Trauma

An event is traumatic, because it causes us to decide something about ourselves or about life that we then create from ever after. In the moment of a traumatic event, we lock in beliefs that life then continues to prove true, since what we believe we experience. The event can cause a lot of pain and suffering in the moment, but it’s our continual reliving of the beliefs we acquired through it that truly cause us to suffer over and over again.

It is my changed perspective about myself and life that continues to shape my experience, not the original traumatic event itself. We are powerful creators, so if something makes us decide at some point at conception or beyond that we are not worthy of love, then we will create situations and relationships over and over again to prove that belief. I had that cycle repeating in my own life. Luckily, through my personal sessions of Holographic Kinetics, I was able to clear that belief at the spirit level, so I no longer have to carry it around to have it surface time and again in this life and future lives. Phew!

So much of what we come to know about ourselves and the world is taught to us within a system that places more value on our physical reality than on the fact that we are all spiritual beings having a temporary human experience. Our multidimensionality and that of the universe tends to be completely overlooked. So, a lot of spiritual information then doesn’t tend to fit neatly into the confines of what we’ve been taught our whole lives. This leads to major disconnect and feelings of dis-ease. We begin bottling up the things we think or feel that don’t fit with what we’ve been told by our families, teachers, friends, and the organizations to which we belong (Wow, organizations we belong to, think on that for a minute. I personally don’t want to ‘belong’ to any organization). We sometimes label these things as “wrong”, or have the people we open up to do it for us. The reality is that usually the discourse we feel is because our own inner knowing doesn’t match up with what we’re being told/taught. I have learned to always trust the inner knowing above everything else. We have all of the answers we seek inside of us.

The reality is that the world we live in is nothing as it seems. We have been taught to place so much importance on the outer world and things out of our control that we’ve lost sight of the fact that WE are the ones that can free and heal ourselves. To take our power back means to stop giving it away to others. We’ve got to snap out of victim-mode ASAP. There is no one else to blame if we continue to relive our traumas and not do the work to get out of the cycle of similarity we’ve become trapped in by our own beliefs. I’m not saying it’s easy, but I am saying it’s necessary if we want to finally start listening to the nudges of our spirits and break free from old patterns and programming, so that we can get on with living our best lives.

I have done a lot of inner work. I keep being guided deeper and deeper to clear more and more from my past. We are so powerful that we can set intentions and tell our spirits what we want, and then notice that we will be guided to the people, situations, and resources to help us. How many of you set an intention to level up and/or clear out what was no longer serving you and have experienced people and situations clearing out of your life in record speeds this year? We asked for all of it. Right now, I am being urged to drive several hours away to the nearest practitioner to have another Holographic Kinetics session. As I’ve cleared issues on my own, and through HK, other issues have moved to the surface as the next important parts in need of healing. Remember, the growth and healing doesn’t stop until we die. But, in my own experience, it does stop feeling so severe, because I can more easily recognize what is happening. If you are being guided to a specific type of healing, I urge you to follow it. When I have done that, I have found another piece of the puzzle that helped me on my path back to my innate well-being.

Several years ago, I was sick of being depressed. I wasn’t actively depressed when I decided this, but I was suffering greatly. My thoughts about my situation were primarily negative and I felt stuck in a life that I didn’t feel I had chosen for myself. As I dug myself out of those beliefs, I began to see some light at the end of the tunnel. I realized that it wasn’t really my outer experience causing me to suffer, but my belief about it! This was huge! I remember getting very annoyed with a woman I worked with for a time when she’d say that things were the way they were supposed to be, because that’s what was happening. How easy is it to think that everything is happening for a reason when we’re enjoying life?! Not so much, it seems, when we’re unhappy with our lives. But, it’s important to realize that we can’t think that things are happening as they are meant to in some cases AND believe that we’re victims of circumstance in others. It doesn’t work that way. Because there is so much more to this life, we do not always consciously know what energy is being balanced out by a situation, or what lessons a person’s spirit is wanting them to learn. We’ve got to stay in our own lanes of being and focus on our own growth.

That being said, we are often stuck in time and repeating cycles of similarity. One way to work through this is to become aware of the dynamic happening and then ask ourselves what our role in it has been. When we take responsibility for our lives in this way, positive shifts happen because we take back our power. Standing in our own power and our own innate sense of knowing moves us towards alignment with our own spirit. An example in my own life is that it doesn’t serve my highest good to complain about a past relationship with a narcissist. Even labeling the person that way isn’t helpful for me, though it is helpful in reaching the people who need this message. What helps me is to see the role I played in that relationship. What led me to it? I fully recognize that I knowingly gave up my power at the start of it. I had been in a relationship where I made so many of the decisions and I was tired of it. I was excited to spend time with someone who liked to plan our time together. Suddenly, I wasn’t the one planning all of the hikes. It felt like a relief to not make the decisions for a while. But then that led into giving my power away about other things. Next thing I knew, I no longer felt in control of my own life. But it started with ME. Realizing that has allowed me to become aware of and see the parts of me that were drawn to that relationship. I’ve then been able to work towards a much deeper level of healing from that place of awareness.

