Dance/Create Align Elevate Thrive!

2019 has been a year of DANCING and CREATING!

I learned the true value in maintaining an elevated energetic vibration and the alignment with my own spirit. For once in my life, I placed these things and my own well-being FIRST. I felt into everything I did, and got strong in following my intuition wholeheartedly. I now trust myself and my own guidance fully, and no longer feel like I need guidance from any outside source.

I met a lot of new members of my tribe. I danced more. I sang more. I hiked more. I connected more. I healed more. I taught more. I created art more. I manifested more. And not only did I do these things, but I did them in front of other people through public dance parties, classes, speaking, and even my first art show! This year has been a year of getting to know my power as a powerful creator. It has meant not playing small and staying hidden hoping that people won’t notice my differences. It’s been about not only accepting my differences, but really learning to love and appreciate them. I’ve been putting myself out there more by sharing my perspectives more openly.

There have been painful times in this year as I’ve peeled back more layers in my healing process. Working through identifying more with my spirit than my ego has required some deep, personal introspection. It required a lot of solitude. For once, I was fully ready and willing to look at my issues and face them without deflecting to other people or situations. I stood in my own shit and owned it all.

In 2019, I came out of my shell and stepped more into my light in a public way. With help from Holographic Kinetics, I gained a confidence in myself and my abilities that I had never before experienced. I plan to up my life game in big ways in 2020. I realize that I’ve been functioning at probably half my capacity. I feel like it’s time to blow the top off of any remaining perceived limitations I have about myself and life and go all in!

2020 is going to be BIG!

Happy New Year to all of the people here who have followed me on this incredible journey of self-discovery and self-transformation. I appreciate you! 2020 here we come!

If you only know my blog and want to see the dancing and art I created this year, check out my IG at peaceful.jellyfish or FB at /peacefuljellyfish. I’ve posted a lot of videos this year that you will enjoy of you enjoy my blog.

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I can’t help but think of Prince’s song “1999” on this last day of 2019! Enjoy!

Trauma

An event is traumatic, because it causes us to decide something about ourselves or about life that we then create from ever after. In the moment of a traumatic event, we lock in beliefs that life then continues to prove true, since what we believe we experience. The event can cause a lot of pain and suffering in the moment, but it’s our continual reliving of the beliefs we acquired through it that truly cause us to suffer over and over again.

It is my changed perspective about myself and life that continues to shape my experience, not the original traumatic event itself. We are powerful creators, so if something makes us decide at some point at conception or beyond that we are not worthy of love, then we will create situations and relationships over and over again to prove that belief. I had that cycle repeating in my own life. Luckily, through my personal sessions of Holographic Kinetics, I was able to clear that belief at the spirit level, so I no longer have to carry it around to have it surface time and again in this life and future lives. Phew!

So much of what we come to know about ourselves and the world is taught to us within a system that places more value on our physical reality than on the fact that we are all spiritual beings having a temporary human experience. Our multidimensionality and that of the universe tends to be completely overlooked. So, a lot of spiritual information then doesn’t tend to fit neatly into the confines of what we’ve been taught our whole lives. This leads to major disconnect and feelings of dis-ease. We begin bottling up the things we think or feel that don’t fit with what we’ve been told by our families, teachers, friends, and the organizations to which we belong (Wow, organizations we belong to, think on that for a minute. I personally don’t want to ‘belong’ to any organization). We sometimes label these things as “wrong”, or have the people we open up to do it for us. The reality is that usually the discourse we feel is because our own inner knowing doesn’t match up with what we’re being told/taught. I have learned to always trust the inner knowing above everything else. We have all of the answers we seek inside of us.

The reality is that the world we live in is nothing as it seems. We have been taught to place so much importance on the outer world and things out of our control that we’ve lost sight of the fact that WE are the ones that can free and heal ourselves. To take our power back means to stop giving it away to others. We’ve got to snap out of victim-mode ASAP. There is no one else to blame if we continue to relive our traumas and not do the work to get out of the cycle of similarity we’ve become trapped in by our own beliefs. I’m not saying it’s easy, but I am saying it’s necessary if we want to finally start listening to the nudges of our spirits and break free from old patterns and programming, so that we can get on with living our best lives.

I have done a lot of inner work. I keep being guided deeper and deeper to clear more and more from my past. We are so powerful that we can set intentions and tell our spirits what we want, and then notice that we will be guided to the people, situations, and resources to help us. How many of you set an intention to level up and/or clear out what was no longer serving you and have experienced people and situations clearing out of your life in record speeds this year? We asked for all of it. Right now, I am being urged to drive several hours away to the nearest practitioner to have another Holographic Kinetics session. As I’ve cleared issues on my own, and through HK, other issues have moved to the surface as the next important parts in need of healing. Remember, the growth and healing doesn’t stop until we die. But, in my own experience, it does stop feeling so severe, because I can more easily recognize what is happening. If you are being guided to a specific type of healing, I urge you to follow it. When I have done that, I have found another piece of the puzzle that helped me on my path back to my innate well-being.

