and I see it also transforming the lives of those who have already had a session with me! There is no other healing modality like it. The time is NOW to free ourselves from the past, so that we can create a new present, and therefore a new future for ourselves! You can read more about my journey to Holographic Kinetics HERE and contact me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com for more information.

See Maya Angelou perform my favorite poem of hers, “And Still I Rise” HERE. Let’s all take our power back and choose to RISE!

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Are You Being Bribed?

Look, I know not everyone hates their chosen profession that provides a salary, but how many do?! I didn’t hate my job the hospital, but I stopped enjoying it when the red tape was longer than the time I was able to actually be with my patients when they needed me. And regardless of that, the stress of the job began to negatively affect my health. I had my own primary FNP urge me to leave my job to protect my health. I had already lost my health once and almost died and I wasn’t willing to go through that again! After all, I had already learned up close and personal that I wouldn’t be able to buy my health back with money. A lesson a lot of people learn every day. So I jumped out of a $70,000+ a year career to save myself. You know what it feels like 1.5 years later? Worth. It!

Am I making even close to what I was then doing Holographic Kinetics and Mindfulness Coaching and Educating? Not yet. Not close. In fact, I could likely qualify for public assistance, but I’m living in a place of trust that all that I need is always provided for me, and it’s worked out so far. But on par with one of my last posts, what I need shows up when I need it, and not a moment sooner, because I am being taught by my spirit to live in the present moment only. How else are we to learn if we don’t surrender and trust to the flow of the Universe? Do I have some late bills? Yes. Am I freaking out about them? No. I’ve cultivated inner peace that exists regardless of anything outside of myself, which I believe is exactly the point. I no longer define my worth by my career or my income. I’ve never felt so confident in my life. Priceless.

I’m not the only one who had health issues in an RN job. Some stayed, some left, and some are on extended leave of absences (LOA’s), which essentially means that their job is creating physical, mental and/or emotional stress and they are forced to take a break from work. People put their health and their own dreams on the back burner in exchange for a paycheck. It’s bullshit. People get just enough to be ‘comfortable’, a state typically void of real LIVING and JOY. We tend to earn ‘just enough’ to pay on all of the debt we incurred from school, credit cards, mortgages, and cars. We have ‘enough’ to get by, but not to do the things we’ve been longing to do. If we do make enough to say travel, then we’ve got higher ups saying if and when we can take the vacation days we earned. Last year, after planning a trip to vacation with family in Hawaii, I was told that because the cycle sick time for kin hadn’t yet started over that I wouldn’t have enough PTO for my vacation, meaning that I wouldn’t be able to take it. I made sure to quit before then, because I was done living my life for other people, and only with other people’s permission while my own health suffered. Nope. See, that’s the beauty of a catastrophic health event, you become absolutely resolute about not repeating it, and you also start putting your own needs first for a change.

Our jobs sell us lots of stuff to get us hooked: salary, health insurance, paid sick leave, paid vacation time, and discounts in the cafeteria. Telling me that I accrue paid sick leave, but only letting me use it after I’ve had to call off of work for 3 consecutive days (and supply a doctor’s note), is not a perk, it’s a fake benefit. I guess it would have been there to fall back on after the job completed its duty of fully taking my health away, but I wasn’t staying to find out. It’s just something they ‘give’ us that makes us feel like we’re signing on with a company who cares about our well-being. All nurses have to dip into the vacation PTO days off that they earn with each paycheck in order to get a paid sick day off. And do you know how many days off a year a nurse is ‘allowed’ to call in before the hand slapping starts? Three, yes 3 days a YEAR. I needed health insurance when I was living a life of putting myself last, not so much when I’ve been living a life aligned with my own spirit.

You ever wonder what the hell you’re even doing here? Do you really think we’re meant to only work, pay bills, and die?! Ever notice how quick we are to accept the social ‘norms’ and the ‘way things have always been done’? If you’re not happy, you’re the only one who can change it. If you want a different life, you’re going to have to be willing to get really uncomfortable and creative in your next steps. The only time to live is NOW. When are we going to wake up and fully LIVE?

