Personal Responsibility

The BEST medicine is nature.

It is in no way shape or form surprising to me that the county where I live would have higher rates of covid-19 than some other places in California. It doesn’t take a genius to connect the dots and it certainly goes beyond masks or the fact that we had started opening up small businesses prior to this latest mandate. I worked as a nurse in the hospital here on just about every adult med surg floor and all of the maternal-child floors and the bottom line? The overall population in Tulare County is in terrible health! Even the “healthy” people in the hospital having babies often suffered from the same county-wide comorbidities of obesity, diabetes, and hypertension (high blood pressure), which sometimes greatly affected their birth experience, their postpartum health, and their new baby’s health. 

Never mind all of the people with cancer likely due to the large-scale agriculture operations here, that feed the entire country, which are known for pesticides that poison our food, air, and water. Never mind all of the people with COPD (chronic obstructive pulmonary disease – a condition affecting the lungs), because our air quality is some of the worst in the nation (even worse than the Ohio River Valley). The same dirty air that causes high rates of childhood asthma and leads pediatricians here to urge parents to move out of this area to get their child to cleaner air! Never mind the high rates of heart disease due to things such as obesity and hypertension. The general population here is sedentary and overweight. They eat unhealthy foods and drink non-nutritious sugary drinks day in and day out. 

Are we really surprised that the already sick people here are getting this virus? Are we really going to blame it on everything but people’s overall health prior to this pandemic? Are we really at a place where we’re going to blame it on people who take care of their body, mind, and spirit and are asymptomatic? 

No one wants to hear the truth in this or with any other illness, but people get covid and the seasonal flu generally when they are not taking good care of themselves. I had to wear a mask in the hospital for every flu season I worked there for the entirety of each shift, because of my previous health issues. The flu shot had given me a hyper immune response and caused me to become VERY ill while I was in nursing school and every doctor and specialist on my team after that told me to never get the flu shot again. So I listened. I wore the mask for my 12+ hour shifts starting November 1st and stretching sometimes to June of every year for the over 5 years I worked there. I watched as my vaccinated coworkers, one after another, would come down with the flu. We’d be short staffed in the winter, in part, because of the sick calls. I did not get the flu. 

Did you know that nurses are some of the unhealthiest people? Being a nurse is highly stressful without a pandemic and many consume lots of fast food, sugary, caffeinated drinks, and alcohol after work to get through it. What happens when a person eats and drinks garbage and doesn’t take time to take care of themselves physically, mentally and spiritually? Their immune systems become compromised and their bodies detox. They get sick. What happens when a population of people doesn’t take care of their health and then are also exposed to pesticides and other chemicals in their air, food and water and radiation from their electronics and the cell towers that now surround us, and then a virus like covid-19 comes along? They get it. Why? Because comorbidities put an already taxed system at an increased risk. Period. Running ourselves down to the ground IS a comorbidity. Who else often has weakened immune systems, because of a lifetime of this and exposure to things in the environment? The elderly. Who is most greatly affected by covid-19? The elderly. 

So we can talk about masks and social distancing or we can talk about health. Because it’s the health of our body, mind, and spirit that matters most. There is only one person responsible for the state of my health: ME. And I’m not going to shift that responsibility to anyone or anything else. I even own the emergent near heart failure that hit me out of nowhere which was caused by Lyme Disease and other tick-born infections, because I understand that when we ignore our own needs, when we repeatedly ignore our own heart and intuition, and when we work to please everyone but ourselves, we eventually get sick. There’s no way around it. We do not get to put ourselves last indefinitely, unscathed. It’s not possible. When we’re living that way, saving everyone but ourselves, putting everyone’s needs ahead of our own, we are out of alignment with our own spirit. The only way to get us back on track is to jolt us awake. We get sick and almost die, or we get into a car accident and almost die etc. We come out of the experience forced to finally put ourselves and our well-being FIRST.