Several years ago, I was sick of being depressed. I wasn’t actively depressed when I decided this, but I was suffering greatly. My thoughts about my situation were primarily negative and I felt stuck in a life that I didn’t feel I had chosen for myself. As I dug myself out of those beliefs, I began to see some light at the end of the tunnel. I realized that it wasn’t really my outer experience causing me to suffer, but my belief about it! This was huge! I remember getting very annoyed with a woman I worked with for a time when she’d say that things were the way they were supposed to be, because that’s what was happening. How easy is it to think that everything is happening for a reason when we’re enjoying life?! Not so much, it seems, when we’re unhappy with our lives. But, it’s important to realize that we can’t think that things are happening as they are meant to in some cases AND believe that we’re victims of circumstance in others. It doesn’t work that way. Because there is so much more to this life, we do not always consciously know what energy is being balanced out by a situation, or what lessons a person’s spirit is wanting them to learn. We’ve got to stay in our own lanes of being and focus on our own growth.

That being said, we are often stuck in time and repeating cycles of similarity. One way to work through this is to become aware of the dynamic happening and then ask ourselves what our role in it has been. When we take responsibility for our lives in this way, positive shifts happen because we take back our power. Standing in our own power and our own innate sense of knowing moves us towards alignment with our own spirit. An example in my own life is that it doesn’t serve my highest good to complain about a past relationship with a narcissist. Even labeling the person that way isn’t helpful for me, though it is helpful in reaching the people who need this message. What helps me is to see the role I played in that relationship. What led me to it? I fully recognize that I knowingly gave up my power at the start of it. I had been in a relationship where I made so many of the decisions and I was tired of it. I was excited to spend time with someone who liked to plan our time together. Suddenly, I wasn’t the one planning all of the hikes. It felt like a relief to not make the decisions for a while. But then that led into giving my power away about other things. Next thing I knew, I no longer felt in control of my own life. But it started with ME. Realizing that has allowed me to become aware of and see the parts of me that were drawn to that relationship. I’ve then been able to work towards a much deeper level of healing from that place of awareness.

As much as we like to think that we know where an issue originated, in my sessions of Holographic Kinetics, I have been shown time and again that often, we are not actually consciously aware of the cause. Many times, a trauma in childhood merely activates an issue that spirit has been carrying through from lifetimes ago. Or, from a trauma that a grandfather or great grandmother locked in at the spirit level and began passing down to future generations. As we are spiritual beings first, our issues don’t always originate in this lifetime. It is our minds that will try and connect an issue to an event that we can consciously remember in an attempt to make sense of it. Sometimes, trauma happens as a result of something our parents say or do when we are in the womb, or when we are little babies less than a year old. Just the same, we lock in beliefs about ourselves or life in those moments, and begin to unconsciously create our reality from them.

In the Holographic Kinetics sessions that I do, I have witnessed a person’s spirit take them back to a point just after conception (yes, in their Mother’s womb) many times as it finds the cause of the first activation or creation of an issue in this lifetime. How is that possible? How can we be aware of anything when we have barely been conceived? It is because we are spirits first and foremost. As the aboriginal people explain it, our spirit is what is with us through this life as well as through all of our past lives. Our spirit is aware of the cause of ALL of the issues that are holding us back in this life. Holographic Kinetics allows us to communicate with our spirit and help it change the past in the present for the future.

You see, our spirits do not wish to relive the same lesson and limiting pattern over and over again. No, our spirits yearn to be free, so that they can experience the full range of creation in this life. This is why we have all been feeling so called to clear our old issues and baggage that we’ve possibly been carrying around for many lifetimes. Our spirits are guiding us to the changes we need to make in order to break free from the self-imposed/accepted limitations we’ve allowed for far too long. We can heal ourselves by listening to our spirits/higher selves/intuition. Our spirit knows what we need in order to thrive in this life. When we listen to that inner guidance/knowing, we are naturally led into alignment with our own spirit which is the place from which everything we seek is possible.

I urge you to begin to follow your intuition about everything. How do you know it’s your intuition and not your old patterns speaking? The inspired ideas you get from your spirit will leave you feeling excited. The guidance will be to things that make you feel good. In fact following your joy and what feels good to you is another way to align with your spirit. As you follow the guidance from your spirit/intuition, your ability to do so will strengthen. Over time, it will become second nature and you will come to trust it more. I have a way of asking for guidance from my own spirit that gives me answers based on the feeling I get in my body.