I’ve been meeting more and more people who jumped out of their good paying jobs to work for themselves and/or in places/positions that add happiness to their lives. It can be done. All of the material wealth in the world is not worth your mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual well-being. Look at all of the celebrities who keep killing themselves despite reaching the fame and fortune they set out to achieve. That should be a big wake up call to all of us. Money can’t buy you love, happiness, or joy. Learn to put your well-being and alignment above everything else. There’s much abundance, healing, happiness, joy, and peace to be found here in alignment. Following our intuition and joy to alignment isn’t about forgoing all responsibility. It’s about following inspired action vs feeling moved to some made up required action. It’s about manifesting everything you want and need that’s in sync with your own frequency in divine timing. It’s living in gratitude for all that you have vs only thinking about what you don’t have. It’s about being responsible for your own energy and what you’re bringing into the world. We help others when we help ourselves. We create change when we change ourselves. We lift each other up when we first lift ourselves up.

We don’t have to hustle if we align. Alignment gives way to inspired action which means that the things you do are fun even when they’re for ‘work’. We spend so much time working, so it’d be really smart to find something we enjoy doing. Does it really make sense that the only time we get to truly be free and live the life we want is after retirement when we’re in our 60’s? I’ve known people to die at 60 or mid-60’s. What if you retire at 65 and die at 75? Is 10 years of 75 years really the only time you want to enjoy and experience freedom?!?! What about the people working past retirement age because they feel forced to keep the health insurance? As a whole, are we really OK with this limiting set up?

Have you ever considered that we’re better followers when everything bombarding us makes us feel inferior, small, worthless, and reaching for things outside of ourselves for answers, support, and love? The program creates a void in us, and then creates solutions in the form of science, religion, gadgets, material items, new age beliefs to fill it when in fact, if we’d tune out the noise, we’d find that our natural state is well-being and that all of the answers we ever need exist within us. Nothing in this world is what it seems. We are all limitless, infinite consciousness in a rented human meat suit. We are powerful beyond measure and we are capable of SO much more than the long-accepted status quo. It’s go time! The time to live is NOW! What are you being bribed to do in life by money or fear of the unknown, or your need to feel in control?

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If you’d like to tap into the wisdom of your spirit and clear some of the programming and beliefs that got locked into it during this life, previous lives, the genetic lines, or from inter dimensional interferences seeking control, then consider a session of Dreamtime Healing using Holographic Kinetics with me. All sessions are done in person. Issues are cleared on all levels and dimensions which means that they stop impacting your current life and future lives. Healing ripples back into previous generations as well as forward into future generations. Holographic Kinetics allows you and your spirit to take back control of your life without the things currently holding you back.

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Don’t Wait

I read “Tuesday’s with Morrie” years ago. This post reminded me of how much wisdom is held within those pages and how much I loved reading it.

The biggest mistake we all tend to make in this life is that we slip into the habit of thinking that we have more time. But there will come a day, and it could always be today, when our time will run out. A time when we will close our eyes for the last time in our current body rental, and this life will come to a close. Because we never know when that time will come, it’s good to live our lives in the truth that it could happen at any time.

I’ve done this myself and sometimes still do. I slip into the ordinary in moments with my son when we’re both on our screens. Is that how I’d choose to spend our last moments together? No. But we’re human and we like our human things. And that’s OK. I’m not saying that every moment of every day is going to be the best moment ever. But I am saying that we should really consider how many best moments we’re incorporating into our lives on the daily. Or just how many are we staying PRESENT for and APPRECIATING?

My mindfulness practice has led me to joy and gratitude beyond measure. And it’s not that I’m doing extraordinary things every day, but that I have realized the extraordinary to be found in everything! I appreciate all of the seemingly small things that some people often overlook. I follow my joy and express my truth and gratitude to the people who add positive energy to my life.