As much as we like to think that we know where an issue originated, in my sessions of Holographic Kinetics, I have been shown time and again that often, we are not actually consciously aware of the cause. Many times, a trauma in childhood merely activates an issue that spirit has been carrying through from lifetimes ago. Or, from a trauma that a grandfather or great grandmother locked in at the spirit level and began passing down to future generations. As we are spiritual beings first, our issues don’t always originate in this lifetime. It is our minds that will try and connect an issue to an event that we can consciously remember in an attempt to make sense of it. Sometimes, trauma happens as a result of something our parents say or do when we are in the womb, or when we are little babies less than a year old. Just the same, we lock in beliefs about ourselves or life in those moments, and begin to unconsciously create our reality from them.

In the Holographic Kinetics sessions that I do, I have witnessed a person’s spirit take them back to a point just after conception (yes, in their Mother’s womb) many times as it finds the cause of the first activation or creation of an issue in this lifetime. How is that possible? How can we be aware of anything when we have barely been conceived? It is because we are spirits first and foremost. As the aboriginal people explain it, our spirit is what is with us through this life as well as through all of our past lives. Our spirit is aware of the cause of ALL of the issues that are holding us back in this life. Holographic Kinetics allows us to communicate with our spirit and help it change the past in the present for the future.

You see, our spirits do not wish to relive the same lesson and limiting pattern over and over again. No, our spirits yearn to be free, so that they can experience the full range of creation in this life. This is why we have all been feeling so called to clear our old issues and baggage that we’ve possibly been carrying around for many lifetimes. Our spirits are guiding us to the changes we need to make in order to break free from the self-imposed/accepted limitations we’ve allowed for far too long. We can heal ourselves by listening to our spirits/higher selves/intuition. Our spirit knows what we need in order to thrive in this life. When we listen to that inner guidance/knowing, we are naturally led into alignment with our own spirit which is the place from which everything we seek is possible.

I urge you to begin to follow your intuition about everything. How do you know it’s your intuition and not your old patterns speaking? The inspired ideas you get from your spirit will leave you feeling excited. The guidance will be to things that make you feel good. In fact following your joy and what feels good to you is another way to align with your spirit. As you follow the guidance from your spirit/intuition, your ability to do so will strengthen. Over time, it will become second nature and you will come to trust it more. I have a way of asking for guidance from my own spirit that gives me answers based on the feeling I get in my body.

We all have the power to heal our trauma, so that it stops causing us to repeat the same cycles over and over. The answers to that healing really lie within each of us. We are all drawn to what we need, when we need it. I was drawn to numerous healing modalities before being pulled in a big way to Holographic Kinetics. It was all important, because it all led me to an expanded awareness and deeper healing. It’s like each thing allowed for wellness, so I’d be ready for the next level of healing. My healing didn’t happen all at once, or through only one modality. It’s as if I was being groomed to be able to wrap my head around the healing at the spirit level. I experienced such profound healing of my past wounds through Holographic Kinetics, and I continue to be amazed (not surprised) by the ways that I see it help my clients or friends afar who go to practitioners near them. I have witnessed it shift a friend out of severe suicidal thoughts and back into their previous excitement about the year to come immediately following their first Holographic Kinetics session. I will be speaking about this at a Mental Health and Mindfulness focused Visalia Talks and Wine in January, so stay tuned.

Mindfulness isn’t just about being present in our moments and grateful for what we have, it’s about developing a conscious awareness of the beliefs we have that are holding us back. In Holographic Kinetics, when we find the cause of an issue, our spirit is able to change that dimension of time, so that we break free from the beliefs about ourselves that continue to re-traumatize us through time on all levels and all dimensions.

If you’d like more information about Holographic Kinetics, email me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com. Check out my testimonials page at the top of this blog for feedback from a few of my clients. I am also happy to speak on any of the topics I cover in this blog at events or organizations who are interested in learning more. Email me with inquiries.

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Free to be ME!

My beautiful, visible wings are courtesy of talented artist, Mikayla Gutierrez, on Ziaya’s store!

I feel more ME right now than I ever have in my entire life! Well, at least in the time that I can consciously remember. I’ve been slowly peeling back the layers I had plastered on to please people and keep others comfortable. I dropped the chameleon skin I picked up during childhood in exchange for my authenticity. I used my joy and my intuition to light the way in this unearthing of my true nature. I dug back to my childhood and remembered what had once brought me the most joy and had made me feel most alive. As I did these things and explored more, I picked up the pieces of myself that I had lost along my journey.

There’s a reason why human transformation is often likened to the changes that a caterpillar endures during the process of becoming a butterfly. My inner work and process to alignment with my spirit hasn’t always been pretty. There have been times of exhilaration as I’ve realized a pattern, changed it, and have experienced the positive outcome. But there have been times wrought with tears and fear when I just wanted to fast forward through the growth to more comfort.

