We’ve Been Locked in an Energetic Prison

 

 

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We’re slaves in a energy-depleting system designed to keep us down, suffering, and feeling separate from one another. We spend the majority of our lives giving our energy to jobs we don’t like in exchange for a paycheck. We are then sold a measure of success based on outside things like degrees, houses, cars, other high-priced material items that we then go into large amounts of debt to attain. The system is set up so that we feel worthless without these items. The truth is that we all have intrinsic worth. The debt only acts to further enslave us, because we work the majority of our time to use the majority of our paycheck to pay down our debts. Rinse and repeat. Year after year. Generation after generation. Enough is enough!

We’re trading our most valuable commodity (our energy) for a paycheck. Most of us are working jobs that only serve to take our energy and do not give any back to us. It’s designed this way. I realize now how draining my RN job in the hospital was. Yes, I ‘only’ had to work 3 days a week (for a minimum of 36 hours, note full-time), so I had 4 days off a week. When I look back, I see how I’d give away most of my energy at work, then I’d have days off and by the end of it, I would have raised my vibration a little, only to go back to give my energy away again. It’s like I was stuck in a repeating cycle of low energy. Mind you, I LOVED working with people in a caring/nursing capacity. What I didn’t enjoy was the way that it was ran, and the constant drama created as more tasks were added to an already packed schedule and the worst nurses were always the ones getting rewarded and promoted to management positions. The negative energy was multiplied and I always left wishing that I could spend more time with my patients rather than in front of the computer. It’s all by design. If we had extra energy on our days off and didn’t have to spend them primarily catching up on the chores at home that we let slip during the rest of the week, we’d likely do more fun things which would raise our vibration. But as it stands, ‘fun’ is treated more as a luxury or bonus than what it actually is, a necessity. It’s necessary, because having fun and feeling good is a big part of what elevates our vibration and aligns us with our spirit. Following my joy and intuition about EVERYTHING in my life has been KEY to the level of awareness (consciousness) at which I currently function, and my alignment with my own spirit.

Most people are functioning at such a low vibrational level, because during the day, they’re working at jobs they hate. In the evenings, they’re watching all of the television PROGRAMMING designed to fill us with low-vibration, negative emotions. On weekends, many people spend much of their time doing household chores during the day, and drinking alcohol and/or doing drugs to cope with their generally low vibrational life at night, which acts to further lower their vibration. Alcohol is such a widely accepted way to numb our feelings and ignore the fact that we are living lives that do not make us happy. It may seem that alcohol (a depressant) makes you feel better, but in fact, it’s just another thing that lowers your energetic vibration, plus it lowers your defenses and can open you up to inter-dimensional interferences that can then enter your field and create further havoc in your life. When I became aware that my RN job was affecting me so negatively, I had the thought that I should maybe take up drinking wine in the evenings or smoking pot to cope with the levels of stress I was experiencing. I drank some wine, but never started smoking pot. If you’re at that point, I can tell you from experience that you need to find a new job. If our work is making us feel like we need drugs and alcohol to get through it, then we’re doing the wrong work. There’s no way around it. I’m not saying that everyone needs to leap out of their current job cold turkey, but the mindful thing to do would be to start imagining up what you would like to do instead. Take steps to learn something new to expand your horizons. Start seeing your current gig as the stepping stone to your next life adventure! When you come into alignment with your own spirit, you will feel high on life, and won’t need substances to do it.

When humans are kept on this intended negative energy treadmill, our energy keeps us experiencing life in a limited way as we are forced into connecting with ourselves only as physical bodies and the physical world around us with our extremely limited five senses. We tend to be filled with feelings of hopelessness, fear, anger, loneliness and separation. In this state, not only are we easier to control, but we are never able to tap into our innate, limitless infinite consciousness and well-being. When we’re made to be so focused only on ‘what is’ in our physically detectable world, we miss out on being able to see all that’s possible, and all that we ARE. We have to get to a point where we realize our infinite potential if we truly want to escape this limited reality and manifest an amazing, boundless life!

We’re made to feel angry about things such as:  differing political parties that don’t really control things. All sides/parties are on the same side of controlling us; race that is only part of our rented meat suits for this one life as our spirits are raceless. It’s another distraction from real issues and is meant to further separate us. Inequality based on race is fueling that division; gender division and therefore separateness in our solutions to the inequality we see in the physical world. We are only going to see substantial shifts and elevated energy states in the collective if we stop allowing things outside of ourselves to control our emotions (our energy), and our feelings of self-worth. Stop doing things that feel bad. Stop watching the fear-based PROGRAMMING. Stop focusing on everything politicians say or do. Stop thinking that everything outside of you has to be a certain way in order for you to be OK. In other words, TAKE BACK YOUR POWER. Stop getting distracted by all of the purposeful energy sucks outside of you. YOU and only you have the power to direct your energy towards the things you WANT to see in your life and the world. Cultivate inner peace that doesn’t get disrupted by outside things. The outside things are not going to improve until all of our inner things are dealt with and healed. Erase the term selfish from your vocabulary, because when we each do our work to serve up our highest vibration and authentic self in this world, we aren’t just helping ourselves, we’re helping EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING. Internalize the fact that we are all energetic beings living in an energetic world, and our energy is the MOST important asset we have, because it is DIRECTLY connected to our mental, physical, and spiritual health.

