Trauma

An event is traumatic, because it causes us to decide something about ourselves or about life that we then create from ever after. In the moment of a traumatic event, we lock in beliefs that life then continues to prove true, since what we believe we experience. The event can cause a lot of pain and suffering in the moment, but it’s our continual reliving of the beliefs we acquired through it that truly cause us to suffer over and over again.

It is my changed perspective about myself and life that continues to shape my experience, not the original traumatic event itself. We are powerful creators, so if something makes us decide at some point at conception or beyond that we are not worthy of love, then we will create situations and relationships over and over again to prove that belief. I had that cycle repeating in my own life. Luckily, through my personal sessions of Holographic Kinetics, I was able to clear that belief at the spirit level, so I no longer have to carry it around to have it surface time and again in this life and future lives. Phew!

So much of what we come to know about ourselves and the world is taught to us within a system that places more value on our physical reality than on the fact that we are all spiritual beings having a temporary human experience. Our multidimensionality and that of the universe tends to be completely overlooked. So, a lot of spiritual information then doesn’t tend to fit neatly into the confines of what we’ve been taught our whole lives. This leads to major disconnect and feelings of dis-ease. We begin bottling up the things we think or feel that don’t fit with what we’ve been told by our families, teachers, friends, and the organizations to which we belong (Wow, organizations we belong to, think on that for a minute. I personally don’t want to ‘belong’ to any organization). We sometimes label these things as “wrong”, or have the people we open up to do it for us. The reality is that usually the discourse we feel is because our own inner knowing doesn’t match up with what we’re being told/taught. I have learned to always trust the inner knowing above everything else. We have all of the answers we seek inside of us.

The reality is that the world we live in is nothing as it seems. We have been taught to place so much importance on the outer world and things out of our control that we’ve lost sight of the fact that WE are the ones that can free and heal ourselves. To take our power back means to stop giving it away to others. We’ve got to snap out of victim-mode ASAP. There is no one else to blame if we continue to relive our traumas and not do the work to get out of the cycle of similarity we’ve become trapped in by our own beliefs. I’m not saying it’s easy, but I am saying it’s necessary if we want to finally start listening to the nudges of our spirits and break free from old patterns and programming, so that we can get on with living our best lives.

I have done a lot of inner work. I keep being guided deeper and deeper to clear more and more from my past. We are so powerful that we can set intentions and tell our spirits what we want, and then notice that we will be guided to the people, situations, and resources to help us. How many of you set an intention to level up and/or clear out what was no longer serving you and have experienced people and situations clearing out of your life in record speeds this year? We asked for all of it. Right now, I am being urged to drive several hours away to the nearest practitioner to have another Holographic Kinetics session. As I’ve cleared issues on my own, and through HK, other issues have moved to the surface as the next important parts in need of healing. Remember, the growth and healing doesn’t stop until we die. But, in my own experience, it does stop feeling so severe, because I can more easily recognize what is happening. If you are being guided to a specific type of healing, I urge you to follow it. When I have done that, I have found another piece of the puzzle that helped me on my path back to my innate well-being.

Several years ago, I was sick of being depressed. I wasn’t actively depressed when I decided this, but I was suffering greatly. My thoughts about my situation were primarily negative and I felt stuck in a life that I didn’t feel I had chosen for myself. As I dug myself out of those beliefs, I began to see some light at the end of the tunnel. I realized that it wasn’t really my outer experience causing me to suffer, but my belief about it! This was huge! I remember getting very annoyed with a woman I worked with for a time when she’d say that things were the way they were supposed to be, because that’s what was happening. How easy is it to think that everything is happening for a reason when we’re enjoying life?! Not so much, it seems, when we’re unhappy with our lives. But, it’s important to realize that we can’t think that things are happening as they are meant to in some cases AND believe that we’re victims of circumstance in others. It doesn’t work that way. Because there is so much more to this life, we do not always consciously know what energy is being balanced out by a situation, or what lessons a person’s spirit is wanting them to learn. We’ve got to stay in our own lanes of being and focus on our own growth.

That being said, we are often stuck in time and repeating cycles of similarity. One way to work through this is to become aware of the dynamic happening and then ask ourselves what our role in it has been. When we take responsibility for our lives in this way, positive shifts happen because we take back our power. Standing in our own power and our own innate sense of knowing moves us towards alignment with our own spirit. An example in my own life is that it doesn’t serve my highest good to complain about a past relationship with a narcissist. Even labeling the person that way isn’t helpful for me, though it is helpful in reaching the people who need this message. What helps me is to see the role I played in that relationship. What led me to it? I fully recognize that I knowingly gave up my power at the start of it. I had been in a relationship where I made so many of the decisions and I was tired of it. I was excited to spend time with someone who liked to plan our time together. Suddenly, I wasn’t the one planning all of the hikes. It felt like a relief to not make the decisions for a while. But then that led into giving my power away about other things. Next thing I knew, I no longer felt in control of my own life. But it started with ME. Realizing that has allowed me to become aware of and see the parts of me that were drawn to that relationship. I’ve then been able to work towards a much deeper level of healing from that place of awareness.

As much as we like to think that we know where an issue originated, in my sessions of Holographic Kinetics, I have been shown time and again that often, we are not actually consciously aware of the cause. Many times, a trauma in childhood merely activates an issue that spirit has been carrying through from lifetimes ago. Or, from a trauma that a grandfather or great grandmother locked in at the spirit level and began passing down to future generations. As we are spiritual beings first, our issues don’t always originate in this lifetime. It is our minds that will try and connect an issue to an event that we can consciously remember in an attempt to make sense of it. Sometimes, trauma happens as a result of something our parents say or do when we are in the womb, or when we are little babies less than a year old. Just the same, we lock in beliefs about ourselves or life in those moments, and begin to unconsciously create our reality from them.

