Confidence

I used to buy notebooks and journals all the time, and never write in them. Then, in about 2015, I started filling them and I haven’t stopped. The words just keep pouring out of me. During the times in my life when I lost my voice and gave my power away to other people and other things outside of myself, I withheld my creative expression. Now, it’s as if the floodgates have opened!

I remember times in my life when my energy overwhelmed the people I was closest to in my life. I remember times of having my words and actions questioned to the point of causing me to retreat deep inside of myself, because I felt “wrong” in every way I was trying to show up in the world. I remember the numerous times when people said I talked too much. You know, when you’re as sensitive as I am, you’re hearing people’s words and sensing what they’re thinking and feeling about you.

I am so happy that I have taken the time to get really confident in myself to the point of not caring if someone doesn’t like the way I’m showing up. I know that my energy attracts my tribe and I see how the people and situations in my life have shifted accordingly. I am happy that I have cultivated my communication over the years, because it’s extremely important for my purpose and the work I do. Communication is key to my favorite — connection. I’m so glad that through the course of my lifetime, I have taken classes, and have been in situations that required me to write a LOT. Again, all important for my purpose.

On May 31, 2018, after leaving my last shift as an RN in the hospital, I wrote: “I have chosen to follow my intuition, the synchronicities, and the urgings of my spirit and step onto a mostly invisible path. And I’ve never felt more at peace or more confident in my decisions as I do right now. I turn 39 tomorrow and fly around the world to a place I have dreamed of going since I was 18 — AUSTRALIA! It has taken me the better part of 39 years to get to this place. Today, I feel like I walked to the edge of a tall, spiring cliff, arms raised up like wings in the air, and jumped off into the great unknown with a confidence I didn’t have 3 years ago.”

Show up! Take risks! Live large!

I could have never seen the changes that would happen in my life from the ones I made back in 2018. My life looks nothing like I thought it would. I’m doing things for work now that didn’t even know existed back then! My personal sessions of Holographic Kinetics have only added to my confidence. One of the issues I cleared isn’t one I knew I had – feeling like there was something wrong with me. I had been carrying that around with me since my 20’s. It has been an experiment of sorts to clear issues like this one through Holographic Kinetics and then wait and see how it shifts my life. It’s hard to pinpoint the individual shifts and what issue’s release led to them, but I do know that I just feel so much more confident and comfortable in my own skin, and so much more trusting in my journey.

If you’re interested in having a Holographic Kinetics session with me, email me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com for more information. This week, I have openings on Thursday morning, Friday evening, and Saturday. I usually have availability on Tuesday and Thursday mornings and Saturday and Sunday. I schedule within the week we’re in. You can also visit http://www.holographickinetics.com for more information.

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Jammie

My current song obsession can be heard HERE. It’s Nahko and Medicine for the People’s “Aloha Ke Akua”. And the even more fitting song, “Confidence” by Matisyahu HERE.

When you open my chest on the autopsy table…

When you open my chest on the autopsy table you will find the silver lining around my scarred heart marking the illness I overcame.

You will find a turquoise sea of love that I experienced throughout my lifetime.

Lust for places I traveled to and fell in love with, and all of the places that were always on my list for a future time.

You will find images of my son tucked away — saving them like photographs in an old static-cling photo album we always had when I was a kid.

You will find the joy that filled my days after the needle that removed the serosanguineous fluid from around my heart gave me a second chance at life — true, fully alive life.

You will find parts of every person I have connected with, every moment in nature I’ve spent, and every adventure I have ever had.

Body decaying, spirit gone on to the next life to live and love again through another suit with its own bones and flesh and organs.

A chest open with remnants remaining with the spark of my spirit on to the next time and place.

When you open my chest on the autopsy table, you won’t find me.

I am boundless and ever-evolving.

I’ll be back among the stars.

Energy swirling around the cosmos connecting back in with the Source that I AM.

When my body died, my spirit lept out and became everything that it always was — INFINITE.