I see the beauty of the sun peeking through the leaves on the trees during yoga in the park when a breeze is blowing just enough to keep the air cool. I appreciate running into friends unexpectedly when I go to my favorite coffee shop. I appreciate the late night phone call with a friend when they have a lot going on in their life and need someone to listen. I appreciate the new connections I make every day that I get out into the world with people who are free spirits who love life the way I do. I appreciate smiles from strangers as I walk down the street. I appreciate the appearance of all dogs shaggy in my life whose faces remind me of my old Gus dog. I appreciate messages from friends. The seemingly small things are the big, important things, because at the end of the day, I don’t need to have had extravagant things to have happened in order to feel like it was my best day ever! Cultivate a feeling of gratitude for everyone and everything that shows up on your path.

Life is only as good as we make it. Heaven and hell are here on earth and can be found in the mindset that we keep. When you look for negative, you find negative. When you look for positive, you find positive. It’s up to each of us how we choose to show up. I can tell you from experience that this quote is 100% accurate for me. As I’ve found myself and have followed my joy, I’m not as concerned with my past, I’m just excited to be on this adventure and to see what’s around the next corner!! I have passion to do more, see more, and be more!

The biggest transformation of my life began when I noticed that I was suffering through life, and I decided that I was tired of it and didn’t want to suffer anymore. I thought that surely there had to be another way to live life. My mindfulness practice began by noticing how I was talking to myself. I found that my self-talk was so negative that I wouldn’t talk to my own dog that way! Awareness is KEY to changing anything in our lives.

If we’re dissatisfied with our lives, we’re the only ones responsible for changing them. I have dug myself out of years of people-pleasing, peace-keeping, depression, dissatisfaction, dis-ease, and negative self-talk to name a few. I became mindful and picked up new, positive habits and coping mechanisms for life and got consistent in my practice of them. It wasn’t always an easy process, but it was a life-changing one that I view as beyond worth it.

Don’t wait for the end of your life to realize what you could have done differently to live more fully! The time to examine your life is NOW! Are you doing the things you are passionate about? Are you allowing yourself to be authentic and vulnerable? Are you loving yourself completely? Are you living your best life? If you’re answering with a bunch of no’s, then it’s time to make some changes. Now is the only time you have to make those changes. What can you do TODAY to incorporate more JOY into your experience? What would have to happen to make this your best year yet? There are still over 4 months left in 2019. You have plenty of time to do amazing things!

People usually get to the end of their lives and realize just how important the connections with other people were to them. Spend time being present with your loves ones NOW. Don’t put off saying things or doing things because you keep thinking that you’ll do it later. Sometimes there is no later. Now is the moment you’re promised, that’s it. So make the most of this moment, and ultimately, this life. Tell people you love them, hug more, call more, visit more, laugh more, snuggle more, be PRESENT more, and LIVE more! You get one shot in this life with this meat suit, so how do you want to live it?

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Unconditional Love

 

I pay attention to the lyrics in the music I listen to. “What if all the love you gave was starin’ at you from the grave, would it make your heart explode?” To me, these lyrics speak of the amount of love we’re giving out into the world. Are you giving out so much love in your life that having it come back to you would make your heart so full that it would figuratively explode?! So many people I follow and books I have read speak to the same truth: only unconditional love is real, all else is an illusion. Loving ourselves and others as much as we can is the KEY to a better life and a better world! 

I find myself so in love with myself and with life these days that I attract the absolute BEST people whom I love instantly! I’ve slowly let go of the notion that love needs to only be reserved for my family and romantic relationships. In the last year as I have followed my joy and intuition into alignment with my own spirit, I have found my heart open so much to the love that we all are. It’s a really beautiful feeling to have love in my heart for everyone, even people I’ve just met! I strive more to show my love for people in my life than to speak it, but speaking it has also been so freeing. Why do we keep our love under lock and key? I think it’s a result of a combination of our past hurts, traumas, and  programming among other things. We’re more used to feeling hate and fear than we are to feeling love and togetherness. We’re more used to imagining worst case scenarios than best case scenarios. The more I love myself, the more incredible the people I attract are, the more love I feel, because PEOPLE ARE SO BEAUTIFUL! We are all energetic, spiritual beings first and foremost, so when I feel good energy emanating from someone, I feel it and our spirits are magnetized to one another. And even in times when I feel it and don’t say it, I often think to myself, “I love you!” which sends a powerful love vibration out to the person and into the world. 