We all have the power to heal our trauma, so that it stops causing us to repeat the same cycles over and over. The answers to that healing really lie within each of us. We are all drawn to what we need, when we need it. I was drawn to numerous healing modalities before being pulled in a big way to Holographic Kinetics. It was all important, because it all led me to an expanded awareness and deeper healing. It’s like each thing allowed for wellness, so I’d be ready for the next level of healing. My healing didn’t happen all at once, or through only one modality. It’s as if I was being groomed to be able to wrap my head around the healing at the spirit level. I experienced such profound healing of my past wounds through Holographic Kinetics, and I continue to be amazed (not surprised) by the ways that I see it help my clients or friends afar who go to practitioners near them. I have witnessed it shift a friend out of severe suicidal thoughts and back into their previous excitement about the year to come immediately following their first Holographic Kinetics session. I will be speaking about this at a Mental Health and Mindfulness focused Visalia Talks and Wine in January, so stay tuned.

Mindfulness isn’t just about being present in our moments and grateful for what we have, it’s about developing a conscious awareness of the beliefs we have that are holding us back. In Holographic Kinetics, when we find the cause of an issue, our spirit is able to change that dimension of time, so that we break free from the beliefs about ourselves that continue to re-traumatize us through time on all levels and all dimensions.

If you’d like more information about Holographic Kinetics, email me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com. Check out my testimonials page at the top of this blog for feedback from a few of my clients. I am also happy to speak on any of the topics I cover in this blog at events or organizations who are interested in learning more. Email me with inquiries.

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Free to be ME!

My beautiful, visible wings are courtesy of talented artist, Mikayla Gutierrez, on Ziaya’s store!

I feel more ME right now than I ever have in my entire life! Well, at least in the time that I can consciously remember. I’ve been slowly peeling back the layers I had plastered on to please people and keep others comfortable. I dropped the chameleon skin I picked up during childhood in exchange for my authenticity. I used my joy and my intuition to light the way in this unearthing of my true nature. I dug back to my childhood and remembered what had once brought me the most joy and had made me feel most alive. As I did these things and explored more, I picked up the pieces of myself that I had lost along my journey.

There’s a reason why human transformation is often likened to the changes that a caterpillar endures during the process of becoming a butterfly. My inner work and process to alignment with my spirit hasn’t always been pretty. There have been times of exhilaration as I’ve realized a pattern, changed it, and have experienced the positive outcome. But there have been times wrought with tears and fear when I just wanted to fast forward through the growth to more comfort.

Returning to our true selves pushes us out of the comfort zones that we’ve known and into deeper states of awareness, healing, and well-being. At its core, transformation is uncomfortable. We cannot choose both, comfort AND transformation, but in my experience, transformation is worth every ounce of my discomfort. From my place of understanding, the caterpillar does not have the conscious awareness to know that going into a dark cocoon does not mean death. In a lot of ways, does not the caterpillar die? We can argue that the caterpillar who entered the cocoon and the butterfly that exits it are two different things. But because one was a living being and the other is a living being, we deduce that no true death of the spirit occurred. Spirit just went from one outward display to another. In the same way, I have completely transformed, though to some, the outward effects may be less visible.

We empower ourselves through our authenticity and vulnerability in showing up fully as who we each came here to be. We have been fooled. It is not a positive to conform to the crowd. In fact, conformity weakens our spirit. When we are always worried about what other people think of us, or if they like us, we disconnect from our own spirits which eventually leads to dis-ease of our body, mind, and spirit.

Choosing to remain in situations purely because we are comfortable can be likened to a caterpillar choosing to not enter into the cocoon stage of development. Sure, it’s life will go on and it will enjoy a life of eating leaves, but it will be missing out on living it’s full, potential expression as a butterfly. Change can be scary, but routine and comfort zones do more to kill our spirits than any change ever will.

I’m living proof to trust your journey. Regardless of where you are on your path of growth, you will be guided to bigger and better things when you adjust your sails towards living your best life. The process can be dark and scary at times, but that’s just a cocoon phase and it doesn’t last forever. On the other side of the cocoon is a life full of more freedom, joy, and love than you have ever known! That new way of being won’t be because any outside circumstance has changed, but because YOU have changed. Your way of looking at things has changed. The little things become the big things and the gratitude for all of it overtakes you. Do your best to flow with your transformation. When you go as a river, you release suffering as you trust your journey. You have the same ability as me to come out on the other side with your very own set of wings! Trust.

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Highest Good

“I recognize that I have chosen fear, and I choose again. I choose love.”

“Instead of praying for an outcome, I pray for the highest good for all.”

I pulled these cards on Sunday morning when I asked for a message that I/the collective needed to hear.

I didn’t always realize I was making big decisions from a place of fear. But once it was brought to my attention, I could see fear behind nearly everything I had done. Choosing out of fear can look like moving away from home to go far away from family for college, because you were afraid that you’d never otherwise find a way out of the town you grew up in. It can look like hanging onto a relationship or allowing it to get more serious, because you’re afraid that you’ll otherwise lose the person completely. It can look like staying in a job that’s negatively affecting your health (mind, body, and/or spirit), because you’re afraid that no other work exists that would allow you to pay all of your bills. Are you making choices out of fear?