People think I’m magic, because in relation to the general size of the world’s population, there are very few of us who have figured out how to tap into the power of our own spirit. I cannot say this enough: all that is available to me is available to you! You are infinite consciousness in a human meat suit too. You can find a way to rise above the nonsense of the game just as I have learned to do. You are more powerful than the powers that be want you to know. As a powerful creator of your own reality, you have the ability to consciously create the life of your dreams. But to do so, you MUST find ways to elevate your energy. One of the easiest ways to do this is with a daily gratitude practice. When you shift into the energy of appreciation for all that you have, you draw to your life more things to be thankful for. You also increase increase your happiness by noticing all of the things in your life that are going RIGHT!

Another easy way to shift your energy up is to start following your joy as much as possible. Have you forgotten what brings you joy? This is pretty common in a system that is set up to have us put our own needs last. Start by making a list of what brought you joy as a kid. As children, we’re more in tune with our own spirits, as well have more balanced left brain/right brain approach to life. So quite often, the things that we loved most about life when we were young are the same things we love later in life. In the end of my position in the hospital, I learned to keep my energy elevated by developing an uplifting morning routine that had me waking up at 4 am, excited to get out of bed (I had to punch in by 6 am)! I’d sent the intention before going in that I was going to have a great day and that regardless of what happened, nothing was going to bring me down! Of course stressful situations still arose, but I began to see the humor in what I was able to handle and go through yet still come out of my day smiling. I never considered myself a morning person, but my job required that I be. Give yourself the gift of an uplifting morning routine: meditate, listen to music you love, listen to positive podcasts or YouTube videos, dance, sing, do yoga, read positive affirmations, get outside! Do whatever makes YOU feel good!

Part of the system is also about making us more left-brain dependent by pushing science, which wrongly teaches us that only things provable in a physical way are real, when in fact much of this multidimensional world exists outside of our limited perception. So, we’ve got science dismissing our spiritual nature and we have organized religion convincing us that god is somewhere “out there”, when in fact source/god energy is what we’re all made of. Science and religion each cause us to seek answers from outside of ourselves, when actually we contain all of the answers we’ll ever need within us, our spirit. Even the current ‘New Age’ movement also leads us to seek help from outside of ourselves in the form of angels, crystals, and light/energy. In alignment with our spirit, we realize our true power, and we stop feeling the need to call things from outside of ourselves. All that I had been noticing and feeling about my own alignment with my spirit was confirmed at my training in Holographic Kinetics. When we are aligned with our own spirit, we heal ourselves and others, we are naturally protected from things that seek to cause us harm (which has manifested in me feeling completely safe even when traveling around big cities alone), and our innate psychic abilities increase as does our ability to manifest things in our life. You can balance out your left brain right brain use by balancing your use of logic with your use of your imagination and creativity. Music lessons to balance the science classes. Following your intuition will also help you tap into the abilities of the right side of your brain. Encourage your kids to play freely when they’re out of the walls of their classrooms. We’ve got to keep our inner child alive and well to push past all of the programming that is being fed to us daily. Remember, it’s our inner child that is tuned in with our spirit, and therefore our joy.

It’s important as you move through life having various experiences that you take note of how they make you feel. Start making a mental note of what you’re doing when you feel most alive, and then do those things as often as you can. In my experience, as you start doing one thing that lights you up, you will naturally be guided to other activities that also uplift you. As you follow your intuition by saying yes to joy and no to things/people that leave you feeling bad, your intuition will get stronger. You’ll start to feel more alive and you’re energetic vibration will increase. Your spirit will then guide you to purge all in your life that is no longer serving your highest good, while it sends you new people, opportunities, and situations that match your new, increased frequency. As you get more in tune with your spirit, you will be able to sense people’s energies and intentions even before you physically meet them, which then allows you to choose when to focus your energy on a connection or not. Gone are the days of giving our energy away to situations and people that will not ultimately serve our highest good. Life gets better and better from there!

Contrary to what we’ve been led to believe, life is meant to be fully LIVED with lots of love, joy, well-being, and connection! We are limitless! Life is limitless! Prioritize your own energetic frequency, so that you’re able to align with your own spirit. From that place of alignment, life becomes a fun adventure, and absolutely EVERYTHING is possible!!

If you need extra support as you level up, expand, and move into spiritual alignment, I am available for Mindfulness Coaching and Classes. I currently teach a Mindfulness for Children class through my local Parks and Recreation for 8 to 12 year olds. If you’re ready to purge issues that have been repeatedly holding you back, I can’t recommend highly enough that you try a session of Dreamtime Healing using Holographic Kinetics with me locally, or with a Practitioner near you! It has changed my life in so many positive ways, and I see it also transforming the lives of those who have already had a session with me! There is no other healing modality like it. The time is NOW to free ourselves from the past, so that we can create a new present, and therefore a new future for ourselves! You can read more about my journey to Holographic Kinetics HERE and contact me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com for more information.

See Maya Angelou perform my favorite poem of hers, “And Still I Rise” HERE. Let’s all take our power back and choose to RISE!