In the Holographic Kinetics sessions that I do, I have witnessed a person’s spirit take them back to a point just after conception (yes, in their Mother’s womb) many times as it finds the cause of the first activation or creation of an issue in this lifetime. How is that possible? How can we be aware of anything when we have barely been conceived? It is because we are spirits first and foremost. As the aboriginal people explain it, our spirit is what is with us through this life as well as through all of our past lives. Our spirit is aware of the cause of ALL of the issues that are holding us back in this life. Holographic Kinetics allows us to communicate with our spirit and help it change the past in the present for the future.

You see, our spirits do not wish to relive the same lesson and limiting pattern over and over again. No, our spirits yearn to be free, so that they can experience the full range of creation in this life. This is why we have all been feeling so called to clear our old issues and baggage that we’ve possibly been carrying around for many lifetimes. Our spirits are guiding us to the changes we need to make in order to break free from the self-imposed/accepted limitations we’ve allowed for far too long. We can heal ourselves by listening to our spirits/higher selves/intuition. Our spirit knows what we need in order to thrive in this life. When we listen to that inner guidance/knowing, we are naturally led into alignment with our own spirit which is the place from which everything we seek is possible.

I urge you to begin to follow your intuition about everything. How do you know it’s your intuition and not your old patterns speaking? The inspired ideas you get from your spirit will leave you feeling excited. The guidance will be to things that make you feel good. In fact following your joy and what feels good to you is another way to align with your spirit. As you follow the guidance from your spirit/intuition, your ability to do so will strengthen. Over time, it will become second nature and you will come to trust it more. I have a way of asking for guidance from my own spirit that gives me answers based on the feeling I get in my body.

We all have the power to heal our trauma, so that it stops causing us to repeat the same cycles over and over. The answers to that healing really lie within each of us. We are all drawn to what we need, when we need it. I was drawn to numerous healing modalities before being pulled in a big way to Holographic Kinetics. It was all important, because it all led me to an expanded awareness and deeper healing. It’s like each thing allowed for wellness, so I’d be ready for the next level of healing. My healing didn’t happen all at once, or through only one modality. It’s as if I was being groomed to be able to wrap my head around the healing at the spirit level. I experienced such profound healing of my past wounds through Holographic Kinetics, and I continue to be amazed (not surprised) by the ways that I see it help my clients or friends afar who go to practitioners near them. I have witnessed it shift a friend out of severe suicidal thoughts and back into their previous excitement about the year to come immediately following their first Holographic Kinetics session. I will be speaking about this at a Mental Health and Mindfulness focused Visalia Talks and Wine in January, so stay tuned.

Mindfulness isn’t just about being present in our moments and grateful for what we have, it’s about developing a conscious awareness of the beliefs we have that are holding us back. In Holographic Kinetics, when we find the cause of an issue, our spirit is able to change that dimension of time, so that we break free from the beliefs about ourselves that continue to re-traumatize us through time on all levels and all dimensions.

If you’d like more information about Holographic Kinetics, email me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com. Check out my testimonials page at the top of this blog for feedback from a few of my clients. I am also happy to speak on any of the topics I cover in this blog at events or organizations who are interested in learning more. Email me with inquiries.

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Autism: A Spiritual Perspective

My spirit has some ideas about autism that aren’t what you usually hear. What I am about to say didn’t come from a book I’ve read, or a movie I’ve watched. It comes from a core sense of knowing that I have about autism. I had a flow of words come out of me the other day as I was talking with the Mom of John, an autistic, nonverbal 19 year old, high school graduate that I began working with in October.

Autism isn’t a disability. Autism isn’t something that needs “fixed”. Autism doesn’t mean that there is something “wrong” with a person. No, quite the opposite. I believe that autism is a form of human evolution. Why? It breaks us free from the way that we have been programmed to live. It breaks us free from caring what other people think about us. It breaks us free from so many societal “norms” we’ve felt compelled to follow.

The system wants to ignore autism. Schools want to group them into a box of being mentally retarded. Because kids with autism usually need some extra help in school, schools want to place them in a class for special education, but it’s usually not clear cut like that. John was always highly intelligent, but because he was non-verbal, teachers and tests weren’t able to detect it. Luckily, his Mom knew better, and he was able to go on to graduate from a normal high school program.

The system doesn’t know how to handle autism, because people with autism can’t and won’t be fit into neat boxes. They don’t follow any of the set rules and guidelines that we’re taught to follow. Society judges them against people without autism, which is a bit like judging apples against oranges. Yes they’re human, and fruit is fruit, but beyond that, they are each uniquely themselves as we all are. The reality is that none of us should be fitting into boxes, but we get highly pressured to. Most of us succumb to the pressure around us. It’s usually only after we get sick of suffering that we break away from those chains of conformity. Heck, the system flows so smoothly and the powers that be don’t have to lift a finger, because people police each other and make it very uncomfortable for someone to speak up against the crowd, against the program.

People with autism truly march to the beat of their own drum without regard for what other people think of them, and how other people want them to be. They don’t have the same sense to conform in order to keep other people comfortable. They are just unapologetically themselves. We can learn a LOT from them. We are here to be fully ourselves, NOT to fit in with the crowd, not to just be mindless, unquestioning workers slogging along to support the system, our government, and the wealthiest 1%.