I wrote this in a spoken word workshop I participated in this past weekend. We all had to include the same 5 words (I accidentally left one of them out) with the same opening line. We wrote for 10 minutes. This is what came of it. I hadn’t really thought about what I had written until I stood in front of the group to read it. Reading it out loud moved me to tears. It made me realize how even with everything I’ve been through, life is so very beautiful.

When I do leave this body, I want the people who love me to internalize this message. Read this at a party on the beach around a bonfire while people drum, dance, and celebrate! Toss my cremated remains into the sea and move on with gratitude for any moments you shared with me. We are far more than the meat suits we’re currently wearing. Life would not be so sweet without death. We are all infinite spiritual beings having a human experience.

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Dear New College Graduates,

Picture from book “just love.” by Scott Stabile

“The light within each of us fears nothing, accepts everything, and sees the value of it all as a means for deeper growth and healing. Trust in your light. It will make sense of your darkness.” — by Scott Stabile “just love.”

I recently had a new college graduate reach out to me for some advice. At the end of the conversation, I realized that what I had shared could potentially help a lot of people. So, I’ve decided to post it here. Conversations like this one light me up and keep me going. It is my intention to simply direct people back to themselves, to their own inner knowing, and to alignment with their own spirits. Always trust in your light!

I realize the power of my perspective to help shift people into a new level of awareness. But, I am acutely aware that all knowledge and wisdom lies in the person themselves. As spiritual beings having a human experience, we each have the answers that we seek within us. We hold the keys to what is holding us back and the keys to our own healing. We hold the key to our next steps along our path. We just have to quiet our minds and really listen to the whispers of our own spirit. Life is about living as the main character in our own show without allowing the loud roar of voices from our families, society, and even our own egos distract us from following our own inner guidance system. You came here to be exactly YOU!

Just the fact that you’re here, on this planet is enough for you to deserve everything your heart desires, because only you hold your exact energetic frequency. You vibrate higher when you show up authentically and unapologetically YOURSELF while you follow your joy and live your life to the fullest, whatever that looks like for YOU! (not me or your parents or your teachers or society.) Just because things have been a certain way for a lot of years doesn’t mean anything other than humans may have gotten into a bit of a rut. We are in great need of some movers and shakers to help change it up. So, instead of worrying about how to manage your anxiety as you bend and fold yourself to fit into an existing box that you’re terrified of getting stuck in, align with your own spirit, and stay the hell away from any box or any person trying to fit you into one! (or at least don’t ask for or take advice from those people). Run and be free and forge your own path! It’s 2020, it’s time to get clear on the vision you want for your own life.

College Graduate: “Hi, I just saw your IG tv video on why the govt wants to control indigenous people and agree with you completely. However, this makes me look at my own life and I feel so trapped. I’m about to graduate college and have been putting off applying to jobs just because I don’t want to be a slave. I want to break free but it goes against everything and I feel so lost. I want to live freely and in alignment but my poverty mindset & trauma seems to stop me. Do you have any words of advice?“

Me: “Wow thanks for reaching out to me! I hear you. I see you. And I appreciate you.

If you’re feeling like you don’t want to apply to jobs right now, then my advice? Don’t apply to jobs. You JUST graduated. There’s no real hurry to jump into something you’re not going to feel passionate about. I just went to a powerful intention setting ceremony today and it was powerful.

Sit quietly with your eyes closed, clear your mind and ask: what is God’s (my own spirit is what I asked, universe etc) highest vision for my life in 2020?

For me a word came into mind almost instantly. See what comes up for you. And then listen to it and take a step towards it.

I am a practitioner of Holographic Kinetics, a powerful healing modality based on Dreamtime Healing of the aboriginal people of Australia and I personally highly recommend it for clearing a poverty mindset and childhood trauma. It’s been so powerful for me that I plan to go have a session as soon as I can to clear some more things. You can read more at www.holographickinetics.com and see if there is a practitioner near you.