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Don’t Wait

I read “Tuesday’s with Morrie” years ago. This post reminded me of how much wisdom is held within those pages and how much I loved reading it.

The biggest mistake we all tend to make in this life is that we slip into the habit of thinking that we have more time. But there will come a day, and it could always be today, when our time will run out. A time when we will close our eyes for the last time in our current body rental, and this life will come to a close. Because we never know when that time will come, it’s good to live our lives in the truth that it could happen at any time.

I’ve done this myself and sometimes still do. I slip into the ordinary in moments with my son when we’re both on our screens. Is that how I’d choose to spend our last moments together? No. But we’re human and we like our human things. And that’s OK. I’m not saying that every moment of every day is going to be the best moment ever. But I am saying that we should really consider how many best moments we’re incorporating into our lives on the daily. Or just how many are we staying PRESENT for and APPRECIATING?

My mindfulness practice has led me to joy and gratitude beyond measure. And it’s not that I’m doing extraordinary things every day, but that I have realized the extraordinary to be found in everything! I appreciate all of the seemingly small things that some people often overlook. I follow my joy and express my truth and gratitude to the people who add positive energy to my life.

I see the beauty of the sun peeking through the leaves on the trees during yoga in the park when a breeze is blowing just enough to keep the air cool. I appreciate running into friends unexpectedly when I go to my favorite coffee shop. I appreciate the late night phone call with a friend when they have a lot going on in their life and need someone to listen. I appreciate the new connections I make every day that I get out into the world with people who are free spirits who love life the way I do. I appreciate smiles from strangers as I walk down the street. I appreciate the appearance of all dogs shaggy in my life whose faces remind me of my old Gus dog. I appreciate messages from friends. The seemingly small things are the big, important things, because at the end of the day, I don’t need to have had extravagant things to have happened in order to feel like it was my best day ever! Cultivate a feeling of gratitude for everyone and everything that shows up on your path.

Life is only as good as we make it. Heaven and hell are here on earth and can be found in the mindset that we keep. When you look for negative, you find negative. When you look for positive, you find positive. It’s up to each of us how we choose to show up. I can tell you from experience that this quote is 100% accurate for me. As I’ve found myself and have followed my joy, I’m not as concerned with my past, I’m just excited to be on this adventure and to see what’s around the next corner!! I have passion to do more, see more, and be more!

The biggest transformation of my life began when I noticed that I was suffering through life, and I decided that I was tired of it and didn’t want to suffer anymore. I thought that surely there had to be another way to live life. My mindfulness practice began by noticing how I was talking to myself. I found that my self-talk was so negative that I wouldn’t talk to my own dog that way! Awareness is KEY to changing anything in our lives.

If we’re dissatisfied with our lives, we’re the only ones responsible for changing them. I have dug myself out of years of people-pleasing, peace-keeping, depression, dissatisfaction, dis-ease, and negative self-talk to name a few. I became mindful and picked up new, positive habits and coping mechanisms for life and got consistent in my practice of them. It wasn’t always an easy process, but it was a life-changing one that I view as beyond worth it.

Don’t wait for the end of your life to realize what you could have done differently to live more fully! The time to examine your life is NOW! Are you doing the things you are passionate about? Are you allowing yourself to be authentic and vulnerable? Are you loving yourself completely? Are you living your best life? If you’re answering with a bunch of no’s, then it’s time to make some changes. Now is the only time you have to make those changes. What can you do TODAY to incorporate more JOY into your experience? What would have to happen to make this your best year yet? There are still over 4 months left in 2019. You have plenty of time to do amazing things!

People usually get to the end of their lives and realize just how important the connections with other people were to them. Spend time being present with your loves ones NOW. Don’t put off saying things or doing things because you keep thinking that you’ll do it later. Sometimes there is no later. Now is the moment you’re promised, that’s it. So make the most of this moment, and ultimately, this life. Tell people you love them, hug more, call more, visit more, laugh more, snuggle more, be PRESENT more, and LIVE more! You get one shot in this life with this meat suit, so how do you want to live it?

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Unconditional Love

 

I pay attention to the lyrics in the music I listen to. “What if all the love you gave was starin’ at you from the grave, would it make your heart explode?” To me, these lyrics speak of the amount of love we’re giving out into the world. Are you giving out so much love in your life that having it come back to you would make your heart so full that it would figuratively explode?! So many people I follow and books I have read speak to the same truth: only unconditional love is real, all else is an illusion. Loving ourselves and others as much as we can is the KEY to a better life and a better world! 

I find myself so in love with myself and with life these days that I attract the absolute BEST people whom I love instantly! I’ve slowly let go of the notion that love needs to only be reserved for my family and romantic relationships. In the last year as I have followed my joy and intuition into alignment with my own spirit, I have found my heart open so much to the love that we all are. It’s a really beautiful feeling to have love in my heart for everyone, even people I’ve just met! I strive more to show my love for people in my life than to speak it, but speaking it has also been so freeing. Why do we keep our love under lock and key? I think it’s a result of a combination of our past hurts, traumas, and  programming among other things. We’re more used to feeling hate and fear than we are to feeling love and togetherness. We’re more used to imagining worst case scenarios than best case scenarios. The more I love myself, the more incredible the people I attract are, the more love I feel, because PEOPLE ARE SO BEAUTIFUL! We are all energetic, spiritual beings first and foremost, so when I feel good energy emanating from someone, I feel it and our spirits are magnetized to one another. And even in times when I feel it and don’t say it, I often think to myself, “I love you!” which sends a powerful love vibration out to the person and into the world. 