A friend of mine from high school has a son who is exactly a month younger than my own. He could read when he was 2 years old. Being that we were both first-time parents, neither of us had a gauge for knowing what was typical behavior at the various ages. But I remember talking with my friend in those days, and explaining where my own son was with his speech and inability to know what sounds letters made, let alone read. I remember telling him that the things his son was doing weren’t “normal” for his age. He was a freaking genius! As he grew, they began to suspect that he may be on the autism spectrum. Tests later confirmed their suspicions. He is highly functioning and extremely intelligent. He actually skipped a grade of elementary school, because of how far ahead he is intellectually.

Generally, when I knew him, my friend was most concerned about his son’s ability to socialize with other kids. He generally didn’t go along with how most kids were expected to be around other people. He wanted what he wanted when he wanted it, and was comfortable voicing it. He wanted the toy he wanted to play with when he wanted it, so he’d take it. He didn’t coalesce. He didn’t easily give in. He didn’t care to sacrifice his own wants and needs to make someone else feel better or to make them comfortable. My fellow recovering people-pleasers, do you see now what I mean by evolution? My friend’s son is an awesome and loving child. The fact that he is considered to be “on the spectrum” is not limiting his capacity to be amazing, especially with a Dad who so lovingly supports and encourages him to be fully himself.

A person with autism is not of this program. In fact, they come into this life already out of the program. In that way, autism is a spiritual evolution. I believe that everything in this life is spiritual, because we are spirits having a human experience. The big picture is that rather than coming in and living yet another life governed by voices of others and the outside world, people with autism bypass it by not having the same experience as the rest of us. They come in tuned out of society and it’s established structures. And what a freeing experience! I believe that it frees their minds in a way that allows them to advance to being much more sensitive to energy, to making decisions based on the energy they pick up on, and to put themselves and their needs first (read: empaths born with boundaries and self-care techniques!).

Everything is made of energy. A person with autism is so in tune with the energy around them that they aren’t going to ignore the energy they pick up from a person and pretend that everything is OK. No, they’re going to refuse to interact with them. John’s Mom told me that when John was younger, she was having him say hi to someone and he wouldn’t do it. He then asked her (through facilitated communication using a program on his iPad) why it was so important to her that he say hi to someone he didn’t know. It made her pause and think differently about the situation. How often do we expect things like that from children? Why? How much of what we do is based on what our parents deemed as important? Do we want to live as the people who came before us, or do we want to be free and do what is right for us and our children?

If kids with autism feel like they need to release built up energy in their bodies, they’re going to move and shake regardless of who is around or what is happening. In contrast, it has taken me many years to get comfortable with lying on the grass in front of a friend to ground my energy, because I felt that’s what I needed to do in that moment. Some adults wouldn’t dare do something like that for fear of what another person might think! Kids with autism don’t care what people think. They just know that their body wants them to move, or lie down, or rock back and forth, so they do it. To the rest of us, their movements or outbursts of sound may seem inappropriate or out of place, depending their location and what is going on in that moment. But, they are just experiencing the full range of life in the present moment. Why do we force ourselves and our children to sit at desks for hours on end, when we are dynamic energetic beings who need to move? Why do we expect young kids to be quiet and still for such long periods of time? Why is that deemed as so important? Haven’t we learned yet that change is the only constant and that we don’t have to keep doing things the same way just because that’s how they’ve always been done? Hasn’t enough research shown that free play is much more important to a child’s cognitive development than being forced to sit still and quiet, indoors for long periods of time?? I could argue that school is the beginning of our disconnection with nature. Trained to sit inside all day at a desk, some people never break away from that lifestyle.

When people with autism feel emotions, they don’t save them up to emote later when other people aren’t around, instead they feel it in the moment and move on. They wouldn’t understand to save up those emotions or movements to release/act on ‘later’. Why would they do that? Why do we do that? When you really stop to think about it, a lot of the ways we’ve been taught how to be don’t make much sense. Am I right? From my perspective, adulting has been about learning how to feel emotions as they arise vs stuffing them down and having them surface at an inopportune time. Seriously, I’ve spent so many hours dealing with healing the trapped emotions I refused to feel for years. Imagine not ever doing that, from the time you were a baby! Believe me, that ability (and subsequent freedom from healing later) alone makes for a GIANT leap up a person’s path of ascension! Not being able to be programmed means that they don’t have to do the work like I did to deprogram and then reprogram myself. Talk about saving time!

It has taken me up to now to really get to a point where I am tuning out the outside voices and what society expects of me, and following my spirit wholeheartedly. This means that I follow my intuition about everything. I do my best to release myself from how I think I ‘should’ be or what I think I ‘should’ do, and do instead what my body and spirit are asking of me. This means that I eat when I am hungry. I sleep when I am tired. (Work in progress, because I love the peacefulness created when most people are sleeping.) I eat what I intuitively am called to eat. I pay attention to the energy of people and situations and distance myself from anything that doesn’t feel good or in energetic alignment with me. I put the energy I sense as the most important thing when I am making decisions in my life. I listen to a person’s energy above what they are saying. People lie a lot. I can sense it. Since taking my leap of faith and putting myself first, and setting the intention to strengthen my intuition, my ability to tap into the energy and intentions behind a person’s words is through the roof! You can tell me the prettiest, most supportive words, but if I feel an incongruence with the energy behind them, I will listen to your energy one billion percent of the time. I am including this here, because people with autism are even more sensitive than I am to this energy. (Which blows my mind from where I’m standing!)