Lastly, know that those of us who are older than you don’t have the answers. Only you have the answers you seek. Ignore the outside voices and inner voice telling you what you “should” do and listen and feel into what you think you’d be really excited to do! The world is changing. The way things have been done are not the way they are anymore. Follow your joy! Follow your passion! Follow your own intuition and take a leap and ENJOY THE RIDE! You’re only a new college graduate once! Live it up!”

College Graduate: “Thank you so much for your kind words! It means so much & appreciate you taking the time and everything you’ve posted!

Thank you for the link as well, I’ve seen some of your posts mentioning it but thought I was too far for all of these practices that I see on IG in general. I read through the list and someone is near me! I’m going to look more into it and reach out to (practitioner name) 🙂

And I agree the world is changing, I’ve heard how many of the more creative fields will actually come back in demand, which is really nice (since I was lead to believe my degree was pointless)

However, it’s sometimes hard for me to distinguish which voice is which, how do you know when it’s your intuition speaking? (& not ur ego/ socialization)”

Me: “I wouldn’t worry about what ‘they’ say about any field. It doesn’t really matter. You just need to find the thing you’re most passionate about at any given time and do that! Success is inner peace, not the outside rewards like you’ve been taught.

Your spirit speaks to you through your intuition. Choosing based on live instead of fear can help you tap into it. As can following your joy and doing what you feel called to do even when the outside is telling you differently. Your intuition won’t ‘should’ you and make you feel guilty for things. It won’t talk negatively to you or get you to compare yourself to others. Your spirit/intuition is much more quiet at first than your ego. But as you learn to quiet your mind (meditation is great!) and follow your intuition, it’ll get stronger and you’ll trust it more once you realize it always leads you to amazing people, opportunities, and situations. Learn to observe your thoughts and actions and question everything that you think, especially when it’s making you feel bad.

I don’t know if this is something you’d enjoy, but find a way to travel somewhere you’ve always wanted to go. Travel does so much for our self discovery. I assume you don’t have much responsibility yet, so now is the time to do the fun things. Jobs will be there when you get back and you’ll have a better sense of what you want to do. Have fun!!!”

College Graduate: “I was so worried about not wanting to play the game without direction, working for someone and all that, and was considering living in a hippie commune. I thought about what I actually like to do, writing & reading- I’ve always liked it, it’s a hobby of mine, it’s a “tool” I honed in college. I want to be a writer, and you’re right no one else could have told me that. I really had to purge all my stress to really see deep down. These answers lie within. Lies within our patterns, what we liked doing as kids, what we liked (but may have suppressed) now. I want to thank you again, your words sparked something in me after I really sat with them and my thoughts. This was all an abridged version of what I resolved but again, thank you. Much love ✨”

Me: “Oh this is so awesome to hear! I am so happy that you’ve found some answers for yourself. Your story and way of seeing the world is unique and you never know who can benefit from it. Write write write!!!! You are so welcome. Sending lots of love right back to you! Never lose your passion! Never stop following your own inner guidance! You are the only you and no one else can tell you how to live your best life. I hope you have a fantastic day!! ❤️”

Ripples people. Ripples! I’ll end this with a quote from the book “The Vortex” by Esther and Jerry Hicks:

“Most of the guidance, rules, and laws that are passed down from generation to generation are written by people who are not in the state of “allowing” their Connection with their Broader knowledge. In other words, the majority of the guidance that is thrust upon you has come from a perspective of lack, and it cannot lead you to an improved situation.”

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As I closed this post out, I had these lyrics for Digable Planets “Escapism (Gettin’ Free) (listen HERE!) pop into my head:

“Get free, get free y’all
Get free, get free y’all
Get free, get free y’all
Get free, get free y’all”

It’s time we all get FREE! How? Alignment with our own spirits!

Dance/Create Align Elevate Thrive!

2019 has been a year of DANCING and CREATING!