I have been so lucky to look into the face of someone I love with tears in our eyes as we consciously chose to have our relationship transform into a friendship. It was for the best, and we both knew it. I have loved only this one person unconditionally in a romantic context. I thought that I had loved unconditionally before him, but I hadn’t, because in those past relationships, I was unconsciously seeking to receive love in return for the love I was giving. It has to do with the conscious awareness I have cultivated in my life over the last several years. I have never been so conscious in relationship before. Real unconditional love exists when we aren’t needing or wanting, consciously or not, anything in return for the love that we give someone. It comes when we release expectations of how we want someone to be or how we want them to show up in our lives, and fully allow them to be who they are. We love them for who they are, not for who we want them to be. 

Much of my conscious awareness with relationships came from this relationship. It didn’t always feel good. In fact, at times my wounds were triggered and it was set up so that I was pushed to go within to find the answers to why I was feeling this way vs blaming my feelings on the other person. Because of the way it was set up, we did not see each other often, which meant that I had the distance I needed to really connect with myself and see my codependent tendencies and therefore heal and release them vs act from them. I even told him that I was catching things before I felt the need to bring an issue up to him. It’s what our spirits set out to do, to make us aware of our issues, to give us space to see and heal them, and to hold loving space for each other as we healed, grew, and expanded. Friends, there is nothing like dropping expectations and seeing the bigger picture of a connection with a person. 

And it’s not about dropping expectations for how we want to be treated, or allowing ourselves to settle for less than what we want in a relationship. It’s about going with the flow, knowing that people don’t show up in our lives by chance, and embracing the lessons and moments with a person in the NOW. We have the choice of who we spend time with, so at any moment if a connection isn’t bringing us joy, we have the ability to walk away. I would always ask myself if the connection was bringing me joy. While the answer was yes, I made space for the connection in my life, When we felt like we needed to move on, we did, with no ill will or feelings towards each other. I never felt anger. I never felt the need to cling, because I was also learning during this time that there is no lack in this life. Therefore, I didn’t feel the need to cling to him. I knew that when I was guided to move on that I could trust it and I got curious about what/who would come in to fill that energetic space in my life. When we really love someone, we want the best for them and us. We respectfully express gratitude for them and their time as we walk away. We acknowledge the beauty of the connection, because an end is never really an end to the love we feel. There are no real lines, so there is no switch to change our feelings just because the nature of the relationship has changed. If we really love someone, we let them go with grace and love. 

In the last year especially, I have seen how divine the timing of everything is, including the timing of when people come into and go out of my life. There are no coincidences. I have always had the idea that this person and I had a deeper connection with each other. I felt like we knew each other from past lives. We recently got closure that I didn’t even know I needed. Our connection came full circle as we completed the pact our spirits had with each other to meet up and help remind each other of who we were before the world told us who we should be. Much of our relationship was about experiencing child-like joy together. We met just before I realized that my health was back and that I was physically capable of all that I had been before my dis-ease. I found myself, in part, in our moments spent together. Sometimes, even when we think that we’ve let go of a person completely, we can spend time together and get beautiful closure beyond a time of physical separateness. We had an amazing time express our feelings and gratitude, to share what we had learned in our relationship and during our time apart, and to experience more joy together!

Stay open. When you follow your intuition and joy, you’ll find that you get guided to what you need rather than what you think you want. Our spirits know what we need. Our spirits know when we need more experiences with a person in order to close out the old agreement we had with them in order to make way for the new friendship that we’re welcoming into the new, now moment. Giving love is always the answer. When we’re giving from our overflowing cup, giving love to someone doesn’t deplete us. When we love unconditionally, we see how beautiful people are even in their own perceived ‘flaws’. Loving this person unconditionally opened me to love myself unconditionally. I saw him in all of his authenticity and vulnerability and I saw myself reflected back to me. Loving his light AND dark led me to love my own light and dark in a deeper way. Isn’t it beautiful how relationships are to grow us and not make us happy? Our sweet closure left me in awe of our shared experience and excited for what is to come for both of us as we’ve both transformed our lives in the time since we first met. We shift our connection and allow ourselves to go as a river into the wild, expansive unknown of the next, now moment. 

If all the love I gave was starin’ at me from the grave it would most definitely make my heart explode! The love I experience every day for myself, life, nature, and the connections I continue to make with other people already makes my heart explode on the daily! Life is an adventure. Play more! Love more! Follow your joy every day! It’s in your power to create and give more love in this life! Start with loving yourself and then allow that love to overflow out into the people and world around you! The world needs more love! 

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Watch the video for “Let It Go” HERE. (Yes I know I have posted this song on this blog before. It has so many good messages for all of us!)

 

Emotions vs. Physical Pain

For those of us who are very sensitive and feel the energy of everyone and everything around us (many people here right now), it can be really easy to get swept up in it all and lose ourselves. We grow up looking to the people around us for ways to cope with emotions, to cope with life. Many of their coping mechanisms were not healthy for them, therefore many of the coping mechanisms we learned are not healthy for us.