I have been so lucky to look into the face of someone I love with tears in our eyes as we consciously chose to have our relationship transform into a friendship. It was for the best, and we both knew it. I have loved only this one person unconditionally in a romantic context. I thought that I had loved unconditionally before him, but I hadn’t, because in those past relationships, I was unconsciously seeking to receive love in return for the love I was giving. It has to do with the conscious awareness I have cultivated in my life over the last several years. I have never been so conscious in relationship before. Real unconditional love exists when we aren’t needing or wanting, consciously or not, anything in return for the love that we give someone. It comes when we release expectations of how we want someone to be or how we want them to show up in our lives, and fully allow them to be who they are. We love them for who they are, not for who we want them to be. 

Much of my conscious awareness with relationships came from this relationship. It didn’t always feel good. In fact, at times my wounds were triggered and it was set up so that I was pushed to go within to find the answers to why I was feeling this way vs blaming my feelings on the other person. Because of the way it was set up, we did not see each other often, which meant that I had the distance I needed to really connect with myself and see my codependent tendencies and therefore heal and release them vs act from them. I even told him that I was catching things before I felt the need to bring an issue up to him. It’s what our spirits set out to do, to make us aware of our issues, to give us space to see and heal them, and to hold loving space for each other as we healed, grew, and expanded. Friends, there is nothing like dropping expectations and seeing the bigger picture of a connection with a person. 

And it’s not about dropping expectations for how we want to be treated, or allowing ourselves to settle for less than what we want in a relationship. It’s about going with the flow, knowing that people don’t show up in our lives by chance, and embracing the lessons and moments with a person in the NOW. We have the choice of who we spend time with, so at any moment if a connection isn’t bringing us joy, we have the ability to walk away. I would always ask myself if the connection was bringing me joy. While the answer was yes, I made space for the connection in my life, When we felt like we needed to move on, we did, with no ill will or feelings towards each other. I never felt anger. I never felt the need to cling, because I was also learning during this time that there is no lack in this life. Therefore, I didn’t feel the need to cling to him. I knew that when I was guided to move on that I could trust it and I got curious about what/who would come in to fill that energetic space in my life. When we really love someone, we want the best for them and us. We respectfully express gratitude for them and their time as we walk away. We acknowledge the beauty of the connection, because an end is never really an end to the love we feel. There are no real lines, so there is no switch to change our feelings just because the nature of the relationship has changed. If we really love someone, we let them go with grace and love. 

In the last year especially, I have seen how divine the timing of everything is, including the timing of when people come into and go out of my life. There are no coincidences. I have always had the idea that this person and I had a deeper connection with each other. I felt like we knew each other from past lives. We recently got closure that I didn’t even know I needed. Our connection came full circle as we completed the pact our spirits had with each other to meet up and help remind each other of who we were before the world told us who we should be. Much of our relationship was about experiencing child-like joy together. We met just before I realized that my health was back and that I was physically capable of all that I had been before my dis-ease. I found myself, in part, in our moments spent together. Sometimes, even when we think that we’ve let go of a person completely, we can spend time together and get beautiful closure beyond a time of physical separateness. We had an amazing time express our feelings and gratitude, to share what we had learned in our relationship and during our time apart, and to experience more joy together!

Stay open. When you follow your intuition and joy, you’ll find that you get guided to what you need rather than what you think you want. Our spirits know what we need. Our spirits know when we need more experiences with a person in order to close out the old agreement we had with them in order to make way for the new friendship that we’re welcoming into the new, now moment. Giving love is always the answer. When we’re giving from our overflowing cup, giving love to someone doesn’t deplete us. When we love unconditionally, we see how beautiful people are even in their own perceived ‘flaws’. Loving this person unconditionally opened me to love myself unconditionally. I saw him in all of his authenticity and vulnerability and I saw myself reflected back to me. Loving his light AND dark led me to love my own light and dark in a deeper way. Isn’t it beautiful how relationships are to grow us and not make us happy? Our sweet closure left me in awe of our shared experience and excited for what is to come for both of us as we’ve both transformed our lives in the time since we first met. We shift our connection and allow ourselves to go as a river into the wild, expansive unknown of the next, now moment. 