Returning to our true selves pushes us out of the comfort zones that we’ve known and into deeper states of awareness, healing, and well-being. At its core, transformation is uncomfortable. We cannot choose both, comfort AND transformation, but in my experience, transformation is worth every ounce of my discomfort. From my place of understanding, the caterpillar does not have the conscious awareness to know that going into a dark cocoon does not mean death. In a lot of ways, does not the caterpillar die? We can argue that the caterpillar who entered the cocoon and the butterfly that exits it are two different things. But because one was a living being and the other is a living being, we deduce that no true death of the spirit occurred. Spirit just went from one outward display to another. In the same way, I have completely transformed, though to some, the outward effects may be less visible.

We empower ourselves through our authenticity and vulnerability in showing up fully as who we each came here to be. We have been fooled. It is not a positive to conform to the crowd. In fact, conformity weakens our spirit. When we are always worried about what other people think of us, or if they like us, we disconnect from our own spirits which eventually leads to dis-ease of our body, mind, and spirit.

Choosing to remain in situations purely because we are comfortable can be likened to a caterpillar choosing to not enter into the cocoon stage of development. Sure, it’s life will go on and it will enjoy a life of eating leaves, but it will be missing out on living it’s full, potential expression as a butterfly. Change can be scary, but routine and comfort zones do more to kill our spirits than any change ever will.

I’m living proof to trust your journey. Regardless of where you are on your path of growth, you will be guided to bigger and better things when you adjust your sails towards living your best life. The process can be dark and scary at times, but that’s just a cocoon phase and it doesn’t last forever. On the other side of the cocoon is a life full of more freedom, joy, and love than you have ever known! That new way of being won’t be because any outside circumstance has changed, but because YOU have changed. Your way of looking at things has changed. The little things become the big things and the gratitude for all of it overtakes you. Do your best to flow with your transformation. When you go as a river, you release suffering as you trust your journey. You have the same ability as me to come out on the other side with your very own set of wings! Trust.

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My Purpose

“You are being called upon by the universe to be a shining example of how love can heal. The love you share will bring blessings to those who experience it. You are on the right path and this card is encouraging you to continue to help others through your gentle words as you have a natural counseling ability and bring joy to others.” — Andrianna Hopkins

When I talk about Holographic Kinetics and what I gained from my own sessions of it during my training in May, I often speak of the self confidence I now have as a direct result. It was palpable nearly immediately following my week of training. That confidence allows me to speak my truth and shine my light regardless of what others may think.

I follow Andrianna Hopkins on IG who posts a reading card every day. Yesterday’s card had this opening paragraph under it. It resonates with me to my core and I know that this speaks to a big part of my purpose in this life. Whether its friends I’ve known for years, family members, people who follow me here, people I meet as I’m out and about in the world, and even through past messages via online dating, I know that I affect people this way. People have always sought my counsel. They open up to me about big things that they often admit that they’ve never talked about with anyone else. As a natural born communicator and connector, deep conversations light me up! I absolutely LOVE having people open up to me about things going on in their lives. I am always so honored when people feel safe enough with me to drop their masks and open their hearts. Heart to heart connections/conversations are one of my greatest joys in this life!

Since transforming myself and my life, I find that I am always seeking new ways to share with others what I have learned on my journey. Enter in personal mindfulness coaching, a Mindfulness for Children class through my local Parks and Recreation, a Teen Mindfulness Group I created on my own, 1:1 teen mindfulness mentoring, the Holographic Kinetics sessions I do which really give people a full wake up call to how much our thoughts create our reality, the healing dance opportunities that my friend Jerrett Johnson and I are creating for our community, creating and selling my art, and the personal assistant work I now do with a highly intelligent, non-verbal high school graduate with autism, and I would say that I’m definitely on the right path for me. In fact, I’ve never felt more on my path and aligned with my spirit as I do right now!

I have spent the last almost 5 years waking up to my innate gifts and strengthening them as I’ve followed my intuition and joy to alignment with my own spirit. I have watched as the techniques I’ve come to use have helped guide me to amazing opportunities and people. I can feel the brevity of my purpose propelling me into a completely different life than I had last year, that will be at least as equally unrecognizable at this time next year. Our purpose is bigger than us. Mine has pushed me so far out of my comfort zone, that my inner peace remains in situations that would have left me with a stomach ulcer last year. I know that the comfort of my ego and my human mind are not important in the grand scheme of things, but that as I continue to follow the guidance of my spirit that the universe will always have my back. I rest my mind with that inner knowing.

My journey has included a deep inner discovery of what makes me tick and what wounds still need healed. The work I have done for myself has not always been easy, but at one point, it did start to become much like a game. First, someone or something makes me aware of a belief I’m holding about myself or life. Next, I take responsibility for my creation of said belief. Lastly, I find a way to flip the script so that I do not continue to repeat the same thing over and over. An example would be the negative self talk I used to feed myself continually. I had some difficult things happening in my life several years ago and was feeling miserable. My suffering was the catalyst for me to start trying to understand why I felt so terrible. It led me to start examining my thoughts. At that point, I noticed that I wasn’t being very nice to myself. I began to instead feed myself positive affirmations while also observing and then stopping the negative self talk. When I realized how big of an impact this practice was having on my life, I then excitedly moved on to other areas that I could improve on.