I had a friend tell me that it is easier to deal with physical pain than it is to feel their emotions. They hit the nail on the head, because they had learned early on to stuff their emotions deep down and just deal with them as the physical pain that they manifested as in their body. It shows how intense emotions can be for some of us. So intense that we’d rather experience the physical pain. Have you noticed this truth for yourself? Do you find that physical pain is easier to deal with than your emotions? Can you see how that belief causes you to push down your emotions while you create physical pain in your body? Yes, our thoughts and beliefs are THAT powerful.

I was in the same boat for most of my life. I coped with my emotional pain by stuffing them down. I felt EVERYTHING, and when it meant tension of parents who were usually fighting or not talking, I chose to live my life as small as possible to try and reduce the number of waves in the house. Did it work? No. I didn’t have the power to change the interpersonal dynamics happening around me. The waves were still there. I still felt everything and then on top of it, held myself back from activities that I knew would create issues. I got quiet and held in all of my confused emotions of fear, sadness, and anger about the situation in my house. I was there as a confidant to my Mom, because I began to feel that when others around me, especially my Mom, were OK around me, that I was OK. Otherwise I felt far from OK. This pattern has continued throughout my life. I realized during my own Holographic Kinetics sessions that my ability to feel all of the energy around me made me prone to take it on as my own, adjust my own being to not add to its ‘negative’ feeling nature, and to place more importance on how people around me were feeling rather than on how I was feeling. As you can imagine because you’re human too, learning to put my own needs last ended up being detrimental to my health. I struggled with depression for many years, and later had a mystery illness attack my heart. Take it from me, it’s extremely important that we put ourselves and our needs FIRST. It’s not selfish, it’s necessary.

After talking with my friend about it being easier to feel physical pain vs emotions, my ankle pain popped into my head. I remember most evenings sitting with my family in the living room watching TV as I cried and rubbed my sore ankles. The pain would shoot up from my ankles, up through my shins, and into my knees. I remember in those moments, trying to remember what it felt like when my ankles were’t hurting. I would just sit and wish that they weren’t hurting. My Mom would give me ibuprofen, which would help. I hated taking pills. I had so much trouble swallowing them.  I used to think that it was the shoes I was wearing, or the structure of my feet. But last week, I hiked in sandals not meant for hiking, or even walking long distances really. I hiked up and over granite boulders, through meadows, and over gravel and dirt, and I didn’t have ANY ankle pain AT ALL (or knee, or shin pain etc)! I can see how everything lined up to have me connect these dots right now. I was so concerned about my ankle pain that when I went to Alaska after college for an internship, I wondered if I would end up being in a lot of pain. I wasn’t, but my mind told me that it was because I was wearing good hiking boots that supported my feet well, and that I wasn’t walking on hard pavement.

In writing this post, it became clear to me why I felt so much pain in my ankles as a child. A quick search about emotions and ankle pain revealed that my issue wasn’t physical, but emotional. I had what felt like a lack of stability in my support system. I also felt like I had the weight of the world on me, because I was unconsciously taking the blame and responsibility for the stress in my house. The weight became too much to bear, and my ankle pain was also unbearable at times. Interesting as well is that I sprained my ankles several times as a kid. I was literally feeling a lack of support in my life that was expressing itself in a lack of support in my own physical body! I learned to build my own support system. I stayed with friends a lot. In high school, I had a really great boyfriend with a family who supported and encouraged me. Looking back, as he went off to college during my senior year of high school, my self-created support system was shaken, and I sprained my ankle pretty severely the week or so before school started and he left to go out of state for college. Now I can see how it all fits together, and it makes so much sense. I had trouble feeling and coping with my big emotions and the situation around me, so it all showed up as physical ailments. As it turns out, the fact that I have become my own support system and have learned to feel my feelings is all that I needed to ‘cure’ my ankle problems. Also, I have an AMAZING support system made of family and dear friends. Are you allowing yourself to feel your own emotions? Are they showing up as physical pain in your body? Are you taking on pain and stress from people around you?

It has taken me the better part of 40 years to learn the real secret. That emotions, like everything else in this life, are fleeting and that the best way to handle them is to feel them when they arise. It has taken lots of practice to not stuff my emotions down. This can mean that I allow myself to cry at apparently inopportune times like when I’m processing big shifts and the emotion wells up in me like a tidal wave and the tears begin to stream down my cheeks at my favorite coffee shop. How many times have you held back tears? Why? I’ve held them back at work before like when I was working in the hospital and had a lot going on in my personal life, which feels appropriate except that I even held back in the break room away from patients, families, and coworkers. We have been taught that feeling our emotions and god forbid expressing them outwardly makes us weak, even more so for men who are taught from a young age that they need to be strong and keep going through their hardships without stopping to feel, to cry. Ironically, as more and more people allow themselves to feel and express their emotions as they arise, we are going to create a world community that is stronger than ever. Emotions are real life, they aren’t weak. I see so much strength in the face of a man who has tears flowing down his face. I know that he is fighting against the norm of what he’s been taught to do his whole life. And wow do I think it’s really fucking beautiful! I feel so incredibly grateful for the men in my life who have felt safe enough with me to express the full range of their emotions in front of me. We all need you to keep feeling and releasing.