Awareness is KEY to all change. Until we know the part we’re playing in the life that we’re creating, we can’t change what we’re doing. From that new awareness, I decided to start making decisions from a place of love. So, when something comes up, I examine my decision to see if I’m choosing based on fear or love. If it’s fear, I recognize it and make a different choice that’s love-based.

I don’t pray. I don’t depend on things outside of myself anymore. Prior to Holographic Kinetics, I was praying to spirit guides and arc angels. Since my training, I’ve realized my power in alignment with my spirit. I ask only my own spirit for guidance. I do not wish to risk calling in anything in other dimensions that only wish to control me and to create the energy they need to survive. Yes that’s a thing. Holographic Kinetics can clear these types of interferences, but I’d rather stand in my own power by consciously not creating more issues I need to then have another HK Practitioner clear from my field. Knowing the Laws of LORE (Universal Laws vs human-made laws) helps me to live in a way in which I don’t give my power away to outside things and create energy that I’ll have to balance later in this life or in future lives. I’ve owned my role as the powerful creator of my life.

Knowing that the how and what of what I’ve asked for in the past has ended up even better than I imagined, I release expectations and my own limits by always asking for what is in my highest good and the highest good of others. If I ask my spirit for something, I like to follow it by “or something better”.

It’s not up to us to “fix” people. We each will balance the energy we create out in this lifetime or future lifetimes. And what you have to balance out is none of my business and not for me to know. But realize your power as a creator and part of infinite consciousness itself. Everything we experience in life was created by us at some point in time. As linear time as we know it is just a human construct, everything that is happening now has happened before and will happen in the future, as it is all really happening right NOW. It’s up to us to recognize if what we’re creating is making us happy or not. We’ve got to ask ourselves if we’re satisfied with our lives. Are we living our best lives? Are we following our dreams? Is there something we can do to shift things?

Realize that you have had the power all along to make your choices from a place of love. Following your joy is a start. Does an idea light you up and leave you sleepless at night with excitement? FOLLOW IT!!! Likewise, is something in your life causing your stomach to knot up with anxiety and a sense of discontent? If so, take one action to free yourself from that thing. It could mean reading a book about a topic you’re interested in or taking a class or getting trained in something you’ve been dreaming about. You don’t have to leap off a cliff so to speak to change your life, but you do need to become an empowered creator and take inspired action when you’re being nudged by your higher self.

I’ve experienced first-hand what happens when we stay in situations that we know aren’t serving our highest good. For me, I lost my health and almost died, and boy did that make me start listening to my higher self! Then when my job in the hospital began to negatively affect my health, I saw the warning signs before it got too bad and I quit. If we don’t listen to the whispers of our inner knowing/intuition/spirit and take action, the universe takes action for us.

When we cast a thought out into the world that we want to live our best life, follow our purpose, or be more fulfill in life etc, the universe answers the call. We can make decisions for ourselves to move us towards things that will serve our highest good, or we can wait and ponder and suffer, and then have things removed from our life for us.

I can’t tell you how many people I’ve talked to lately who have lost jobs, been forced to move out of their houses, have lost their health, or relationships! These are all ways that our spirits up level us in this life, though in the thick of it, it feels more like a destruction. In times like that, the easy way to be is to fall into victim mode by saying “why me?” Why not you? Have you been living your best life? Have you been putting your own well-being and peace and happiness first? Have you been listening to your intuition?

Sometimes humans live with the notion that life is meant to be easy. We wrongly judge our insides to other people’s outsides and think that they’re doing something better than us. That they’re not struggling as much as we are, and we can sink into feeling less than or like we’re doing life wrong. But we’re not. We’re just living lives as spirits having human experiences. We come to this life to learn lessons and balance our energy, and to experience as much as we can as powerful creators. If life was a cake walk, we would not learn as much. It’s not meant to be a cake walk, but it doesn’t have to be a miserable slog of suffering either.

It’s about shifting perspective and recognizing that if we’re creating our reality then we have the ability to create one that we love. Realize that we never have to just “suck it up” and endure life. We can shift so that we view life with a sense of curiosity rather than a sense of dread and apathy.

Life is what we make it and while our minds and egos are always filling in the blanks based on what we’ve experienced in the past, our spirits are infinite and can guide us from the patterns that we’ve been creating so far.

I have healed a lot on my own (yes even my physical health) by listening to my intuition and making changes to my life. For example, once I had made the decision to leave my marriage, my health shifted so much without changing anything else I was doing. My entire medication regimen was the same, what I was doing was the same. Even my husband was surprised by the changes happening to me before my eyes. This isn’t about him though, this is about me. I wasn’t a victim, I was choosing where to be. I was meant to learn from the experience and I did. All of that allowed me to be acutely aware of when it was happening again, when I had been staying in something that was no longer serving me and I needed to make a change. Each thing we go through has purpose and a cause. In my experience, absolutely nothing is by chance. It’s leading us, sometimes with breadcrumbs to what we need to know for a future time.