We are energetic beings. We can use our sensing to help us. People with autism do this naturally. What I have learned is that when we follow our joy and intuition and show up as our fully authentic selves, we align with our spirit. Since my own alignment with spirit (which takes a never ending commitment to showing up fully and following my intuition about everything), I have found that I am protected and that I am able to manifest things very quickly and easily. As I have flexed my intuition like a muscle, it has grown stronger. It’s no longer a whisper I hear, but a very obvious knowing that I’ve learned to trust emphatically. This means that all of my psychic abilities have also increased, including telepathy, claircognazance (clear knowing), and clairsentience (clear sensing). I know at least one example where someone with autism is highly telepathic and knows what their parent is thinking and talking to people about even when they are no where around them. I am positive that across the board, many people with autism share these abilities that are rarely talked about or acknowledged.

The program depends on us not realizing our own innate abilities and powers. It’s the only way that it’s able to keep us small and breaking our backs for the wealth and power of the elite. People with autism may or may not be aware of their power and abilities, but they are evolving the human race just the same. As we are all part of a collective consciousness, the alignment of one person has an impact on the whole. The strengthening of one person’s psychic abilities due to alignment also positively benefits the whole. One person’s vulnerability to show up as fully themselves gives everyone else permission to do the same. People with autism who put themselves and their needs first are leading us by example. Only misalignment and dis-ease are to be expected when we walk around people-pleasing and peace-keeping while we put everyone else and their needs before our own. The world doesn’t need martyrs, it needs people standing fully in their power who love themselves enough to put their own health, happiness, well-being, and alignment ahead of everything else in their lives. Trust me, people who do this and give from an overflowing cup are the ones who change the world.

We are all here to learn lessons and expand consciousness. I believe that we plan a lot of our trials prior to our birth. Because we don’t know another person’s spiritual path, we should not judge it. I don’t think it’s sad that some people have autism. I think it’s sad that they’re not generally viewed as the way showers that they are! Instead of trying to force them to conform to the way things have always been done, I think it’s time that we value their ability to shake up a system that’s broken. Think also of all of the parents who are being forced to step into their own power and truth by speaking up for their autistic children! The more people who are comfortable speaking up and stepping up in this world when change is needed, the better. Autism is just one avenue for this kind of action. I’m telling you, autism isn’t just about the spiritual evolution of the affected individuals, but it also works to transform their parents, teachers, schools, government, and the world.

We’ve got to stop trying to label people and fit them into boxes of limitation. Just as we have been told to not judge a book by its cover, we need to stop judging each other by our rented meat suits. None of us belong in boxes. We were born the way we are meant to be. Perspective is EVERYTHING! Shift your perspective to see the grander picture. Our first, human reaction to things tends to be sadness or anger, but what if instead we got more curious and open-minded? Autism is a game-changer and self-loving humans who place their alignment with spirit and the well-being of their mind, body, and spirit as their first priority are changing the world.

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Shift Your Focus

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We aren’t taught that what we focus on grows, but it’s true. We do ourselves a MAJOR disservice when we continually run worst case scenarios and negative thoughts through our heads. When we get stuck in that repetitive cycle and add complaining to it, we literally become a giant magnet for more of what we don’t want. It’s why people who live their lives this way feel a sort of knowing that life sucks so bad. The negative things that keep happening in their lives keep reinforcing they’re beliefs. And they always want to tell everyone about it. They think of every terrible aspect of their life constantly, and so they manifest more negative situations to think and complain about. Then they’ll respond like “see, I told you life is horrible! Look at xyz that just got added to my pile of shit.” Truth is, they’re powerful creators and they’re manifesting everything in their life.

I was with someone who thought their family was cursed. While their family had suffered big traumas, their belief that they all had bad luck did not help them at all. Not only were they giving their power away by believing that something out there was throwing them more things to complain about, but they were constantly providing more energy to the belief that life was never easy for them.

Knowing that where I focus my energy literally creates my life, I am selective about my thoughts. It started with an awareness that my thoughts about myself and life were why I was suffering. Sure, things in my life at the time weren’t going as I would have liked. I felt stuck in California away from my family and I had done everything in my power to try and change it. Now all that was left was to accept my situation. I remember getting so annoyed with a woman I was working with, a sort of life coach, when she told me that I was right where I was supposed to be, because I was there. At the time, I didn’t feel like I was supposed to be here. So I fought that belief she introduced to me. But you know what? Eventually I discovered that she was right. We are all right where we need to be doing what we need to do. I am one of many in my community doing the important work of raising consciousness. I meet people all the time who are befuddled as to why they felt so compelled to move here. But I welcome them and thank them for coming, because I know the bigger picture as to why they have come. I feel it to my core.

Of course hind sight is 20/20. We have all experienced that. Even for me, I’ve had the feeling of “really? I needed to be in that relationship for 10 years to learn that lesson?” But I’ve had to accept that yes, it took me 10 years to learn, and that’s exactly what I needed to be doing then. We sometimes think we’re supposed to be in other places doing other things with different people, but what has been reinforced for me time and again over the last year and a half is that we are always right where we need to be.