I learned the true value in maintaining an elevated energetic vibration and the alignment with my own spirit. For once in my life, I placed these things and my own well-being FIRST. I felt into everything I did, and got strong in following my intuition wholeheartedly. I now trust myself and my own guidance fully, and no longer feel like I need guidance from any outside source.

I met a lot of new members of my tribe. I danced more. I sang more. I hiked more. I connected more. I healed more. I taught more. I created art more. I manifested more. And not only did I do these things, but I did them in front of other people through public dance parties, classes, speaking, and even my first art show! This year has been a year of getting to know my power as a powerful creator. It has meant not playing small and staying hidden hoping that people won’t notice my differences. It’s been about not only accepting my differences, but really learning to love and appreciate them. I’ve been putting myself out there more by sharing my perspectives more openly.

There have been painful times in this year as I’ve peeled back more layers in my healing process. Working through identifying more with my spirit than my ego has required some deep, personal introspection. It required a lot of solitude. For once, I was fully ready and willing to look at my issues and face them without deflecting to other people or situations. I stood in my own shit and owned it all.

In 2019, I came out of my shell and stepped more into my light in a public way. With help from Holographic Kinetics, I gained a confidence in myself and my abilities that I had never before experienced. I plan to up my life game in big ways in 2020. I realize that I’ve been functioning at probably half my capacity. I feel like it’s time to blow the top off of any remaining perceived limitations I have about myself and life and go all in!

2020 is going to be BIG!

Happy New Year to all of the people here who have followed me on this incredible journey of self-discovery and self-transformation. I appreciate you! 2020 here we come!

If you only know my blog and want to see the dancing and art I created this year, check out my IG at peaceful.jellyfish or FB at /peacefuljellyfish. I’ve posted a lot of videos this year that you will enjoy of you enjoy my blog.

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I can’t help but think of Prince’s song “1999” on this last day of 2019! Enjoy!

Trauma

An event is traumatic, because it causes us to decide something about ourselves or about life that we then create from ever after. In the moment of a traumatic event, we lock in beliefs that life then continues to prove true, since what we believe we experience. The event can cause a lot of pain and suffering in the moment, but it’s our continual reliving of the beliefs we acquired through it that truly cause us to suffer over and over again.

It is my changed perspective about myself and life that continues to shape my experience, not the original traumatic event itself. We are powerful creators, so if something makes us decide at some point at conception or beyond that we are not worthy of love, then we will create situations and relationships over and over again to prove that belief. I had that cycle repeating in my own life. Luckily, through my personal sessions of Holographic Kinetics, I was able to clear that belief at the spirit level, so I no longer have to carry it around to have it surface time and again in this life and future lives. Phew!

So much of what we come to know about ourselves and the world is taught to us within a system that places more value on our physical reality than on the fact that we are all spiritual beings having a temporary human experience. Our multidimensionality and that of the universe tends to be completely overlooked. So, a lot of spiritual information then doesn’t tend to fit neatly into the confines of what we’ve been taught our whole lives. This leads to major disconnect and feelings of dis-ease. We begin bottling up the things we think or feel that don’t fit with what we’ve been told by our families, teachers, friends, and the organizations to which we belong (Wow, organizations we belong to, think on that for a minute. I personally don’t want to ‘belong’ to any organization). We sometimes label these things as “wrong”, or have the people we open up to do it for us. The reality is that usually the discourse we feel is because our own inner knowing doesn’t match up with what we’re being told/taught. I have learned to always trust the inner knowing above everything else. We have all of the answers we seek inside of us.

The reality is that the world we live in is nothing as it seems. We have been taught to place so much importance on the outer world and things out of our control that we’ve lost sight of the fact that WE are the ones that can free and heal ourselves. To take our power back means to stop giving it away to others. We’ve got to snap out of victim-mode ASAP. There is no one else to blame if we continue to relive our traumas and not do the work to get out of the cycle of similarity we’ve become trapped in by our own beliefs. I’m not saying it’s easy, but I am saying it’s necessary if we want to finally start listening to the nudges of our spirits and break free from old patterns and programming, so that we can get on with living our best lives.