Trust your journey, and know that you and no one else has the ability to change your life. You change your life by changing your thoughts, words, actions, and deeds. What do you want to create? What’s stopping you?

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Autism: A Spiritual Perspective

My spirit has some ideas about autism that aren’t what you usually hear. What I am about to say didn’t come from a book I’ve read, or a movie I’ve watched. It comes from a core sense of knowing that I have about autism. I had a flow of words come out of me the other day as I was talking with the Mom of John, an autistic, nonverbal 19 year old, high school graduate that I began working with in October.

Autism isn’t a disability. Autism isn’t something that needs “fixed”. Autism doesn’t mean that there is something “wrong” with a person. No, quite the opposite. I believe that autism is a form of human evolution. Why? It breaks us free from the way that we have been programmed to live. It breaks us free from caring what other people think about us. It breaks us free from so many societal “norms” we’ve felt compelled to follow.

The system wants to ignore autism. Schools want to group them into a box of being mentally retarded. Because kids with autism usually need some extra help in school, schools want to place them in a class for special education, but it’s usually not clear cut like that. John was always highly intelligent, but because he was non-verbal, teachers and tests weren’t able to detect it. Luckily, his Mom knew better, and he was able to go on to graduate from a normal high school program.

The system doesn’t know how to handle autism, because people with autism can’t and won’t be fit into neat boxes. They don’t follow any of the set rules and guidelines that we’re taught to follow. Society judges them against people without autism, which is a bit like judging apples against oranges. Yes they’re human, and fruit is fruit, but beyond that, they are each uniquely themselves as we all are. The reality is that none of us should be fitting into boxes, but we get highly pressured to. Most of us succumb to the pressure around us. It’s usually only after we get sick of suffering that we break away from those chains of conformity. Heck, the system flows so smoothly and the powers that be don’t have to lift a finger, because people police each other and make it very uncomfortable for someone to speak up against the crowd, against the program.

People with autism truly march to the beat of their own drum without regard for what other people think of them, and how other people want them to be. They don’t have the same sense to conform in order to keep other people comfortable. They are just unapologetically themselves. We can learn a LOT from them. We are here to be fully ourselves, NOT to fit in with the crowd, not to just be mindless, unquestioning workers slogging along to support the system, our government, and the wealthiest 1%.

A friend of mine from high school has a son who is exactly a month younger than my own. He could read when he was 2 years old. Being that we were both first-time parents, neither of us had a gauge for knowing what was typical behavior at the various ages. But I remember talking with my friend in those days, and explaining where my own son was with his speech and inability to know what sounds letters made, let alone read. I remember telling him that the things his son was doing weren’t “normal” for his age. He was a freaking genius! As he grew, they began to suspect that he may be on the autism spectrum. Tests later confirmed their suspicions. He is highly functioning and extremely intelligent. He actually skipped a grade of elementary school, because of how far ahead he is intellectually.

Generally, when I knew him, my friend was most concerned about his son’s ability to socialize with other kids. He generally didn’t go along with how most kids were expected to be around other people. He wanted what he wanted when he wanted it, and was comfortable voicing it. He wanted the toy he wanted to play with when he wanted it, so he’d take it. He didn’t coalesce. He didn’t easily give in. He didn’t care to sacrifice his own wants and needs to make someone else feel better or to make them comfortable. My fellow recovering people-pleasers, do you see now what I mean by evolution? My friend’s son is an awesome and loving child. The fact that he is considered to be “on the spectrum” is not limiting his capacity to be amazing, especially with a Dad who so lovingly supports and encourages him to be fully himself.

A person with autism is not of this program. In fact, they come into this life already out of the program. In that way, autism is a spiritual evolution. I believe that everything in this life is spiritual, because we are spirits having a human experience. The big picture is that rather than coming in and living yet another life governed by voices of others and the outside world, people with autism bypass it by not having the same experience as the rest of us. They come in tuned out of society and it’s established structures. And what a freeing experience! I believe that it frees their minds in a way that allows them to advance to being much more sensitive to energy, to making decisions based on the energy they pick up on, and to put themselves and their needs first (read: empaths born with boundaries and self-care techniques!).

Everything is made of energy. A person with autism is so in tune with the energy around them that they aren’t going to ignore the energy they pick up from a person and pretend that everything is OK. No, they’re going to refuse to interact with them. John’s Mom told me that when John was younger, she was having him say hi to someone and he wouldn’t do it. He then asked her (through facilitated communication using a program on his iPad) why it was so important to her that he say hi to someone he didn’t know. It made her pause and think differently about the situation. How often do we expect things like that from children? Why? How much of what we do is based on what our parents deemed as important? Do we want to live as the people who came before us, or do we want to be free and do what is right for us and our children?