The last year hasn’t just been about creating a new business and pushing and hustling to have it succeed. It’s been about cultivating peace in the unknown. It’s been about finally having the time and freedom to heal long-held wounds. It’s been about learning to follow and trust my intuition wholeheartedly so that I am always guided to my next inspired step. If I had been swooped up and flown from quitting my RN job in the hospital and straight into the current work I am doing, I would have missed the even more important journey of becoming the person I needed to be in order to do the things I’m currently doing. EVERY experience we have has value, even if we don’t see it at the time, or hind sight tells us that we’re stupid because we didn’t see the red flags. Life isn’t happening to us, it’s happening for us, mostly for our growth and expansion. We are also balancing out energies from past lives, dealing with traumas passed down through our family lines, and creating life from beliefs we locked in about ourselves and/or life from traumas during childhood. We don’t know the why of everything and our human minds aren’t what we need to figure that out. Sometimes we just have to accept where we’re at, and if we’re not happy, then strive to make changes.

If I told you that YOU are the powerful creator of your reality, what would you like to do? Starting setting intentions for how you want to feel in your life day to day. What kind of day do you intend to have today? Realize you have the power to focus on what you want. If you’re not living a life you love, start paying attention to where your focus is going. Fighting against something is the same as fighting for it, so be careful to direct your energy away from the thing you want to change and on what you hope will replace it.

The first things I tell everyone I work with to start doing is to keep a gratitude journal. I’ve seen how it has shifted my train of thought and focus in my own life. Writing down new things that I am grateful for every day allows me to stay in appreciation mode and out of lack, negativity, and complaining mode. It especially helped me when I was struggling with my work in the hospital, because it lifted me up and reminded me of all of the amazing things in my life. We are each so blessed. Like me, you’ve probably been taking the device you’re using right now and the WiFi you have access to in order to read this post. Let me tell you, when you don’t have WiFi at home, you learn to appreciate it. There is much that many of us take for granted every single day. But instead of giving thanks for what we DO have, we get stuck in a negative cycle of complaining about and focusing on what we DON’T have. Break the cycle, change your life for the better. You are the only one responsible for your reality. The sooner you internalize that, the sooner you can flip your script, stop giving your power away, get out of victim mode and thrive.

If you’re noticing that you’re stuck in time and repeating the same patterns, behaviors, and experiencing chronic issues of any kind, the Holographic Kinetics sessions that I do can really stand to help you. Holographic Kinetics is based on Dreamtime Healing of the aboriginal people in Australia and offers powerful healing at the spirit level. During a session with me (or a practitioner near you), you’re able to trace an issue back to its original cause and change the dimension of time, so that it stops affecting your life negatively. My own sessions during training have changed my life. I realize now that they helped me become who I needed to be in this now moment. I’ve noticed huge shifts in how I feel about myself and life, and that has caused me to make different decisions that have completely affected my path. If you’re interested, email me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com. I’d love to hear from you!

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Jammie

Dance like EVERYONE is Watching!

Seriously! Set yourself FREE and DANCE however you feel regardless of who is watching!

What are we worried about when we care so much about people seeing us dance and have fun? Like really, what do we think is going to happen?

I think generally we’re worried that people won’t like us. Or that they’ll think we’re weird and talk about us behind our backs. Or that they won’t want to be our friends or be seen with us.

Or….maybe it’s that we’re afraid that if we dance the way our bodies want us to, that maybe we’ll actually be seen. We’ve had experiences that have shown us that it’s much more comfortable for us to maneuver through the world sort of invisible. We’ve gotten so used to shirking away from any attention that we’ve gotten really comfortable with fitting in and remaining small. It’s easier to go unnoticed than to put yourself out there for everyone to judge. Right?!

Here’s the thing, trading in our joy for other people’s acceptance also trades away our freedom. Little by little, one small concession at a time. Eventually, we find ourselves unhappy, maybe even depressed, surrounded by people we don’t feel connected to, doing things that don’t light us up, with bodies riddled with dis-ease.

Our ultimate well-being comes from showing up in this world 100% us! Showing up authentically doesn’t mean dancing for everyone, but it does mean putting our own JOY ahead of what anyone else will think! It means doing the things that light us up the most regardless of who is watching! I’ve had to push myself past my own fears and insecurities to the point that I will dance just about anywhere, anytime. But there are things that are outside of my comfort zone, and it takes courage for me to push past my own perceived limitations and do them.

We’re all human. It takes courage for all of us to do things we haven’t done before, and to be the people we came here to be, but haven’t been before.

I have found that the amazing parts of life come from pushing past my comfort zone. And I’m telling you that in the last year of living this way, I’ve experienced the deepest connections of my life MULTIPLE times! One of those connections alone is worth every ounce of nerves I felt as I stepped into full alignment with my spirit!!

So stop being afraid of what/who you’ll lose if you show up in all of your glory, and start being excited about the path you’re going to be placed on when you align with your own spirit! The people you stand to lose because you dance however you feel or say what’s in your heart, are NOT your people to begin with. Your people will be the ones dancing with you! Your light will not blind or offend your people. Your people will be attracted to your light like a lighthouse shining down on a dark sea. Be YOU! Own your space! Own your light! DANCE however the hell you want to, BECAUSE everyone is watching and they need to see examples of people aligned with their spirit! DANCE ALIGN ELEVATE THRIVE!

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High Five!!

We’re all in the same boat! This life we’re so blessed to live provides us with a broad canvas on which to grow, expand, and move beyond anything that was previously limiting us!

It’s time to step into our power and create lives we love! While healing isn’t usually pretty or painless, in my experience, it is a billion times worth it! At this point, I happily adjust my lens as I find blind spots I hadn’t noticed before. It can be like a game. Pay attention to what is showing up in your life, and if you don’t like what you see, go within to find the cause of it. You are the powerful creator of your reality, because you control your thoughts about yourself and life! Perception is everything!