I am here to show people what’s possible through following our joy into alignment. I’ve had an unwavering knowing that I am meant to help myself first, and then as many people as possible in this life as I can for a few years now. Opportunities to do so don’t always come from the avenues I would imagine. When I left my job in the hospital last year, I didn’t know about Holographic Kinetics, and I couldn’t have imagined that I’d be teaching kids about mindfulness. I’ve noticed that my spirit doesn’t care who I help or how they make their way into my life, so long as I do it. The really great thing about alignment is that my main purpose just requires that I move through the world as authentically as possible and do the things that come naturally to me. Talking with people for example. Do you have any idea how many times in my life I was made to feel like or people said outright that I talked “too much”? Let’s just say a LOT. Come to find out, that my openness through communication is my biggest asset in the work I am here to do! There are NO coincidences friends. We are all exactly the way we are meant to be! I have seen how it’s my natural abilities and passions that have guided me on my path. This is why it’s so critical trust everyone on the planet stay true to themselves.

Each of us has a purpose for being here and we’ve got to live in our full expression if we want to live that purpose completely. It’s a longer and more difficult path to remembering our purpose in this life if we get sidetracked with fitting in with the crowd for the majority of it. So today or this weekend, think about what makes you YOU. What makes you tick? What lights you up? What makes you feel most alive? That’s where you’ll find your purpose: in all of the parts of yourself that make you uniquely YOU.

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Shift Your Focus

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We aren’t taught that what we focus on grows, but it’s true. We do ourselves a MAJOR disservice when we continually run worst case scenarios and negative thoughts through our heads. When we get stuck in that repetitive cycle and add complaining to it, we literally become a giant magnet for more of what we don’t want. It’s why people who live their lives this way feel a sort of knowing that life sucks so bad. The negative things that keep happening in their lives keep reinforcing they’re beliefs. And they always want to tell everyone about it. They think of every terrible aspect of their life constantly, and so they manifest more negative situations to think and complain about. Then they’ll respond like “see, I told you life is horrible! Look at xyz that just got added to my pile of shit.” Truth is, they’re powerful creators and they’re manifesting everything in their life.

I was with someone who thought their family was cursed. While their family had suffered big traumas, their belief that they all had bad luck did not help them at all. Not only were they giving their power away by believing that something out there was throwing them more things to complain about, but they were constantly providing more energy to the belief that life was never easy for them.

Knowing that where I focus my energy literally creates my life, I am selective about my thoughts. It started with an awareness that my thoughts about myself and life were why I was suffering. Sure, things in my life at the time weren’t going as I would have liked. I felt stuck in California away from my family and I had done everything in my power to try and change it. Now all that was left was to accept my situation. I remember getting so annoyed with a woman I was working with, a sort of life coach, when she told me that I was right where I was supposed to be, because I was there. At the time, I didn’t feel like I was supposed to be here. So I fought that belief she introduced to me. But you know what? Eventually I discovered that she was right. We are all right where we need to be doing what we need to do. I am one of many in my community doing the important work of raising consciousness. I meet people all the time who are befuddled as to why they felt so compelled to move here. But I welcome them and thank them for coming, because I know the bigger picture as to why they have come. I feel it to my core.

Of course hind sight is 20/20. We have all experienced that. Even for me, I’ve had the feeling of “really? I needed to be in that relationship for 10 years to learn that lesson?” But I’ve had to accept that yes, it took me 10 years to learn, and that’s exactly what I needed to be doing then. We sometimes think we’re supposed to be in other places doing other things with different people, but what has been reinforced for me time and again over the last year and a half is that we are always right where we need to be.

The last year hasn’t just been about creating a new business and pushing and hustling to have it succeed. It’s been about cultivating peace in the unknown. It’s been about finally having the time and freedom to heal long-held wounds. It’s been about learning to follow and trust my intuition wholeheartedly so that I am always guided to my next inspired step. If I had been swooped up and flown from quitting my RN job in the hospital and straight into the current work I am doing, I would have missed the even more important journey of becoming the person I needed to be in order to do the things I’m currently doing. EVERY experience we have has value, even if we don’t see it at the time, or hind sight tells us that we’re stupid because we didn’t see the red flags. Life isn’t happening to us, it’s happening for us, mostly for our growth and expansion. We are also balancing out energies from past lives, dealing with traumas passed down through our family lines, and creating life from beliefs we locked in about ourselves and/or life from traumas during childhood. We don’t know the why of everything and our human minds aren’t what we need to figure that out. Sometimes we just have to accept where we’re at, and if we’re not happy, then strive to make changes.