Several years ago, as I had a big relationship/friendship end just before my dog of 14 years died, I thought that I would spiral into a severe depression. Honestly, the relationship had been over for some time by this point, so I had already prepared myself for it’s end. But nothing can really prepare a person for their dog dying. That pain was intense to say the least and I am still so grateful that a dear friend of mine offered to drive me to and from the veterinarian. It would not have been safe for me to drive myself. I left that office completely beside myself. I cried for the better part of two days straight. I called into work sick for two days and I don’t regret it one bit. It is VITALLY important for us to recognize these moments in our lives when we need to make space for ourselves to feel the full range of our emotions and to release them through a river of tears. No person, situation, or job is more important for us than giving ourselves that kind of love and space to feel how we feel in the moment. It is always better to let other people down than to let yourself down. Send a strong message to your body mind spirit, and Source that YOU ARE IMPORTANT. You can do this by taking good care of yourself.

At this point in my life, feeling my emotions as I have them has become MUCH more appealing to me than having pain in my physical body. It is natural that when we’re children, we experience things as trauma, both large and small events, because everything feels so big and important to us. We get overwhelmed easily and make up stories about what we’re experiencing, and so we stuff down our emotions and forget about the traumas that created them.  I have also learned how to separate my energy out from other’s energy, which prevents me from getting so overwhelmed by the energy circulating outside of myself. Working as an RN in the hospital really enabled me to hone that skill, because I was surrounded by so many varying sources of energy.

We’ve done ourselves a disservice because we’ve got a country full of people who are numbing their feelings with drugs, alcohol, other people, sugar, gossip, screen time, work etc. People have more dis-ease and more chronic pain. And we’ve been taught that the way to move beyond our dis-ease and pain is to seek solutions outside of ourselves. While western medicine does have its place, start viewing your body as a messenger. Get quiet and start tuning into the wisdom of your own body as you’re trying to get answers about the way things are physically manifesting. What stressors are you currently dealing with? Have you been ignoring your intuition about something? Are you feeling a lot of fear, anger, guilt? What food are you feeding your body and mind? Are the things/people/situations you’re allowing into your life lifting you up or tearing you down? If you answered with the latter, consider it spring cleaning time in July and ruthlessly clear out the things that are no longer serving your highest good. Set the intention and watch as people and situations clear out of your life with hardly an effort. You have a choice on what you are allowing in your life. You are not a powerless victim. Realize your power to change your life at any time. Will it feel scary at times? Yes. But will it also feel exciting? Yes. Are those two emotions easily parsed out? No, so choose to reframe your feelings as excitement rather than fear. This is where the adventure begins. Get excited about all of the things that can go right! Get excited that your future can look completely different from your past.

I have seen the cause and/or activation of issues for myself and others be traced back to childhood, the womb, at conception, past lives, or within the genetic line through my sessions in Holographic Kinetics. Our subconscious mind can lock in beliefs about ourselves and life that we then create from over and over. Our thoughts literally create our reality. Trauma from past lives as well as from distant family members can be passed down repeatedly until someone takes the time to clear and heal it. If you’ve been doing a lot of inner work, but you still feel like you have things holding you back that you can’t quite put a finger on, consider having an in-person Holographic Kinetics session with me. You can read more about Holographic Kinetics at http://www.holographickinetics.com. Feel free to reach out to me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com for more information.

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We Create Our Relationships

I choose my thoughts and my thoughts create my reality! I choose to think that conscious people attract conscious partners. End of story.

I see other sayings bouncing around about spiritual women attracting men who need healing. Hate to break it to you, but we’re the ones attracting people into our reality. It’s not some random thing. It’s energetic. If you don’t like the types of people you’re attracting into your life, then your best bet is to start looking at your own vibration. Are you showing up as the person you’re seeking? Are you loving yourself up? Do you believe that you are worthy of love? Of a conscious partner? Are you generally joyous or miserable? Negative or positive?

We’re the only ones we can blame in our game, because we’re so powerful that we create it. Read that again. I attracted a controlling person when I was tired of making all of the decisions in another relationship. I didn’t want to plan every activity anymore. This person did. Problem solved. Also, even though I didn’t realize it at the time, I was attempting to fill a void in me with another person. And that doesn’t work. Ever. So stop trying. Depending on other people for the love that we should be giving ourselves never makes for a happy, healthy relationship. I take full responsibility for the situation I created with my low self-esteem, lack of self-love, decision to no longer be the one guiding my life, and my codependent ways. Me. It all brought me to ground zero. Being broken isn’t always a bad thing if what you needed was a restart. I left that relationship not even knowing what I preferred the thermostat to be set at. I didn’t know what made me happy, or even what kind of music I liked because I stopped listening to it for years. (Red flag #6,837,263) I had to start myself over. Reset!

It’s almost like I was deprogrammed from things I had come to learn about myself since birth. It was all erased, because I had lost myself so completely in that relationship. I literally had to start rebuilding myself. From scratch I had to figure out things I liked to do, people I liked to be around, and music I liked to listen to, to name a few. I also had to start loving myself and putting my needs and well-being first, which is how I gathered the courage to leave. I had to be mentally and physically healthy, so that I could be there for myself and my young son.