If all the love I gave was starin’ at me from the grave it would most definitely make my heart explode! The love I experience every day for myself, life, nature, and the connections I continue to make with other people already makes my heart explode on the daily! Life is an adventure. Play more! Love more! Follow your joy every day! It’s in your power to create and give more love in this life! Start with loving yourself and then allow that love to overflow out into the people and world around you! The world needs more love! 

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Watch the video for “Let It Go” HERE. (Yes I know I have posted this song on this blog before. It has so many good messages for all of us!)

 

We Create Our Relationships

I choose my thoughts and my thoughts create my reality! I choose to think that conscious people attract conscious partners. End of story.

I see other sayings bouncing around about spiritual women attracting men who need healing. Hate to break it to you, but we’re the ones attracting people into our reality. It’s not some random thing. It’s energetic. If you don’t like the types of people you’re attracting into your life, then your best bet is to start looking at your own vibration. Are you showing up as the person you’re seeking? Are you loving yourself up? Do you believe that you are worthy of love? Of a conscious partner? Are you generally joyous or miserable? Negative or positive?

We’re the only ones we can blame in our game, because we’re so powerful that we create it. Read that again. I attracted a controlling person when I was tired of making all of the decisions in another relationship. I didn’t want to plan every activity anymore. This person did. Problem solved. Also, even though I didn’t realize it at the time, I was attempting to fill a void in me with another person. And that doesn’t work. Ever. So stop trying. Depending on other people for the love that we should be giving ourselves never makes for a happy, healthy relationship. I take full responsibility for the situation I created with my low self-esteem, lack of self-love, decision to no longer be the one guiding my life, and my codependent ways. Me. It all brought me to ground zero. Being broken isn’t always a bad thing if what you needed was a restart. I left that relationship not even knowing what I preferred the thermostat to be set at. I didn’t know what made me happy, or even what kind of music I liked because I stopped listening to it for years. (Red flag #6,837,263) I had to start myself over. Reset!

It’s almost like I was deprogrammed from things I had come to learn about myself since birth. It was all erased, because I had lost myself so completely in that relationship. I literally had to start rebuilding myself. From scratch I had to figure out things I liked to do, people I liked to be around, and music I liked to listen to, to name a few. I also had to start loving myself and putting my needs and well-being first, which is how I gathered the courage to leave. I had to be mentally and physically healthy, so that I could be there for myself and my young son.

And so, I started over. That’s not to say that some other repeating relationship patterns didn’t show up again until I realized that I was the common denominator. If you find yourself in this place of seeing cycles of similarities in all of your relationships, do yourself a favor and stop playing victim and get back into the driver’s seat. Take back your power as a powerful creator in this world, and stop blaming other people for your unhappiness. Take that last relationship that ended the same way as your wake up call to do the work that you didn’t even know you needed to do. Look within for a change. Live yourself. Be kind to yourself. Stop with the negative self-talk. Stop putting every single other person‘s needs ahead of meeting your own.

We get what we expect in life. Our subconscious thoughts about ourselves and life tend to run the show until we become conscious creators. Are you going to put your energy into dwelling on what you’ve attracted in the past, or are you going to focus on raising your vibration and attracting something so good that it’s beyond the scope of your current imagination?! I know what I’m choosing.