If I told you that YOU are the powerful creator of your reality, what would you like to do? Starting setting intentions for how you want to feel in your life day to day. What kind of day do you intend to have today? Realize you have the power to focus on what you want. If you’re not living a life you love, start paying attention to where your focus is going. Fighting against something is the same as fighting for it, so be careful to direct your energy away from the thing you want to change and on what you hope will replace it.

The first things I tell everyone I work with to start doing is to keep a gratitude journal. I’ve seen how it has shifted my train of thought and focus in my own life. Writing down new things that I am grateful for every day allows me to stay in appreciation mode and out of lack, negativity, and complaining mode. It especially helped me when I was struggling with my work in the hospital, because it lifted me up and reminded me of all of the amazing things in my life. We are each so blessed. Like me, you’ve probably been taking the device you’re using right now and the WiFi you have access to in order to read this post. Let me tell you, when you don’t have WiFi at home, you learn to appreciate it. There is much that many of us take for granted every single day. But instead of giving thanks for what we DO have, we get stuck in a negative cycle of complaining about and focusing on what we DON’T have. Break the cycle, change your life for the better. You are the only one responsible for your reality. The sooner you internalize that, the sooner you can flip your script, stop giving your power away, get out of victim mode and thrive.

If you’re noticing that you’re stuck in time and repeating the same patterns, behaviors, and experiencing chronic issues of any kind, the Holographic Kinetics sessions that I do can really stand to help you. Holographic Kinetics is based on Dreamtime Healing of the aboriginal people in Australia and offers powerful healing at the spirit level. During a session with me (or a practitioner near you), you’re able to trace an issue back to its original cause and change the dimension of time, so that it stops affecting your life negatively. My own sessions during training have changed my life. I realize now that they helped me become who I needed to be in this now moment. I’ve noticed huge shifts in how I feel about myself and life, and that has caused me to make different decisions that have completely affected my path. If you’re interested, email me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com. I’d love to hear from you!

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Jammie

Healing for the Spirit

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So much focus has generally been placed on the health of our bodies and minds, but not of our spirits. The well-being of our spirits is the missing link to why so much of what we’re doing is not working. At our core, we are energetic, spiritual beings having a human experience. When we neglect this fundamental aspect of ourselves, we lack holistic well-being.

According to the beliefs of the aboriginal people in Australia, it is our spirit that is with us in this life and all past lives that we have lived. We are multidimensional beings living in a multidimensional world, which means that nothing is as it seems to our limited five senses. My training to become a Practitioner in Holographic Kinetics in May, an advanced healing modality based on the Dreamtime Healing of the aboriginals in Australia, taught me so much about our spirits and the power of healing at the spirit level.

In my career as a Registered Nurse, I was taught that physical ailments primarily had physical causes. Because they couldn’t find a definitive cause, my doctors wanted to place their bets on my immune system being “over active” as the cause for my pericarditis. They liked to say that my immune system was ‘attacking itself’. But that was not the case AT ALL. In the end, I was found to have a multitude of infections associated with the bite from a deer tick. Plus, I tested positive for Valley Fever when tested in the hospital and no one ever told me or treated me for it. It took a thorough Lyme Disease specialist going through my records YEARS later to find that positive test result and prescribe treatment. So needless to say, my inflammation markers being through the roof and my pericardium being inflamed had definite reasons for being so that didn’t have anything to do with my immune system being the problem. My body was doing exactly what it was designed to do when it detected invaders to my system.

In my path back to my innate well-being, I have come to understand that there is much more to the causes of our physical and mental ailments than what we have been led to believe. For instance, I see a direct correlation between those of us who spent much of our lives putting other people first, while not taking good care of ourselves, and chronic, mystery illnesses. For me, it became apparent that the fact that I had stopped listening to my heart and my intuition had a direct impact on my heart. I have come to learn that most people seem to be dealing a lot with the consequences of not fully feeling their emotions as they come up. Louise Hays wrote books about this very thing, as have others. My training in Holographic Kinetics solidified this fact as we learned about how trauma and emotions can become crystallized in the body in the presence of stress and how this can lead to dis-ease in the body and become trapped also in our spirit.

I have come to learn that our minds and the way we perceive the world is what impacts our lives the most. When our minds tend towards the negative and we stew in negative emotions like anger, fear, shame, guilt, we start having physical ailments. I have seen how cleaning up my thoughts have allowed me to heal myself and transform my life.

I started by hitting a point where I noticed I was suffering, and I was tired of it. I began thinking that there had to be another way to live that didn’t involve me being miserable. I realized that I wasn’t talking very nicely to myself. When I made mistakes, I beat myself up for it. I still struggle with being my toughest critic when it comes to certain things. But overall, once I became aware of my negative self-talk, I could begin to shift it. I have learned that self-awareness is the key to creating lasting change. Shifting my self-talk to the positive was the first step. Instead of thinking I was stupid, because I messed up, I started to be proud of myself for trying. I began to use positive affirmations to feed my mind uplifting words daily. From there, I began noticing the stories of victimhood that I had been telling myself about things that had happened in my life. Instead, I looked for the divinity in those experiences and the lessons I had learned through them. I was guided to read books with the principle that as spirits, we in fact choose our families and plan out some bigger aspects of our lives before we incarnate. That was a concept that was entirely new to me. I was also reading many books related to other aspects of spirituality, and the power of our minds and the fact that our thoughts create our reality.