And so, I started over. That’s not to say that some other repeating relationship patterns didn’t show up again until I realized that I was the common denominator. If you find yourself in this place of seeing cycles of similarities in all of your relationships, do yourself a favor and stop playing victim and get back into the driver’s seat. Take back your power as a powerful creator in this world, and stop blaming other people for your unhappiness. Take that last relationship that ended the same way as your wake up call to do the work that you didn’t even know you needed to do. Look within for a change. Live yourself. Be kind to yourself. Stop with the negative self-talk. Stop putting every single other person‘s needs ahead of meeting your own.

We get what we expect in life. Our subconscious thoughts about ourselves and life tend to run the show until we become conscious creators. Are you going to put your energy into dwelling on what you’ve attracted in the past, or are you going to focus on raising your vibration and attracting something so good that it’s beyond the scope of your current imagination?! I know what I’m choosing.

Have you ever heard the saying “you don’t get what you want. You get what you are.”? It came to me today after writing most of this that I have experienced this literally in my life. We have to get really honest with ourselves to see it sometimes. Like the time I was dating someone and was getting so annoyed that he was emotionally unavailable. Haha! Yeah, at this point, I was conscious enough to get annoyed, but then realized shortly after that I was not emotionally available either. Sometimes in this life as we’re all so used to following the beat of the dividing drum, we point fingers at others when in fact, WE are the ones we need to be reflecting on. I had several things come up during this time with this person, and none of it was about them, not really. For every single issue I had, I could see where inside me it was stemming from. When you attain this level of awareness, the people in your life stop becoming the enemy. You see people as actual reflections of you, and the parts of you that need healed. Or, you uncover some limiting belief about yourself or life that has been unconsciously creating your life. Are you so spiritual that you’re attracting partners who need healed, or are you in fact attracting mirrors who are showing you parts of yourself that still need healed? It’s time to level up across the board. Now is not the time to be aware in some areas of our lives, yet asleep in others. Allow your righteousness to fall away, because no one is more ‘right’ than another. This life is not about competition, it’s about aligning with our own spirits so that we can consciously create the lives of our dreams. We have to start in our own lanes if we want to create lasting change in our lives and in the world. The change has to start within. So, pay attention. What are you attracting into your life? The answer to this question will tell you where your energetic vibration has been up to now. Don’t worry if you’re not where you want to be yet, you have the power to change it.

The reality is that we are all one. When you treat another with kindness, you are being kind to yourself. When you hate another, you are sending hate to yourself. We’re connected, as we are all Source/Universe/God in human form. So do your best to drop the labels and stop the finger pointing. Show up with more compassion for everyone, including yourself firstly. It is not ‘selfish’ to put yourself first. Because we are all so intimately connected, when you take care of yourself, you also take care of me.

Locally, I am available for Dreamtime Healing using Holographic Kinetics sessions. You can read more about it at http://www.holographickinetics.com. In session, your spirit guides us on a journey back in time to find the points of creation for 3 issues that you are currently struggling with, so that you can change that dimension of time permanently at the level of the spirit. It essentially then breaks the repeating cycles of similarity in your life that have been and would otherwise continue to repeat. Reach out to me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com for more information or visit the Holographic Kinetics website to find a practitioner near you.

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Intuitive Eating

I’m seeing all of the posts about Nipsey Hussle’s death and the fact that he was working on a documentary exposing the natural healing work of Dr. Sebi. From what I have read, Dr. Sebi’s work, in part, was pointing us towards an alkaline, plant-based diet. It is known to be healing and is thought to prevent dis-eases such as cancer. The work of Dr. Sebi was known in the 1980’s. He had published that a cure for AIDS had been found after he had cured people with AIDS. He was taken to federal court and won.

People have to be told like a public service announcement that fruits and vegetables are the healthiest options for us. I think all too often, like most other things, people have shut off their intuition in exchange for following the crowd. This presents in food as fad diets. It seems like everyone is on some kind of specialized diet these days. But what if we’re meant to listen to our own bodies?

I have come to realize that the best way to eat is by following my intuition. Our intuition can be a guide for EVERYTHING! It’s like our own, personal, specialized system geared towards returning OUR body to it’s perfect state of wellness.

We get off track when we choose to ignore the way foods make us feel. When we eat something even though it makes us feel terrible, we are in fact ignoring messages from our bodies and our intuition. I think a decision based in self-love would be choosing to eat what makes us feel good, and gives us more energy and vitality. I get it, a lot of things sold at the grocery store and restaurants make us feel bad when we eat them, so then what DO we eat?!

In my experience over the last 8 months, I eat more fruits and vegetables. I’ve been led to a diet that is vegan, but I also don’t eat gluten or soy. I don’t drink alcohol. Why? Because I’ve noticed that I feel terrible after I eat/drink those things. I started paying attention to how everything I ate or drank made me feel. If something makes me feel good, I eat or drink more of it. If it makes me feel bad, I eliminate it. And what I am realizing is that I have been naturally led to a plant-based, alkaline diet.

When we ignore messages from our bodies, the messages get louder. I had noticed small things going on with my health long before my heart nearly failed. I didn’t realize they were happening because of something I was doing: ignoring my heart and intuition.