Have you ever heard the saying “you don’t get what you want. You get what you are.”? It came to me today after writing most of this that I have experienced this literally in my life. We have to get really honest with ourselves to see it sometimes. Like the time I was dating someone and was getting so annoyed that he was emotionally unavailable. Haha! Yeah, at this point, I was conscious enough to get annoyed, but then realized shortly after that I was not emotionally available either. Sometimes in this life as we’re all so used to following the beat of the dividing drum, we point fingers at others when in fact, WE are the ones we need to be reflecting on. I had several things come up during this time with this person, and none of it was about them, not really. For every single issue I had, I could see where inside me it was stemming from. When you attain this level of awareness, the people in your life stop becoming the enemy. You see people as actual reflections of you, and the parts of you that need healed. Or, you uncover some limiting belief about yourself or life that has been unconsciously creating your life. Are you so spiritual that you’re attracting partners who need healed, or are you in fact attracting mirrors who are showing you parts of yourself that still need healed? It’s time to level up across the board. Now is not the time to be aware in some areas of our lives, yet asleep in others. Allow your righteousness to fall away, because no one is more ‘right’ than another. This life is not about competition, it’s about aligning with our own spirits so that we can consciously create the lives of our dreams. We have to start in our own lanes if we want to create lasting change in our lives and in the world. The change has to start within. So, pay attention. What are you attracting into your life? The answer to this question will tell you where your energetic vibration has been up to now. Don’t worry if you’re not where you want to be yet, you have the power to change it.

The reality is that we are all one. When you treat another with kindness, you are being kind to yourself. When you hate another, you are sending hate to yourself. We’re connected, as we are all Source/Universe/God in human form. So do your best to drop the labels and stop the finger pointing. Show up with more compassion for everyone, including yourself firstly. It is not ‘selfish’ to put yourself first. Because we are all so intimately connected, when you take care of yourself, you also take care of me.

Locally, I am available for Dreamtime Healing using Holographic Kinetics sessions. You can read more about it at http://www.holographickinetics.com. In session, your spirit guides us on a journey back in time to find the points of creation for 3 issues that you are currently struggling with, so that you can change that dimension of time permanently at the level of the spirit. It essentially then breaks the repeating cycles of similarity in your life that have been and would otherwise continue to repeat. Reach out to me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com for more information or visit the Holographic Kinetics website to find a practitioner near you.

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Music. Healing. Matisyahu.

In June of 2016, I had the pleasure of taking care of one of the sweetest families ever born when they were in the hospital having their second child, a boy. I remember both of the children’s names to this day. I’m telling you, this couple and their kids were some of the most beautiful spirits. Their smiles and positive energy are forever etched in my mind and made my life better in the day that I got to care for them. The other nurses who were lucky to get them in the days following me talked about how amazing they were too. Everyone wanted to be their nurse. The Dad commented that maybe they’d run into me at the Farmer’s Market, but so far, that hasn’t happened. I look for them though, and think of them often, with a smile on my face.

They were playing music in their room. At one point, when I had gone in to check on them, I really liked the song that was playing and asked the woman who it was. She told me and confirmed it by looking at the playlist on her phone. I played it cool, but barely knew what she had said, and I didn’t move my pride aside long enough to get the clarification. So I went home that night and googled it: modest yahoo. Hahaha!! Luckily, google figured it out for me and gave me my answer: Matisyahu.

Little did I know how much I needed Matisyahu, his message, and his music in my life. For the next almost 3 years, he’s helped me through a lot in my life, namely my total life transformation, the discovery and awakening of my true, higher self, my leap of faith out of my RN job in the hospital, my journey with my own business which is essentially my career of surrender and faith, and the immense amount of healing work I have been doing for myself, my family, and my ancestors.

On May 5th, I saw Matisyahu live for the fourth time. I manifested it. One morning, I said out loud that I needed to get to that show, and by that same afternoon a friend had texted me about volunteering in exchange for a free ticket to THAT show! I was thrilled to be front row and nearly center during his performance. When I listen to music, I hear and feel the lyrics. To me, Matis lyrics speak of the changes that we as the human race need to make, so that we can all live in a world of peace and acceptance. A lot of his lyrics are spiritual in nature. I can relate to the things he sings about in such an intimate way, because the human experience is ultimately a shared experience of awakening to our limitless potential. To get to that state of realization, usually we experience a lot of hardships. The plot is not unique to any of us, though the specifics of the stories vary.