I have done a lot of inner work. I keep being guided deeper and deeper to clear more and more from my past. We are so powerful that we can set intentions and tell our spirits what we want, and then notice that we will be guided to the people, situations, and resources to help us. How many of you set an intention to level up and/or clear out what was no longer serving you and have experienced people and situations clearing out of your life in record speeds this year? We asked for all of it. Right now, I am being urged to drive several hours away to the nearest practitioner to have another Holographic Kinetics session. As I’ve cleared issues on my own, and through HK, other issues have moved to the surface as the next important parts in need of healing. Remember, the growth and healing doesn’t stop until we die. But, in my own experience, it does stop feeling so severe, because I can more easily recognize what is happening. If you are being guided to a specific type of healing, I urge you to follow it. When I have done that, I have found another piece of the puzzle that helped me on my path back to my innate well-being.

Several years ago, I was sick of being depressed. I wasn’t actively depressed when I decided this, but I was suffering greatly. My thoughts about my situation were primarily negative and I felt stuck in a life that I didn’t feel I had chosen for myself. As I dug myself out of those beliefs, I began to see some light at the end of the tunnel. I realized that it wasn’t really my outer experience causing me to suffer, but my belief about it! This was huge! I remember getting very annoyed with a woman I worked with for a time when she’d say that things were the way they were supposed to be, because that’s what was happening. How easy is it to think that everything is happening for a reason when we’re enjoying life?! Not so much, it seems, when we’re unhappy with our lives. But, it’s important to realize that we can’t think that things are happening as they are meant to in some cases AND believe that we’re victims of circumstance in others. It doesn’t work that way. Because there is so much more to this life, we do not always consciously know what energy is being balanced out by a situation, or what lessons a person’s spirit is wanting them to learn. We’ve got to stay in our own lanes of being and focus on our own growth.

That being said, we are often stuck in time and repeating cycles of similarity. One way to work through this is to become aware of the dynamic happening and then ask ourselves what our role in it has been. When we take responsibility for our lives in this way, positive shifts happen because we take back our power. Standing in our own power and our own innate sense of knowing moves us towards alignment with our own spirit. An example in my own life is that it doesn’t serve my highest good to complain about a past relationship with a narcissist. Even labeling the person that way isn’t helpful for me, though it is helpful in reaching the people who need this message. What helps me is to see the role I played in that relationship. What led me to it? I fully recognize that I knowingly gave up my power at the start of it. I had been in a relationship where I made so many of the decisions and I was tired of it. I was excited to spend time with someone who liked to plan our time together. Suddenly, I wasn’t the one planning all of the hikes. It felt like a relief to not make the decisions for a while. But then that led into giving my power away about other things. Next thing I knew, I no longer felt in control of my own life. But it started with ME. Realizing that has allowed me to become aware of and see the parts of me that were drawn to that relationship. I’ve then been able to work towards a much deeper level of healing from that place of awareness.

As much as we like to think that we know where an issue originated, in my sessions of Holographic Kinetics, I have been shown time and again that often, we are not actually consciously aware of the cause. Many times, a trauma in childhood merely activates an issue that spirit has been carrying through from lifetimes ago. Or, from a trauma that a grandfather or great grandmother locked in at the spirit level and began passing down to future generations. As we are spiritual beings first, our issues don’t always originate in this lifetime. It is our minds that will try and connect an issue to an event that we can consciously remember in an attempt to make sense of it. Sometimes, trauma happens as a result of something our parents say or do when we are in the womb, or when we are little babies less than a year old. Just the same, we lock in beliefs about ourselves or life in those moments, and begin to unconsciously create our reality from them.