At this point in my journey, I can say without a doubt that by changing my thoughts, I have changed my life. In addition, I have done a lot of work to feel my emotions and release them as they come up. I pay attention to what I feed my body AND my mind in the way of what I read, watch, and listen to. Much of adulthood, I believe, is learning to feel and process our emotions as they arise vs getting overwhelmed and stuffing them deep down inside of us.

As I have experienced through my own Holographic Kinetics sessions and now through the sessions I have done with clients, the Cause of the issues affecting our lives right now stem from beliefs that we locked in, usually during childhood, about ourselves or about life at the spirit level. That belief isn’t something that we usually remember consciously, but it becomes locked in at the level of the spirit and we begin to create situations that prove that belief to be true. We only see what we believe. In this way, we create EVERYTHING in our lives, consciously or unconsciously. Most people are walking around unconsciously creating their lives. In the mindfulness I have cultivated in a variety of ways, I have become a conscious creator of my reality. In the places where I seemed to still be unconsciously creating, I was able to heal those issues through Holographic Kinetics. One of the issues I cleared during my own sessions was not feeling worthy of love. The Cause was found during my time in my Mother’s womb. By locking in the belief that I was not worthy of love, it set me up to create situations in which I did not feel worthy of love. In this life, we can only create that which we believe is true. If at the spirit level, we believe that we are not worthy of love, then life cannot show us situations that make us feel worthy of love.

At times, the Cause of an issue can be found during our childhood in this life. When we’re children, trauma can come in many forms, even from seemingly small things as perceived by our now adult minds, because as children, everything that happens can feel so large and important. Using Holographic Kinetics, in communication with a person’s spirit, it is possible to go back to the moment when a belief, related to an issue, was first created. We can then change that dimension of time, so that the Cause isn’t created and therefore the issue stops affecting a person’s current life and future lives. The healing that happens during a session extends back through a person’s ancestral line, as well as forward through the generations of descendants.

When a situation isn’t cleared after changing the dimension with the Cause in this lifetime, we explore and determine if the Cause that was activated in this life perhaps was originally created in a past life or somewhere within the genetic lines of either the Mother or the Father. I have had the personal experience of having my issues linked to multiple past lives as well as ancestors of mine who had locked in trauma that was getting passed down through the generations. If I ever doubted the concept of past lives and reincarnation, I definitely don’t now. I have seen places I have never been and experiences I’ve never had in this life.

The power of our minds is real. We don’t actually see with our eyes. We see what our brains allow us to see, usually based on our past experiences. We fill in the blanks of our current reality with our past. Our minds sift and filter everything around us, otherwise we would be even more overwhelmed by the stimuli that is constantly bombarding us, energetically and from our five senses. Our minds have a way of paying attention to the things around us that resonate with us personally. I tell my kids in my mindfulness classes that if we all take a walk down the street together, we would have very different experiences, because we would all notice different things. I might notice some flowers that were in my front yard as a kid. Someone else might notice a car their Mom has. None of us are ever experiencing the same reality. It’s why I’ve come to accept that no one else is ever going to truly understand me. As Esther and Jerry Hicks write in their book “Ask and It Is Given”, “Your current time-space reality, your current culture, your current ways of looking at things — all of the things that make up your perspective — have evolved over countless generations. In fact, it would not be possible to retrace all the desires, conclusions, and perspectives that have resulted in your unique point of view right here and now.”

It is important that we are all here right now. Each of us is needed or we wouldn’t be here. There is divine reason for EVERYTHING, even when our human minds can’t figure out what it could possibly be. It’s taking all of us to stand in our own power, to learn new ways of being as we learn to feel our feelings, stay present in our moments, and work to heal and release ourselves from our past. It is a combination of healing of the body, mind, and SPIRIT that leads us on a path back to our innate well-being. Well-being is our birthright. We can connect with it again when we connect with our own spirit.

If you’d like a deeper connection and healing at the spirit level, consider a Holographic Kinetics session with me. You can check out the first testimonials I have received from people I have already worked with HERE. It’s a powerful healing modality unlike any other I have encountered.

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Aligned and on My Path!

I had the BEST day yesterday!! This picture is a throw back to when my friend Jerrett Johnson and I danced with the lovely Diana Hurtado in her home, but it really captures the joy I feel about my life right now!

I went to bed KNOWING that I am doing everything I am meant to be doing right now! It’s an incredible feeling to say the least! I made space for it all to manifest by following my joy and intuition and prioritizing my energy over the last year. I couldn’t have predicted ANY of the things that I am currently doing! It has all come to me as I’ve recognized the divinity of the timing for people and situations to be placed on my path and started saying YES to what shows up! I’ve given up knowing the HOW for the kind of life I want to live and the impact on the world that I’ve set the intention to make and I’ve surrendered to all that is. The last year plus of growth has given me the amazing gift of  emphatically trusting my journey! I have seen how things that are meant for me come onto my path, and things not meant for me leave without drama. 