I’ll give you a real-life example: last year my car got hit twice (well 3 times or more but 2 caused decent damage) while it was parked. I was annoyed that the first person at work didn’t leave a note, and happy the second one did, but I was still annoyed about it. I could have chosen to see it all as a giant negative and gotten really disgruntled about it. But I didn’t. Instead, I chose to be excited that the insurance money could go towards paying my rent and bills after my big leap of faith and traveling last year. If I told you the details of the timing of it all, it would have even more of an impact. But just suffice it to say, that I felt completely taken care of. I appreciated the hidden intricacies of the Universe and I moved the fuck on with my thoughts.

We ARE the creators of our stories, our lives, so it’s times we start creating ones that UPLIFT us and make us feel good! Why not?! If you’re telling people/yourself a story that makes you out to be a victim, CHANGE the story. Today. STOP telling that other one. Instead of saying that you were with a narcissist and they gaslighted you and controlled your life, change it to one where you gave your power away to another person, but you realized it and got yourself out of the situation, and have rebuilt yourself and your life since then. And then MOVE ON to talking about your PRESENT, because it’s all that exists now. Now. THIS moment.

I have been around people who talk as if they JUST got themselves out of a toxic relationship and got a divorce only to find out that it happened OVER A DECADE AGO! I get it, we can get stuck in time. We can get lost in the memories of our past moments. We’ve all done it. But we don’t have to keep the old story lines alive if they’re bringing us down. We don’t have to live with the same patterns, beliefs, stories, thoughts, behaviors, or vibration.

Every day, we wake up to a brand new day filled with endless possibilities! We have the control to CHOOSE to transcend that which is no longer serving us! Make today count. Keep moving. Keep growing. Keep allowing for the expansion that is going to lead you to your best now moment ever! We’ve all got this! One. Step. One. Moment. At. A. Time.

Let’s live lively! Dance Align Elevate Thrive!

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I woke up and danced to Michael Franti and Spearhead’s song “Little Things” today! So many excellent lyrics in one song! You can check it out HERE!

“You know that it don’t cost a dime to spend a little extra time

To throw a little smile at somebody passing by you

You know that love don’t cost a thing

But it’s worth more than any diamond ring

Cause in this great, big world, it’s the little things”!!!

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Colleges and Universities are Part of the Programming

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Consider the fact that those of us living in the US know that the history we were taught in school wasn’t an accurate depiction. European settlement and “heroes” are highlighted while the mass killing and displacement of NATIVE Americans is barely taught or extremely downplayed. Kids are still being taught the nonsense of how Thanksgiving commemorates the Europeans and Native Americans coming together to share a bounty. In the way that elementary school history is tailored to teach kids only what the powers that be want us to believe, so too do colleges and universities spoon feed us the knowledge from decided upon text books that give us the story/information that they want us to believe, in ALL subjects. This is why we must question absolutely EVERYTHING.

I understand that the fact that I was able to take out loans and go out of state for college is considered a privlege that not everyone gets to experience. I also understand the way things are set up makes a college degree a necessity for many types of professions. With that said, I want to pose to you that in this moment in time during a grand awakening where more and more people are waking up all the time to the truth that they are infinite consciousness in human form, the last thing people need is further programming from the system in the form of degrees.

The only people getting degrees should be those who are aligned with their spirit and have a strong knowing about their soul’s purpose in this life and it involves a line of work that requires a degree. Gone should be the days where high school students are blindly pushed by parents and the system to pick a career at the age of 18, and go to college right away because they feel like that’s just what they’re supposed to do. We’ve got to move past the fear-based programming, beyond focusing our energy on becoming what our families expect from us, and into a more heart-guided space of freedom and curiosity.

We have already seen young people graduating from four-year schools unable to find jobs. This is after going into MASSIVE amounts of debt as tuition keeps rising and rising! Having a college degree is no longer a guarantee for employment. Most of the time, newly graduated high school students don’t know themselves well enough to be able to choose a career and therefore a degree that’s going to resonate with them when all is said and done.

How many of us really knew what we wanted to do with our lives when we were 18? I remember picking my degree in marine biology based on my love for the ocean and marine animals. I loved animals, therefore I chose biology. I wanted to help the planet, so I chose a second degree in Environmental Studies, Conservation Biology. I didn’t know how I intended to use these degrees. At the time, I also saw going to college as a way to get out of the town where I grew up. It ended up working out, because my first career revolved around working on various wildlife and fisheries projects all over the US. Those positions required a science degree.

As I mentioned, tuition has gone through the roof since I was in school. It’s a terrible combination when we have young kids choosing to go to college from a place of fear or from pressure from their families, because it sets them up to go into many thousands of dollars in debt while possibly aligning them with a degree that they won’t use or a career that they hate. It’s an easy way to get lots of people trapped into a lifetime of debt that will require that they get locked into the slog of a 9-5 job. Read how the slog affects us in my last post “We’ve Been Locked in an Energetic Prison”.

If we, as the human race, want to see REAL change happen in this world, then we’re going to have to start looking at things, and doing things completely differently than we generally have been. We have to do new things and think new thoughts if we want different results. Part of this means assessing the pedestal that we’ve been placing higher education on. We have to be willing to contemplate if further schooling is actually teaching people how to learn and question things for themselves, or if it’s further locking them into the herd mentality where they believe everything they’ve been taught in school. And that they’ve been so trained to stay in line and care what other people think of them that they don’t dare question anything for themselves.