If kids with autism feel like they need to release built up energy in their bodies, they’re going to move and shake regardless of who is around or what is happening. In contrast, it has taken me many years to get comfortable with lying on the grass in front of a friend to ground my energy, because I felt that’s what I needed to do in that moment. Some adults wouldn’t dare do something like that for fear of what another person might think! Kids with autism don’t care what people think. They just know that their body wants them to move, or lie down, or rock back and forth, so they do it. To the rest of us, their movements or outbursts of sound may seem inappropriate or out of place, depending their location and what is going on in that moment. But, they are just experiencing the full range of life in the present moment. Why do we force ourselves and our children to sit at desks for hours on end, when we are dynamic energetic beings who need to move? Why do we expect young kids to be quiet and still for such long periods of time? Why is that deemed as so important? Haven’t we learned yet that change is the only constant and that we don’t have to keep doing things the same way just because that’s how they’ve always been done? Hasn’t enough research shown that free play is much more important to a child’s cognitive development than being forced to sit still and quiet, indoors for long periods of time?? I could argue that school is the beginning of our disconnection with nature. Trained to sit inside all day at a desk, some people never break away from that lifestyle.

When people with autism feel emotions, they don’t save them up to emote later when other people aren’t around, instead they feel it in the moment and move on. They wouldn’t understand to save up those emotions or movements to release/act on ‘later’. Why would they do that? Why do we do that? When you really stop to think about it, a lot of the ways we’ve been taught how to be don’t make much sense. Am I right? From my perspective, adulting has been about learning how to feel emotions as they arise vs stuffing them down and having them surface at an inopportune time. Seriously, I’ve spent so many hours dealing with healing the trapped emotions I refused to feel for years. Imagine not ever doing that, from the time you were a baby! Believe me, that ability (and subsequent freedom from healing later) alone makes for a GIANT leap up a person’s path of ascension! Not being able to be programmed means that they don’t have to do the work like I did to deprogram and then reprogram myself. Talk about saving time!

It has taken me up to now to really get to a point where I am tuning out the outside voices and what society expects of me, and following my spirit wholeheartedly. This means that I follow my intuition about everything. I do my best to release myself from how I think I ‘should’ be or what I think I ‘should’ do, and do instead what my body and spirit are asking of me. This means that I eat when I am hungry. I sleep when I am tired. (Work in progress, because I love the peacefulness created when most people are sleeping.) I eat what I intuitively am called to eat. I pay attention to the energy of people and situations and distance myself from anything that doesn’t feel good or in energetic alignment with me. I put the energy I sense as the most important thing when I am making decisions in my life. I listen to a person’s energy above what they are saying. People lie a lot. I can sense it. Since taking my leap of faith and putting myself first, and setting the intention to strengthen my intuition, my ability to tap into the energy and intentions behind a person’s words is through the roof! You can tell me the prettiest, most supportive words, but if I feel an incongruence with the energy behind them, I will listen to your energy one billion percent of the time. I am including this here, because people with autism are even more sensitive than I am to this energy. (Which blows my mind from where I’m standing!)

We are energetic beings. We can use our sensing to help us. People with autism do this naturally. What I have learned is that when we follow our joy and intuition and show up as our fully authentic selves, we align with our spirit. Since my own alignment with spirit (which takes a never ending commitment to showing up fully and following my intuition about everything), I have found that I am protected and that I am able to manifest things very quickly and easily. As I have flexed my intuition like a muscle, it has grown stronger. It’s no longer a whisper I hear, but a very obvious knowing that I’ve learned to trust emphatically. This means that all of my psychic abilities have also increased, including telepathy, claircognazance (clear knowing), and clairsentience (clear sensing). I know at least one example where someone with autism is highly telepathic and knows what their parent is thinking and talking to people about even when they are no where around them. I am positive that across the board, many people with autism share these abilities that are rarely talked about or acknowledged.

The program depends on us not realizing our own innate abilities and powers. It’s the only way that it’s able to keep us small and breaking our backs for the wealth and power of the elite. People with autism may or may not be aware of their power and abilities, but they are evolving the human race just the same. As we are all part of a collective consciousness, the alignment of one person has an impact on the whole. The strengthening of one person’s psychic abilities due to alignment also positively benefits the whole. One person’s vulnerability to show up as fully themselves gives everyone else permission to do the same. People with autism who put themselves and their needs first are leading us by example. Only misalignment and dis-ease are to be expected when we walk around people-pleasing and peace-keeping while we put everyone else and their needs before our own. The world doesn’t need martyrs, it needs people standing fully in their power who love themselves enough to put their own health, happiness, well-being, and alignment ahead of everything else in their lives. Trust me, people who do this and give from an overflowing cup are the ones who change the world.

We are all here to learn lessons and expand consciousness. I believe that we plan a lot of our trials prior to our birth. Because we don’t know another person’s spiritual path, we should not judge it. I don’t think it’s sad that some people have autism. I think it’s sad that they’re not generally viewed as the way showers that they are! Instead of trying to force them to conform to the way things have always been done, I think it’s time that we value their ability to shake up a system that’s broken. Think also of all of the parents who are being forced to step into their own power and truth by speaking up for their autistic children! The more people who are comfortable speaking up and stepping up in this world when change is needed, the better. Autism is just one avenue for this kind of action. I’m telling you, autism isn’t just about the spiritual evolution of the affected individuals, but it also works to transform their parents, teachers, schools, government, and the world.