My awareness and perspectives have expanded by leaps and bounds. I have been pushed out of my comfort zone so many times that it’s getting to be my norm. When I find myself getting comfortable, I get nudged to venture even farther out. It hasn’t always been comfortable. I have had times where it has felt very easy, and times when it has felt so difficult that I’ve spent the day crying. I’ve been forced to grow in big ways and to become the person who has the confidence and ability to do the things I’ve been guided to do. I’ve taken on projects that were not planned, and have grown close to people I’ve just met. I’ve gotten better at getting out of my own way, and am really good at listening to the now easier to hear whispers of my spirit. I now know that only good things come from following them. I am no longer interested in chasing or forcing things. I see how all that is meant for me flows naturally and is usually obvious to me now. I have the hindsight to see that projects that didn’t work out were all for a reason. I needed to meet people and get to a certain place in my own growth to be able to move forward. 

Yesterday I started working one on one with a 19 year old who is autistic, nonverbal and HIGHLY intelligent. He’s an amazing writer, but it takes a lot of effort for him to express what he wants to say. A speech that he wrote got selected to be read at his graduation earlier this year. When I read it, I knew I was supposed to help him write more. I am so excited to work with him and hopefully help him get the words out of his head and onto pages. To say that his perspective is unique and needed in this world is the understatement of the year. He has so much to express and I can’t wait to hear it all!

I also hosted the second class of my Teen Mindfulness Group last night. What an amazing group of kids I get to work with! I’ve known for a while that I am supposed to work with teens. I feel silly now that I was ever nervous about doing it, because I am absolutely LOVING it! I can share so much more about real life things with the teenagers than I can with the 8-12 year old kids that I teach. I am making a difference and that lights me up! I woke up today wanting to start mentoring teens 1:1. I am realizing that my journey has prepared me to give the support and encouragement and insight about life to these teenagers that I would have loved to have when I was their age. 

I love being the person that other people feel comfortable opening up to! I have had so many amazing conversations with people who are relieved that they finally have someone who they can talk to about all things spiritual that they don’t feel like they can talk to other people about! As I have opened up more, I have noticed how people then open up with me. Connection with other humans fills my heart like nothing else. I can’t ever get enough of it. I am on a path to free myself from the confines of the program and I am always happy to share what I have learned, so that I can help others do the same. 

People ask me “what do you do?” I say, “how much time do you have?” I do what my spirit guides me to do. Right now, that means that I teach mindfulness to children, teens, and adults, I connect with people deeply and let them know that they are not alone, I coach people to follow their dreams and to express themselves fully and creatively, I work 1:1 with a teenager who has a lot of things to say, but just needs some extra help saying them, I plan dance parties and get people to drop their masks and live their joy to their healing and alignment, I utilize the powerful healing modality of Dreamtime Healing using Holographic Kinetics to help people heal themselves at the spirit level so that they can shift into alignment and thrive in their lives, I paint and draw and sell my art. I have a LOT on the horizon too. We ALL always have a lot of new opportunities on the horizon if we allow for it. Open your eyes and heart. Pay attention to the subtle whispers of your spirit. Follow your joy and intuition. Pay attention to the signs and synchronicities. Be grateful for all that you have and all that you do, because in a year, your life may look completely different than it does right now. I am learning to savor the moment more. I have learned to find peace in the unknown. I am positively impacting this world. My life is a success, because I am doing what my spirit came here to do. Are you?

Listen to Dirty Heads’ song “Vacation” HERE

If you want to work with me in some capacity, or you’d like to collaborate on a project with me, email me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com. I’m always up for new adventures and new connections! 

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The Nothing

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Movies can hold a lot of truths if we look and listen for them. I was only 5 years old when the movie “The Neverending Story” came out, but I remember watching it a lot with my sisters when we were growing up. I missed the lines spoken by the wolf character, Gmork, until last night when my son and I watched it again.

The Neverending Story

“GMORK— People have begun to lose their hopes and forget their dreams, so the nothing grows stronger.

ATREYU — What is the nothing?

GMORK — It’s the emptiness that’s left. It is like a despair destroying this world and I have been trying to help it.

ATREYU — But why?

GMORK — Because people who have no hopes are easy to control. And whoever has the control, has the power.

ATREYU — Who are you really?

GMORK — I am the servant of the power behind the nothing. I was sent to kill the only one who could have stopped the nothing.”