In the Holographic Kinetics sessions that I do, I have witnessed a person’s spirit take them back to a point just after conception (yes, in their Mother’s womb) many times as it finds the cause of the first activation or creation of an issue in this lifetime. How is that possible? How can we be aware of anything when we have barely been conceived? It is because we are spirits first and foremost. As the aboriginal people explain it, our spirit is what is with us through this life as well as through all of our past lives. Our spirit is aware of the cause of ALL of the issues that are holding us back in this life. Holographic Kinetics allows us to communicate with our spirit and help it change the past in the present for the future.

You see, our spirits do not wish to relive the same lesson and limiting pattern over and over again. No, our spirits yearn to be free, so that they can experience the full range of creation in this life. This is why we have all been feeling so called to clear our old issues and baggage that we’ve possibly been carrying around for many lifetimes. Our spirits are guiding us to the changes we need to make in order to break free from the self-imposed/accepted limitations we’ve allowed for far too long. We can heal ourselves by listening to our spirits/higher selves/intuition. Our spirit knows what we need in order to thrive in this life. When we listen to that inner guidance/knowing, we are naturally led into alignment with our own spirit which is the place from which everything we seek is possible.

I urge you to begin to follow your intuition about everything. How do you know it’s your intuition and not your old patterns speaking? The inspired ideas you get from your spirit will leave you feeling excited. The guidance will be to things that make you feel good. In fact following your joy and what feels good to you is another way to align with your spirit. As you follow the guidance from your spirit/intuition, your ability to do so will strengthen. Over time, it will become second nature and you will come to trust it more. I have a way of asking for guidance from my own spirit that gives me answers based on the feeling I get in my body.

We all have the power to heal our trauma, so that it stops causing us to repeat the same cycles over and over. The answers to that healing really lie within each of us. We are all drawn to what we need, when we need it. I was drawn to numerous healing modalities before being pulled in a big way to Holographic Kinetics. It was all important, because it all led me to an expanded awareness and deeper healing. It’s like each thing allowed for wellness, so I’d be ready for the next level of healing. My healing didn’t happen all at once, or through only one modality. It’s as if I was being groomed to be able to wrap my head around the healing at the spirit level. I experienced such profound healing of my past wounds through Holographic Kinetics, and I continue to be amazed (not surprised) by the ways that I see it help my clients or friends afar who go to practitioners near them. I have witnessed it shift a friend out of severe suicidal thoughts and back into their previous excitement about the year to come immediately following their first Holographic Kinetics session. I will be speaking about this at a Mental Health and Mindfulness focused Visalia Talks and Wine in January, so stay tuned.

Mindfulness isn’t just about being present in our moments and grateful for what we have, it’s about developing a conscious awareness of the beliefs we have that are holding us back. In Holographic Kinetics, when we find the cause of an issue, our spirit is able to change that dimension of time, so that we break free from the beliefs about ourselves that continue to re-traumatize us through time on all levels and all dimensions.

If you’d like more information about Holographic Kinetics, email me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com. Check out my testimonials page at the top of this blog for feedback from a few of my clients. I am also happy to speak on any of the topics I cover in this blog at events or organizations who are interested in learning more. Email me with inquiries.

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Free to be ME!

My beautiful, visible wings are courtesy of talented artist, Mikayla Gutierrez, on Ziaya’s store!

I feel more ME right now than I ever have in my entire life! Well, at least in the time that I can consciously remember. I’ve been slowly peeling back the layers I had plastered on to please people and keep others comfortable. I dropped the chameleon skin I picked up during childhood in exchange for my authenticity. I used my joy and my intuition to light the way in this unearthing of my true nature. I dug back to my childhood and remembered what had once brought me the most joy and had made me feel most alive. As I did these things and explored more, I picked up the pieces of myself that I had lost along my journey.

There’s a reason why human transformation is often likened to the changes that a caterpillar endures during the process of becoming a butterfly. My inner work and process to alignment with my spirit hasn’t always been pretty. There have been times of exhilaration as I’ve realized a pattern, changed it, and have experienced the positive outcome. But there have been times wrought with tears and fear when I just wanted to fast forward through the growth to more comfort.