Our words are our bond. They are powerful and should not be said or thought lightly. They greatly impact our lives and the world around us. It is no different to express words that we have created ourselves or to walk around singing someone else’s song lyrics. Be mindful of what you are consuming and repeating. The shows we watch and the music we listen to are vitally important, because when we’re doing those activities, our minds become open to suggestion. It’s why companies pay so much for commercials on TV and radio. The thoughts we think become our reality. Pay attention to the music lyrics you’re consuming and walking around repeating out loud or in your head. Once you look at music this way, listening to the radio takes on a whole new meaning. I was in a Lyft recently and every song that came on in a succession of 4 or 5 songs was about the person giving up their power, being a victim, and submitting to something outside of themselves. Music is heavily influenced as an industry. Consider choosing music that lifts you up without selling you material things, a certain lifestyle, or a victim mentality that leaves you seeking help from outside of yourself. The music played to the masses over the radio is most noticeably influenced, because it reaches the most people, but all music has the ability to sell a message that keeps us living small.

How is the music that you’re listening to make you feel? What messages is it sending you about life or about yourself? Would you be OK with the lyrics you’ve been walking around singing manifesting in your life? If not, it’s time to find some new music.

I actually walked away from music at the House Music Festival in Chicago several times yesterday, because they started playing things with words that just did not feel good to me. Our subconscious minds pick up everything we take in, and more so when it’s put to a catchy beat. Start paying attention to how TV and music make you feel and the kinds of messages planted in them. It’ll open up your mind in such a big way when you start paying attention.

Music has the ability to lift us up and get us through tough times. It has the ability to align us to our spirit. It has the ability to connect us all in dance. The next time you’re out at a show, consider putting your phone away and joining in the dancing. Life is short to spend it taking video the entire time of the fun going on around you. Join in. Dance. Risk being seen. Risk looking like a fool. Those of us dancing aren’t thinking about you. We’re enjoying life! Enjoy it with us!

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Watch Michael Franti and Spearhead‘s “Love Will Find a Way” HERE

Fleeting Moments

Grief. It’s a tricky thing. I didn’t realize how much grief I had stored in my body until recently when I went and saw the movie “Five Feet Apart”, followed by crying at Rob Bell’s ‘An Introduction of Joy’, an amazing purging of emotions during a craniosacral therapy session, and followed today by nearly bursting into tears as I watched a little three-year-old boy in front of me in line at the grocery store. Isn’t that the way with grief? It comes up at the most seemingly unlikely of times. It hadn’t even been on my radar and then BOOM, there it was, over and over and over again.

I’ve asked for this. I’ve asked Source and my higher self to help clear out anything no longer serving me. I ask for it every time I shower. I ask the water to heal me and cleanse me of any energy or way of being that is no longer serving my highest good. Enter in emotions that have been stored deep within me being brought to the surface and into my conscious awareness to be healed once and for all. The things that have been coming up have caught me a bit off guard. It’s been from patients in the hospital who died on comfort care during my time of taking care of them. It’s come up for the loss of my father-in-law as his birthday just passed. It’s come up today for the grief I feel as a mother of a child who is growing and changing right in front of my eyes.

I have felt like my grief is sitting in my chest in a conglomerate of sorts, all jumbled up together in a ball of burnt, shredded and dismantled rubber from a tire that has blown out on a highway. It’s all there, melted together. Actual deaths and suicides of friends and family. Figurative deaths of my marriage, of my old self who processed everything as best she could at the time, the loss I feel from each year that my son grows and morphs into his next round of humanness. Relationships come and gone. Jobs come and gone. Places come and gone. Some things hit harder than others, even in my new understanding and beliefs of how this all works and the fact that I don’t believe any soul ever ‘dies’.

My experience and grief is relative. I do not mean to downplay or gloss over other kinds of grief by expressing my own experiences. I left the grocery store today in tears about my son’s growth, recorded a video about it, and then learned that a friend suffered a miscarriage. It only further reiterated the fragile nature of life and the importance of our appreciation and presence in all of the moments.