The peace and freedom of the human race is going to come from breaking free from the herd mentality while realizing that we know nothing about how the world actually works, because our five senses are THAT limited. We did not come into this life with odds something like 1 in 400 trillion to simply be a sheep and fall in line with everyone else. We are all different reflections of the same source/god/universe energy that is seeking out a new, different experience of the world through our own unique perceptions and actions.

Humans tend to get so locked into the belief systems that have been fed to them that they are willing to defend them with their lives — see wars waged over religious beliefs. We grow up believing that all that our teachers and parents tell us, because we don’t know any better. But, they were fed what they are teaching us. Then, we defend that knowledge and take personal offense if someone offers an opposing viewpoint to what the masses have been taught. Yet we supposedly live in a “free” society infamous for our “free” speech. Kids bully other kids who don’t ‘fit in’, and adults bully other adults through gossip, bad-mouthing, and cyber-bullying behind the safety of their screen when what someone is saying or doing falls outside of the PROGRAMMED ‘accepted norm’. You ever wonder where these ‘societal norms’ even come from? I have been really focusing on noticing my thoughts and beliefs and questioning all of them in the last several years. I really have come to know that I know very little of how this world works, so I am less inclined to hold so tightly to any belief that I have, even if it is one that I have been carrying around with me for a long time.

We’ve been programmed to be the police for each other, keeping each other ‘in line’. If you’ve never read the book “The Four Agreements” by Don Miguel Ruiz, then I highly suggest that you do. One of the agreements that I have found myself focusing on a lot over the last several years is to not take anything personally. The truth is that nothing anyone says or does is because of us. We are in a lot of ways, all living in own own, personal simulation game. Because there is so much going on around us at any given time, our minds have to block some of the stimuli from our awareness or it would all completely overwhelm us. So, based on our past experiences, our minds decide what is important for us to take note of. Two of us walking down the same street would have a completely different experience because our unique perceptions would be allowing and disallowing different information from entering our field of perception. For instance, I may notice flowers that are like the ones my parents used to grow in our front yard, while you may be oblivious to the flowers while instead noticing a car like the one you just bought recently. Because our individual realities are painted with what our mind chooses to focus on either subconsciously or consciously, our thoughts literally create our reality.

I am thankful for the experiences that my degrees have allowed me to have, but I also acknowledge the fact that I’ve had to spend a lot of time letting go of the beliefs that I was spoon fed in school, so that I could become a free-thinker willing to question everything I’ve been taught and had come to believe so strongly. I pay attention to my intuition when I learn something new, and only take the information that I can feel resonates with me. I release anything that doesn’t feel like my truth.

Just as someone who grew up within the confines of a specific religion has to reprogram their mind once they  realize that the church’s message is no longer resonating with them, I’ve had to reprogram my mind to not take everything touted by science as fact. The reality is that we are only being taught what our government and state wants us to believe. How many degrees of separation do you think stand between our government, and big pharma, big agriculture, big business, and colleges and universities? In my research, I’m finding not many. It’s all connected. And a the main intention behind these entities is overall control of the population and profit. This is why it’s imperative that we start releasing our grip on our beliefs, and questioning everything! We must not take anything at face value. If we want to be free-thinkers who instead of following the crowd, we must start following our own intuition and inner knowing.

Pay attention to the fact that many of us who grew up questioning everything, are usually the one in our families who felt alone and unlike everyone else. We were planted into our families to shake up the status quo. Our children are also playing this role on an even grander scale. As parents, it can be difficult to raise such strong-willed children, but it’s so important in the bigger picture. They are here to stretch and expand us and this dimension in time, while staying more true and authentic to themselves. We are meant to learn from them, not punish or drug them. We’re being shown that we need to do things differently if we want different results, so can you see the divinity of how our kids do things differently and don’t accept the answer of “oh we do it that way, because that’s just the way it’s always been done”?

Just in my healing journey alone, I have seen enough holes in science and my education to know that it’s not the end all, be all that it’s made out to be. Big pharma and insurance have far too much say in how we’re caring for people with dis-ease in this country. Doctors and hospitals receive large kick backs from both when they push certain medications and vaccinations. For example, the hospital I worked in began to require everyone to get a yearly flu vaccine even when the effectiveness of a particular year’s vaccine was shown to only be 10-30%. Do we really believe that this requirement has anything to do with preventing the flu? Question everything.

We have a bunch of mandatory vaccines being given to babies in the US which continues to increase every year, yet we have one of the highest mortality rates for babies of any country in the world. I would maybe believe that the US’ medical system and policies are on point when it comes to infant care if our babies here weren’t dying in record numbers especially given that we are a first-world country. We’re missing the mark big time. It’s time to question everything.

In my nursing program, we were not taught about Lyme Disease, something that I had been battling myself. The only mention of it to my class came because I had an instructor whose daughter had Lyme Disease. There is a huge conspiracy going on with the treatment of Lyme despite the fact that it is projected that the 30,000 new cases a year is actually probably closer 300,000. Find and watch “Under Our Skin” if you want more details about the agenda behind the lack of proper tests and treatment for Lyme. Insurance companies have such control over the treatment of Lyme, that it is virtually impossible to receive adequate antibiotic treatment without going to a specialist and paying out-of-pocket. Doctors have been taken to court and have lost their license to practice medicine over the treatment they prescribe. Doctors aren’t even educated on Lyme. When I was diagnosed, I had doctors in my  area who had been involved in my care get defensive when I told them I had Lyme, stating that there isn’t Lyme in this area. Bullshit. I know many people who have gotten it in this area. They seemed to take offense, because they weren’t the ones to figure out my mystery illness. I witnessed the most petty responses from my doctors including one that I had really come to respect. Question everything.