We have a nothing that’s been sweeping our world. Our lack of self-love and love for others is the root cause. The manufactured fear that we’re fed through the program reinforces all of the shame, doubts, and insecurities that we carry with us about ourselves and life. Our feelings of nothingness manifest as a void that we are then made to believe can be filled with things outside of ourselves. We buy the new gadgets and we yearn for the new homes and cars and and and, but we still find ourselves feeling like something is missing. We are missing love for ourselves and life. We have lost hope and have forgotten our dreams. We wake up, drive to work, punch in, work all day possibly doing things we don’t enjoy or possible hate, we have lackluster relationships with coworkers because we’re generally unhappy and disconnected from ourselves and we connect with them through complaining and gossip (neither of which leave us feeling good), we go home, eat dinner, maybe spend a little time with friends and/or family, then go to bed. We rinse and repeat this schedule day in and day out until we get to the weekend. Then, we do the work at home that we neglected during the week. Rinse and repeat. Or we live for the fun we have on weekends, and therefore spend the other 5 days of the week wishing we were already at the only 2 days that we actually like. And there we are, wishing away an average of 20 days a month, 240 days a year. In a 30 year career, a person who works the typical schedule of 5 days a week with weekends off may wish away 7,200 days! Yes, THOUSANDS of days spent pining for Saturday and Sunday.

People lose their hope and ignore their dreams and they fall into an energetic trap where they feel stuck and disempowered in the situations and relationships they find themselves in. They forget that nothing is permanent and that CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT in this reality. They forget that they are the ones that hold the key to their own happiness and satisfaction. We’ve been taught to seek validation and fulfillment from things outside of ourselves. But, everything is an inside job. Everything from our internal world is always being reflected back to us from our external reality. Our thoughts are always creating our reality, often subconsciously though we do have the ability to shift our focus and create our lives consciously.

So what can be done about the nothing, the void? How do we step back into our power and send the nothing packing? We start by remembering who we are- spiritual beings having a human experience, infinite consciousness in human form. We don’t get lost in the program that has us feeling miserable and hopeless. Yes even when we’re made to think that the misery is coming from particular political parties, groups, people or states of the world. In the end, it’s all played out the way that it is to stir the anger, hate, separation of the nothing, because there are powers behind the nothing that feed off of our negative energy. To them, it’s about maintaining a food supply. But the program tries to tell us that it’s about what one person said or another did. In truth, love, compassion, and togetherness is how we prevent the nothing from destroying our world. This comes in self-love and acceptance. This comes in unity. This comes in seeing the divinity of every human, including ourselves, and our apparent worst enemies. It doesn’t mean we have to hang out with people whose energy doesn’t resonate with ours, but we can choose to not direct any energy their way. This comes in seeing, really seeing, the parts of the program that are meant to keep us living small lives and generating more negative emotions. Our awareness is our superpower. Our ability to observe and not react to everything as well as to recognize our ability to control where we direct our vital life force energy are all part of our superpowers.

We recognize the power of our minds and therefore our thoughts. As energetic beings who have the power to create anything we can imagine, we’ve got to start focusing on WHAT WE WANT and not on what we don’t want. I’m not saying that we don’t need to allow ourselves to feel every emotion as it arises and then allow it to pass. I’m saying that we get to choose what we allow to disrupt our inner peace. My inner peace is everything, so if something in my life disrupts it, I change things and make new choices. We get to choose what we pay attention to. We can focus on solutions or problems. We get to decide where our energy will go and therefore what we will cause to grow.

We start living more authentically, and we learn to accept and love ourselves just as we are. From there, we follow our joy. We find reasons to smile and enjoy life every day, not just on the weekends that only take up 2 of 7 days a week. We realize that following our joy is actually the point of this life and in following our joy, we inspire others to follow theirs as well.

If you get nothing else from my blog, please know this….we are powerful beyond measure when we recognize that our uniqueness is our gift and that following our joy and intuition and aligning with our spirit is what we are here to do. Alignment feels AMAZING, and puts us on a trajectory to fulfill our purpose! Everything begins to fall into place from there — the right people, situations, and opportunities. We have to take inspired action on the guidance we receive. Our purpose is going to be something that lifts us up while helping to shift people and the planet into a new awareness and increased expansion.

Some of us have chosen to be the guinea pigs in this lifetime. We’re testing the boundaries by taking leaps of faith and living outside of the status quo and our comfort zones. We’re testing all that’s possible for us and humanity. We’re forging a new path and paving it, so others may follow. What we learn from living life as a giant trust experiment, we can then use to show others examples of what’s possible. It’s the path that I’m currently on. I am grateful to be alive during this pivotal time when so much is shifting. It’s not by accident or coincidence as nothing is. We all have a reason for being here. Each of us is needed.

Life is what we make it. If you want to feel hopeless then focus on every situation that creates those feelings within you every day. But if you want to feel empowered, then think empowering thoughts, feed yourself empowering food for your mind, and start getting comfortable in your own skin in your complete authenticity. We don’t have time to be wishy washy about it. We have to start choosing the better thoughts, telling ourselves the version of the stories that takes us out of the victim and complainer mode. We’ve got to take back our energy and learn to use it wisely. We have to realize the importance of following our dreams if we want more happiness in our lives and the world. When we remember our power and follow our dreams, we cannot be controlled. It’s up to each of us to stand up for ourselves in our own lives if we want to defeat the nothing. We’re much more powerful as a group. It’s time we all rise up!

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Jammie