We can all learn to tap into and use our intuition to heal ourselves. It’s not easy work when you realize the work it’s going to take to finally face past traumas and trapped emotions in order to get healthy again, but the work is worth it. Our physical ailments usually don’t happen over night which means the patterns that got us there won’t change over night. But we CAN change them.

If we learn to follow our intuition, it strengthens and becomes easier to use. When we stop doing things that don’t feel good, we are putting our well-being first which is key to healing ourselves.

Our minds are very powerful, so we must also be mindful of what we are saying about the things we’re doing or eating/drinking. If we’re choosing to eat the dessert, it does us no good to talk and think about how bad it is for us the entire time we eat it. You’re essentially cursing the food you eat as opposed to blessing it. That food’s negative effects are then compounded. Whereas, when I go to the Sikh Temple and partake in Langar after worship, I am grateful for their sharing and I eat the flat bread offered. They bless their food during the entire time of worship and I set the intention that it will bless and nourish my body. It’s my exception for gluten during the week, and I notice I don’t have problems with it later. I believe there is a lot of power in blessing our food and water before we consume it.

Notice the difference in how you feel when you curse your food vs bless it. I have come to learn that our thoughts play a primary role in our wellness or dis-ease. Get quiet and pay attention to your thoughts about food. Pay attention to what your intuition and body are telling you to eat or avoid. You can heal yourself.❤️

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I Hope You Live Louder!

This is what I want for all of us: that we live louder and shine brighter! If you don’t know it yet, living a life 100% true to yourself, and in touch with your higher self, your soul, is part of what is going to shift the energy humans are bringing to the planet. Being our authentic selves is a big key to healing ourselves and in turn, humankind and the planet. Learning to love ourselves and others unconditionally because we look at everyone with compassion for their human experience.

It sounds counterintuitive when we’ve grown up feeling the need to blend in, the need to be like everyone else so that we don’t get made fun of and rejected by our peers. We’ve been programmed to buy certain things so we can be a certain way. I get it. I’ve grown up with the same programs. I’ve been systematically working to break them down. Changing our thoughts is paramount to changing our lives and in turn, the world around us. How many of us live without peace of mind, yet wish we had peace on the planet? How many want to see others happy, but we are not doing the things that create joy in our lives? It all starts with us on the individual level.

Our lives shape us in a way that is completely unique to us, and it’s by design. Everything is by design to get us to wake up, to realize our limitless potential as powerful creators in this life. I would not be who I am today without EVERY SINGLE THING I’ve experienced.

For instance, I am a good writer, because I used to write letters to my friends and family all the time! I wrote when I went away to college and when I was working in remote camps studying wildlife.

I have such a grateful view of the world because I got so sick that I almost died.

I love my body so much, because even with everything that it has been through, it allows me to do the things I love like hike, swim, and dance. There was a time when I didn’t think I’d be able to do any of those things again.

I was able to create playlists for ecstatic dance with such a huge variety of musicians, because music is what I turned to in my darkest moments. It’s also because I got recommendations along my path as I moved around as a wildlife/fisheries field biologist for the better part of 10 years. Music has been my fuel.

I was such a compassionate nurse in the hospital, because I’ve been the patient for so many years. I know the things I needed to hear when I was scared and in the hospital, so I was able to speak those things to others.

I laugh loudly without a care for who might hear me, because I have spent many days alone sobbing hard and wishing my life would end.

I appreciate wild places extra, because I grew up watching in horror as local mountains were excavated to make way for mines and highways, and smokestacks from steel mills appeared to create the clouds.

These days, I am quick to speak the feelings I have for people, because I have lost many dear friends at young ages. I know that more time is never guaranteed to any of us.

The list goes on and on. Our lives shape us. There are things that make us uniquely who we are, and those are the things that we’re meant to strengthen and share with the world! None of us were created to live small, quiet lives! The world needs you to feel as comfortable as you can being your true authentic, and vulnerable self, so that you can do the work and help shift our reality in a way that only YOU can! Show up and get to shining! It’s time to spread your wings and fly! And it’s time for all of us to make room for each other by holding space of unconditional love and acceptance in our hearts. Nothing good comes from not accepting other people for being different than us, just as nothing good comes from us hiding our true selves from the world!

I can tell you from experience that the more you cultivate the love you have for yourself, the more you won’t care what other people think about you. The less you care about what other people think of you, the more fulfilling your life will become. The more fulfilling your life becomes, the brighter your light will shine. When your light is shining bright, you provide light in all of this darkness to light your way to living your soul’s purpose, and to be a light for other people to find theirs.

The magic in my life happens when I’m acting as a lighthouse for others. I inspire you by following my joy and living a louder life. You in turn start following your joy and living a louder life. You inspire someone else. We create a ripple effect this way.

What kind of ripple are you currently creating with your life? Is it negative or positive? Are you complaining and gossiping all of the time, or are you living with gratitude and lifting others up with sincere compliments and unconditional love and acceptance?

The change we want to see in the world really does have to start with us. I want to live in a world where we care for each other like family, where we love and accept people for who they are, where everyone lives with equality and experiences the same opportunities, where we lift each other up and encourage each other to shine brighter every day! You’ve got this one life to live. Are you making it count?!

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