Returning to our true selves pushes us out of the comfort zones that we’ve known and into deeper states of awareness, healing, and well-being. At its core, transformation is uncomfortable. We cannot choose both, comfort AND transformation, but in my experience, transformation is worth every ounce of my discomfort. From my place of understanding, the caterpillar does not have the conscious awareness to know that going into a dark cocoon does not mean death. In a lot of ways, does not the caterpillar die? We can argue that the caterpillar who entered the cocoon and the butterfly that exits it are two different things. But because one was a living being and the other is a living being, we deduce that no true death of the spirit occurred. Spirit just went from one outward display to another. In the same way, I have completely transformed, though to some, the outward effects may be less visible.

We empower ourselves through our authenticity and vulnerability in showing up fully as who we each came here to be. We have been fooled. It is not a positive to conform to the crowd. In fact, conformity weakens our spirit. When we are always worried about what other people think of us, or if they like us, we disconnect from our own spirits which eventually leads to dis-ease of our body, mind, and spirit.

Choosing to remain in situations purely because we are comfortable can be likened to a caterpillar choosing to not enter into the cocoon stage of development. Sure, it’s life will go on and it will enjoy a life of eating leaves, but it will be missing out on living it’s full, potential expression as a butterfly. Change can be scary, but routine and comfort zones do more to kill our spirits than any change ever will.

I’m living proof to trust your journey. Regardless of where you are on your path of growth, you will be guided to bigger and better things when you adjust your sails towards living your best life. The process can be dark and scary at times, but that’s just a cocoon phase and it doesn’t last forever. On the other side of the cocoon is a life full of more freedom, joy, and love than you have ever known! That new way of being won’t be because any outside circumstance has changed, but because YOU have changed. Your way of looking at things has changed. The little things become the big things and the gratitude for all of it overtakes you. Do your best to flow with your transformation. When you go as a river, you release suffering as you trust your journey. You have the same ability as me to come out on the other side with your very own set of wings! Trust.

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Highest Good

“I recognize that I have chosen fear, and I choose again. I choose love.”

“Instead of praying for an outcome, I pray for the highest good for all.”

I pulled these cards on Sunday morning when I asked for a message that I/the collective needed to hear.

I didn’t always realize I was making big decisions from a place of fear. But once it was brought to my attention, I could see fear behind nearly everything I had done. Choosing out of fear can look like moving away from home to go far away from family for college, because you were afraid that you’d never otherwise find a way out of the town you grew up in. It can look like hanging onto a relationship or allowing it to get more serious, because you’re afraid that you’ll otherwise lose the person completely. It can look like staying in a job that’s negatively affecting your health (mind, body, and/or spirit), because you’re afraid that no other work exists that would allow you to pay all of your bills. Are you making choices out of fear?

Awareness is KEY to all change. Until we know the part we’re playing in the life that we’re creating, we can’t change what we’re doing. From that new awareness, I decided to start making decisions from a place of love. So, when something comes up, I examine my decision to see if I’m choosing based on fear or love. If it’s fear, I recognize it and make a different choice that’s love-based.

I don’t pray. I don’t depend on things outside of myself anymore. Prior to Holographic Kinetics, I was praying to spirit guides and arc angels. Since my training, I’ve realized my power in alignment with my spirit. I ask only my own spirit for guidance. I do not wish to risk calling in anything in other dimensions that only wish to control me and to create the energy they need to survive. Yes that’s a thing. Holographic Kinetics can clear these types of interferences, but I’d rather stand in my own power by consciously not creating more issues I need to then have another HK Practitioner clear from my field. Knowing the Laws of LORE (Universal Laws vs human-made laws) helps me to live in a way in which I don’t give my power away to outside things and create energy that I’ll have to balance later in this life or in future lives. I’ve owned my role as the powerful creator of my life.

Knowing that the how and what of what I’ve asked for in the past has ended up even better than I imagined, I release expectations and my own limits by always asking for what is in my highest good and the highest good of others. If I ask my spirit for something, I like to follow it by “or something better”.