My grief was pushed down and avoided when I went to work or school and was trying to function in the world as I felt like crying, but put a smile on instead. When my sadness overcame me in the form of depression and wishing for death, I still had to find a way to live in the world. That dichotomy consumed me at times. The mask I wore nearly suffocated me. Can you relate?

I almost did that today. In fact, I suppose I did do that at the register as I watched the two young boys in front of me and awaited my turn to check out and pay. I dared not completely lose it and breakdown right then and there as I waited to pay. I saved that for a few moments later for when I expressed my gratitude to the Mom that I had remained in line behind her and her children after she had told me I could go ahead of her. I cried. I cried as I spoke of my son and his crocs and the fact that he was now nearly my size, and the fact that the time had moved so fast. I cried on my way to my car, got to my car and cried some more. I know from experience that this wasn’t only about my son. This was just a path of least resistance to have me open up and release years of grief stored within me. Tears have the power to cleanse us. Tears have the power to heal us, yet often, we hold them back.

I found myself basking in the ever present fleeting nature of this life, all the moments, and all the people who have crossed my path. I recorded this video in that moment. THIS is why I live the way I do. I have taken care of a patient in their 20’s on comfort care with AIDS, surrounded by their twin and rest of their family during their final moments of life. I witnessed and stored the pain felt by their family within my body. I nearly lost my own life with a baby at home depending on me for nourishment and love. While I am aware of my infinite, spiritual nature, I also know that in this body, in this time and space, I only have one shot to make the most of it. My pain has fueled my passion. My heartache has fueled my love. I would not be who I am without every single experience of my life, and for that, I am eternally grateful.

I don’t know how else to say it. Please allow other people’s stories to impact yours. Please snap out of the sleep you’re in and start living life to the fullest. Please enjoy the small moments, because they are in fact, the most important moments of our lives.

It’s a choice to follow your passion or go along with the status quo. It’s a choice to remain asleep in victim consciousness or to wake up to your full power as a co-creator in this life. It is a choice whether or not to remain present during all of your moments or to check out.

In my life so far, I have lived both ways. I have seen how feeling like a victim affected my life and I am a witness daily to the way that realizing my power to shape my reality has positively transformed my life. I know what I will continue to choose.

I will choose growth, expansion, and healing. I will choose placing my priority on my energetic vibration and my alignment with my higher self. I will choose to listen to a nudge from my intuition over the loud voices of the people and institutions surrounding me. I was asleep and desperately trying to numb my feelings and the energy of those around me for most of my life, and I will not go back to that way of being.

I will do my best to continue to do the real ‘adulting’ in this life which I believe is to say that I will do my best to feel my feelings in the moment. I have learned that when I feel feelings as they arise, they are much easier to handle and process. I have learned that feeling my feelings now means that I won’t store them in my body to process later or to have them surface as dis-ease or pain at a later date. I know that our feelings can overwhelm us. I understand why we’d oftentimes prefer to shut them off entirely. But what I have found is that those old feelings will hold us back in life until we feel and heal them once and for all. After all, energy is never destroyed, it is merely transformed. Unfelt feelings and trauma not dealt with only lead to pain, dis-ease, and suffering later in life.

I have learned that when I show up fully in my life, that my challenges stop creating stigma and start being a path for deeper connection and understanding with other humans. When I choose to open up in full authenticity and vulnerability, I find others who have had similar experiences to mine. I also find that giving myself the permission and space to open up gives others that same space and freedom. Everything starts with us and creates ripple effects outward. I think what we all really need is just the reminder that we are never alone in our struggles. That there are common threads that connect us all. Remember that we never know what someone is going through, so it’s critical that we treat people kindly, always. Remember to treat yourself kindly as well. This life isn’t a rehearsal. Are you present in your moments? Are you doing what you came here to do?

Thank you for being here on this journey with me. When I started this blog in 2017, I could have never known the freedom that it would give me to show up fully in my life. Writing here has helped me remove the compartments that I used to sort the various areas of my life into.

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