We’ve got to stop trying to label people and fit them into boxes of limitation. Just as we have been told to not judge a book by its cover, we need to stop judging each other by our rented meat suits. None of us belong in boxes. We were born the way we are meant to be. Perspective is EVERYTHING! Shift your perspective to see the grander picture. Our first, human reaction to things tends to be sadness or anger, but what if instead we got more curious and open-minded? Autism is a game-changer and self-loving humans who place their alignment with spirit and the well-being of their mind, body, and spirit as their first priority are changing the world.

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My Purpose

“You are being called upon by the universe to be a shining example of how love can heal. The love you share will bring blessings to those who experience it. You are on the right path and this card is encouraging you to continue to help others through your gentle words as you have a natural counseling ability and bring joy to others.” — Andrianna Hopkins

When I talk about Holographic Kinetics and what I gained from my own sessions of it during my training in May, I often speak of the self confidence I now have as a direct result. It was palpable nearly immediately following my week of training. That confidence allows me to speak my truth and shine my light regardless of what others may think.

I follow Andrianna Hopkins on IG who posts a reading card every day. Yesterday’s card had this opening paragraph under it. It resonates with me to my core and I know that this speaks to a big part of my purpose in this life. Whether its friends I’ve known for years, family members, people who follow me here, people I meet as I’m out and about in the world, and even through past messages via online dating, I know that I affect people this way. People have always sought my counsel. They open up to me about big things that they often admit that they’ve never talked about with anyone else. As a natural born communicator and connector, deep conversations light me up! I absolutely LOVE having people open up to me about things going on in their lives. I am always so honored when people feel safe enough with me to drop their masks and open their hearts. Heart to heart connections/conversations are one of my greatest joys in this life!

Since transforming myself and my life, I find that I am always seeking new ways to share with others what I have learned on my journey. Enter in personal mindfulness coaching, a Mindfulness for Children class through my local Parks and Recreation, a Teen Mindfulness Group I created on my own, 1:1 teen mindfulness mentoring, the Holographic Kinetics sessions I do which really give people a full wake up call to how much our thoughts create our reality, the healing dance opportunities that my friend Jerrett Johnson and I are creating for our community, creating and selling my art, and the personal assistant work I now do with a highly intelligent, non-verbal high school graduate with autism, and I would say that I’m definitely on the right path for me. In fact, I’ve never felt more on my path and aligned with my spirit as I do right now!

I have spent the last almost 5 years waking up to my innate gifts and strengthening them as I’ve followed my intuition and joy to alignment with my own spirit. I have watched as the techniques I’ve come to use have helped guide me to amazing opportunities and people. I can feel the brevity of my purpose propelling me into a completely different life than I had last year, that will be at least as equally unrecognizable at this time next year. Our purpose is bigger than us. Mine has pushed me so far out of my comfort zone, that my inner peace remains in situations that would have left me with a stomach ulcer last year. I know that the comfort of my ego and my human mind are not important in the grand scheme of things, but that as I continue to follow the guidance of my spirit that the universe will always have my back. I rest my mind with that inner knowing.

My journey has included a deep inner discovery of what makes me tick and what wounds still need healed. The work I have done for myself has not always been easy, but at one point, it did start to become much like a game. First, someone or something makes me aware of a belief I’m holding about myself or life. Next, I take responsibility for my creation of said belief. Lastly, I find a way to flip the script so that I do not continue to repeat the same thing over and over. An example would be the negative self talk I used to feed myself continually. I had some difficult things happening in my life several years ago and was feeling miserable. My suffering was the catalyst for me to start trying to understand why I felt so terrible. It led me to start examining my thoughts. At that point, I noticed that I wasn’t being very nice to myself. I began to instead feed myself positive affirmations while also observing and then stopping the negative self talk. When I realized how big of an impact this practice was having on my life, I then excitedly moved on to other areas that I could improve on.

I am here to show people what’s possible through following our joy into alignment. I’ve had an unwavering knowing that I am meant to help myself first, and then as many people as possible in this life as I can for a few years now. Opportunities to do so don’t always come from the avenues I would imagine. When I left my job in the hospital last year, I didn’t know about Holographic Kinetics, and I couldn’t have imagined that I’d be teaching kids about mindfulness. I’ve noticed that my spirit doesn’t care who I help or how they make their way into my life, so long as I do it. The really great thing about alignment is that my main purpose just requires that I move through the world as authentically as possible and do the things that come naturally to me. Talking with people for example. Do you have any idea how many times in my life I was made to feel like or people said outright that I talked “too much”? Let’s just say a LOT. Come to find out, that my openness through communication is my biggest asset in the work I am here to do! There are NO coincidences friends. We are all exactly the way we are meant to be! I have seen how it’s my natural abilities and passions that have guided me on my path. This is why it’s so critical trust everyone on the planet stay true to themselves.