It’s not up to us to “fix” people. We each will balance the energy we create out in this lifetime or future lifetimes. And what you have to balance out is none of my business and not for me to know. But realize your power as a creator and part of infinite consciousness itself. Everything we experience in life was created by us at some point in time. As linear time as we know it is just a human construct, everything that is happening now has happened before and will happen in the future, as it is all really happening right NOW. It’s up to us to recognize if what we’re creating is making us happy or not. We’ve got to ask ourselves if we’re satisfied with our lives. Are we living our best lives? Are we following our dreams? Is there something we can do to shift things?

Realize that you have had the power all along to make your choices from a place of love. Following your joy is a start. Does an idea light you up and leave you sleepless at night with excitement? FOLLOW IT!!! Likewise, is something in your life causing your stomach to knot up with anxiety and a sense of discontent? If so, take one action to free yourself from that thing. It could mean reading a book about a topic you’re interested in or taking a class or getting trained in something you’ve been dreaming about. You don’t have to leap off a cliff so to speak to change your life, but you do need to become an empowered creator and take inspired action when you’re being nudged by your higher self.

I’ve experienced first-hand what happens when we stay in situations that we know aren’t serving our highest good. For me, I lost my health and almost died, and boy did that make me start listening to my higher self! Then when my job in the hospital began to negatively affect my health, I saw the warning signs before it got too bad and I quit. If we don’t listen to the whispers of our inner knowing/intuition/spirit and take action, the universe takes action for us.

When we cast a thought out into the world that we want to live our best life, follow our purpose, or be more fulfill in life etc, the universe answers the call. We can make decisions for ourselves to move us towards things that will serve our highest good, or we can wait and ponder and suffer, and then have things removed from our life for us.

I can’t tell you how many people I’ve talked to lately who have lost jobs, been forced to move out of their houses, have lost their health, or relationships! These are all ways that our spirits up level us in this life, though in the thick of it, it feels more like a destruction. In times like that, the easy way to be is to fall into victim mode by saying “why me?” Why not you? Have you been living your best life? Have you been putting your own well-being and peace and happiness first? Have you been listening to your intuition?

Sometimes humans live with the notion that life is meant to be easy. We wrongly judge our insides to other people’s outsides and think that they’re doing something better than us. That they’re not struggling as much as we are, and we can sink into feeling less than or like we’re doing life wrong. But we’re not. We’re just living lives as spirits having human experiences. We come to this life to learn lessons and balance our energy, and to experience as much as we can as powerful creators. If life was a cake walk, we would not learn as much. It’s not meant to be a cake walk, but it doesn’t have to be a miserable slog of suffering either.

It’s about shifting perspective and recognizing that if we’re creating our reality then we have the ability to create one that we love. Realize that we never have to just “suck it up” and endure life. We can shift so that we view life with a sense of curiosity rather than a sense of dread and apathy.

Life is what we make it and while our minds and egos are always filling in the blanks based on what we’ve experienced in the past, our spirits are infinite and can guide us from the patterns that we’ve been creating so far.

I have healed a lot on my own (yes even my physical health) by listening to my intuition and making changes to my life. For example, once I had made the decision to leave my marriage, my health shifted so much without changing anything else I was doing. My entire medication regimen was the same, what I was doing was the same. Even my husband was surprised by the changes happening to me before my eyes. This isn’t about him though, this is about me. I wasn’t a victim, I was choosing where to be. I was meant to learn from the experience and I did. All of that allowed me to be acutely aware of when it was happening again, when I had been staying in something that was no longer serving me and I needed to make a change. Each thing we go through has purpose and a cause. In my experience, absolutely nothing is by chance. It’s leading us, sometimes with breadcrumbs to what we need to know for a future time.

Trust your journey, and know that you and no one else has the ability to change your life. You change your life by changing your thoughts, words, actions, and deeds. What do you want to create? What’s stopping you?

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