Alternative therapies such as homeopathy are often discredited, while big pharma medications are continually pushed on the general public through near constant commercials on TV and through advertising posted in every doctor’s office. The effectiveness of homeopathy is so downplayed even though it has been credited with the turnaround of many people’s dis-ease, including my own. Doesn’t it make sense that a treatment that’s minimally expensive, but has the propensity to get people off of their big pharma- supplied medications would be downplayed and vehemently argued against? Question everything.

We’re taught to protect ourselves from the sun, but we need it for vitamin D production. There are people who have been wearing sunscreen SPF 50 and covering up, and are STILL getting skin cancer. We have to wonder if the sunscreens are actually CAUSING the skin cancer. Try limiting sun exposure and covering up when you’re going to be in the sun for a long time. Question everything.

The two political parties roll out the same agendas term after term with slight variations to make us believe that one is doing better or worse than the last guy. It’s all the same thing being carried out by different puppets. Yet people hold such strong convictions that they turn on friends and family and allow their own energetic vibration to drop because of what the latest puppet is doing or saying. It’s meant to divide us and drop us into a lower vibrational state. Question everything.

The way to our alignment with our spirit is by jumping out of the herd mentality and following the beat of our own drum. We are all very unique versions of the same source on purpose. We should not seek from outside of ourselves for the knowledge that we all hold within.

We find our purpose when we show up as our 100% authentic and vulnerable selves ready and willing to do, say, and think new things even if no one else is doing it. That’s when we find our unique contribution to this world — through our own, unique, individual expression of the source energy that we all are.

Learn to educate yourself. Question everything. Accept only what resonates with you at your core, and release the rest. Read the banned and censored books (1984 anyone?). Expand your awareness to include the things that they don’t teach us in school. Consider that we are able to perceive very little in this world, so don’t hold tight to any one thought or belief. Much of what we’re taught is backwards from the way things actually are. Question everything.

Align with your own spirit, so that you allow your intuition to be your guide, not the voices from the outside world. We each hold all of the answers we seek.

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Spiral of Healing

When this gorgeous orange cat showed up meowing at my front door at the end of October last year, I knew he had been sent to me on purpose. I had literally cleared my heart and spoke my intention into the Universe that our next dog would arrive at our door a day or so before. My son was dying for a dog here. I decided I was ready if the Universe thought it was good for us.

Fast forward to a pet communicator telling me that this cat was an answer to my prayer and a powerful healer here to help me not worry because things were all working out. Here to remind me to keep me collecting as much joy as possible.

I didn’t understand then. I didn’t feel like I needed a powerful healer. And then the last month or so of my life happened. This cat came to be with me NOW.

Nothing major has happened. I’m like many others on this planet right now who have been cycling through some tough stuff welling up from my past. You know…the bit of a roller coaster clearing cycles we’ve been feeling in recent months. All just being brought to the surface so we can finally heal and move forward completely with the new energy we’re able to tap into now.

Abandonment wound. I have one. From my research, most of us might. Can happen in childhood when we feel abandoned by our parents emotionally. Can happen when a parent leaves and doesn’t have anything to do with us. Can happen when a significant person to us dies. Can happen when a lover leaves or a divorce happens.

What I’m realizing is that it’s my big thing, meaning the big thing that’s healing in me every time one of these waves comes over all of us. It’s what I was healing in my last relationship.

I thought I was done with it. It got triggered recently, but almost as soon as I did, I realized that I wasn’t feeling the emotions of that moment, but instead of moments past. You’re probably feeling some things from moments past too, because I’m hearing that a lot from other people. It’s not just our moments past that we’re healing now, it’s our parent’s moments and their parents etc etc. It’s important work. Tiring work. So naps might be needed or earlier bedtimes. Crying might happen. Extra self care and love is needed.

What I’m being shown is that it’s really all about learning to feel what we feel when we feel it and allowing those feelings to flow how they need to. I know I put off a lot of feeling from when I was a kid experiencing things I didn’t really understand. I made up stories in my mind about what was going on and why. And I’m realizing that that’s OK that I did that, but now, I’m stronger and able to deal with those issues. They’re coming up to feel now. Sometimes it’s obvious as to where my feelings are coming from. Luckily, our triggers make things known, so we can feel and heal those old wounds. Amazing to be grateful for triggers. Never thought I’d write that sentence. If we feel these things, we’ll release them and they won’t have a stronghold on us anymore. It doesn’t have to be more complicated than that to release what is coming up to be healed right now.

If you’re like me, your mind might get satisfaction in looking up traits associated with abandonment. Did you know that serial monogamist relationships in succession without break can be a form of self-medication? Guilty. We’re all human. Me, you, that person who drives you crazy. We’re all doing the best we can with where we are and we’re healing as we go. We all have lessons to learn and we all have things that need healed, or we wouldn’t be here. You are not alone. I know that for me, reading some of the things that go with abandonment wounds added clarity to my life and also reminded me of how far I’ve come.

Stop right now. Take a deep breath in. Think of the last year and all you’ve come through. Take a moment to feel good about how far you’ve come. Sending you so much love as we continue forward on this spiral of growth and expansion. We have not begun to move backwards. We’re simply digging deeper, so that more suppressed pain can be released to make way for even more light. Hang on. This all holds purpose for all of us.

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