Each of us has a purpose for being here and we’ve got to live in our full expression if we want to live that purpose completely. It’s a longer and more difficult path to remembering our purpose in this life if we get sidetracked with fitting in with the crowd for the majority of it. So today or this weekend, think about what makes you YOU. What makes you tick? What lights you up? What makes you feel most alive? That’s where you’ll find your purpose: in all of the parts of yourself that make you uniquely YOU.

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Aligned and on My Path!

I had the BEST day yesterday!! This picture is a throw back to when my friend Jerrett Johnson and I danced with the lovely Diana Hurtado in her home, but it really captures the joy I feel about my life right now!

I went to bed KNOWING that I am doing everything I am meant to be doing right now! It’s an incredible feeling to say the least! I made space for it all to manifest by following my joy and intuition and prioritizing my energy over the last year. I couldn’t have predicted ANY of the things that I am currently doing! It has all come to me as I’ve recognized the divinity of the timing for people and situations to be placed on my path and started saying YES to what shows up! I’ve given up knowing the HOW for the kind of life I want to live and the impact on the world that I’ve set the intention to make and I’ve surrendered to all that is. The last year plus of growth has given me the amazing gift of  emphatically trusting my journey! I have seen how things that are meant for me come onto my path, and things not meant for me leave without drama. 

My awareness and perspectives have expanded by leaps and bounds. I have been pushed out of my comfort zone so many times that it’s getting to be my norm. When I find myself getting comfortable, I get nudged to venture even farther out. It hasn’t always been comfortable. I have had times where it has felt very easy, and times when it has felt so difficult that I’ve spent the day crying. I’ve been forced to grow in big ways and to become the person who has the confidence and ability to do the things I’ve been guided to do. I’ve taken on projects that were not planned, and have grown close to people I’ve just met. I’ve gotten better at getting out of my own way, and am really good at listening to the now easier to hear whispers of my spirit. I now know that only good things come from following them. I am no longer interested in chasing or forcing things. I see how all that is meant for me flows naturally and is usually obvious to me now. I have the hindsight to see that projects that didn’t work out were all for a reason. I needed to meet people and get to a certain place in my own growth to be able to move forward. 

Yesterday I started working one on one with a 19 year old who is autistic, nonverbal and HIGHLY intelligent. He’s an amazing writer, but it takes a lot of effort for him to express what he wants to say. A speech that he wrote got selected to be read at his graduation earlier this year. When I read it, I knew I was supposed to help him write more. I am so excited to work with him and hopefully help him get the words out of his head and onto pages. To say that his perspective is unique and needed in this world is the understatement of the year. He has so much to express and I can’t wait to hear it all!

I also hosted the second class of my Teen Mindfulness Group last night. What an amazing group of kids I get to work with! I’ve known for a while that I am supposed to work with teens. I feel silly now that I was ever nervous about doing it, because I am absolutely LOVING it! I can share so much more about real life things with the teenagers than I can with the 8-12 year old kids that I teach. I am making a difference and that lights me up! I woke up today wanting to start mentoring teens 1:1. I am realizing that my journey has prepared me to give the support and encouragement and insight about life to these teenagers that I would have loved to have when I was their age. 

I love being the person that other people feel comfortable opening up to! I have had so many amazing conversations with people who are relieved that they finally have someone who they can talk to about all things spiritual that they don’t feel like they can talk to other people about! As I have opened up more, I have noticed how people then open up with me. Connection with other humans fills my heart like nothing else. I can’t ever get enough of it. I am on a path to free myself from the confines of the program and I am always happy to share what I have learned, so that I can help others do the same. 

People ask me “what do you do?” I say, “how much time do you have?” I do what my spirit guides me to do. Right now, that means that I teach mindfulness to children, teens, and adults, I connect with people deeply and let them know that they are not alone, I coach people to follow their dreams and to express themselves fully and creatively, I work 1:1 with a teenager who has a lot of things to say, but just needs some extra help saying them, I plan dance parties and get people to drop their masks and live their joy to their healing and alignment, I utilize the powerful healing modality of Dreamtime Healing using Holographic Kinetics to help people heal themselves at the spirit level so that they can shift into alignment and thrive in their lives, I paint and draw and sell my art. I have a LOT on the horizon too. We ALL always have a lot of new opportunities on the horizon if we allow for it. Open your eyes and heart. Pay attention to the subtle whispers of your spirit. Follow your joy and intuition. Pay attention to the signs and synchronicities. Be grateful for all that you have and all that you do, because in a year, your life may look completely different than it does right now. I am learning to savor the moment more. I have learned to find peace in the unknown. I am positively impacting this world. My life is a success, because I am doing what my spirit came here to do. Are you?

Listen to Dirty Heads’ song “Vacation” HERE

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