I experienced this firsthand. After my emergency heart surgery, I physically felt the effects of stress in my life in the form of recurring chest pain. I no longer had the luxury of living a stressful life and ignoring it. I had to start subtracting things and people from my life that were causing me stress. My life depended on it. At that point, we are left with no choice.

Today, we have a choice. Everyone has a choice. Are you going to take ownership of your health or are you going to pass the blame to someone else? Are you going to come up with the solutions for yourself or are you going to look to others to save you via vaccines or medications? As a former patient and nurse, this is a topic I have much experience with and the vaccines and medications have never been the answer. We are born with healthy, resilient immune systems that are slowly weakened by the subpar nutrition we feed our body, mind, and spirit. We are weak in our misalignment with our own spirit. There are also multidimensional causes to our ailments sometimes created by a belief we locked in at the spirit level in a past life. In the same way, the genetic lines of our parents can also affect us. Our reality will always reflect back to us our beliefs about ourselves and life. No matter how you slice it, in the end, our well-being or lack there of, is always ultimately our own, personal responsibility. 

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Step Closer to Your Spirit

We are conditioned to live lives disconnected from our own spirits, which is why it is easier to fall into the mental trap of worrying about possible worst-case scenarios than it is to tap into our intuition and create a beautiful reality of our liking for our powerful thoughts to manifest. Our go-to is worry and fear, which is why so many people live in constant states of anxiety. Those emotions are further fed by outside sources and then even further compounded when they become the talking points for connection between people. After all, energy flows to where focus goes, and that which we focus on grows bigger. 

The program is so strong and has been woven into EVERY aspect of our lives that most people feel weird if life is going well for them, they’re not stressed, and/or they’re experiencing massive amounts of joy. I hear so many people talk about the fact that when things are good, they’re always waiting for “the other shoe to drop” ie for something to go wrong. Because life couldn’t possibly just be good for the sake of being good. People can’t possibly exist in a stress-free state when the world is on a lock down. 

Wrong. It is not only possible to stay aligned with our own spirits and therefore in a state of peace regardless of what’s going on in the outside world, but I have personally been experiencing it. The question becomes, how badly do you want peace over connection through misery? How badly do you want alignment over tuning into the mainstream narrative? How are you benefiting from your misalignment? Does it allow you to connect with people who are also misaligned? Do you receive attention when you go on about your stressors and worries to other people? Does it help you avoid fully assessing, receiving clear awareness of, and changing patterns of thought or behavior that aren’t serving you?

Choosing healing over our own comfort isn’t easy. To show up and own the fact that our insides are what are being projected back to us within our own physical reality can be a tough pill to swallow. You see, it’s never been about the other people or the outside situation, and it’s always been about our own beliefs about ourselves and life. I don’t know about you, but my spirit has been pushing me to evolve out of my old fear-based programming, and out of the patterns and cycles that were constantly repeating and holding me back. I didn’t come here to just live the last life over again, and since you’re here, I don’t think you did either. We’re here to push past our own limiting beliefs and have a fully lit up, sovereign experience as spirits having a human experience. We’re here to tap into our limitless nature as we step more fully into our own power as multidimensional, spiritual beings! 

Is it “easier” to keep repeating the same unhealthy thoughts and behaviors over and over again? Yes, sort of. I mean, you do then get to stay in your familiar, albeit sometimes miserable, comfort zone of old habits and old ways of being and thinking. But I’m telling you, there is a life that exists beyond the current bounds of your comfort zone that have to be experienced to be believed. And we’re all capable of living it. Our own inner peace and alignment has to become a priority. Peace has to become more important than comfort, more important than relationships no longer serving you, more important than the dis-ease that you’ve taken on as your identity, and more important than a pandemic. 

One big way to disconnect from our own spirit is to make decisions from a place of fear. When someone in a reading told me that I had been making a lot of decisions from a place of fear, I had a light bulb go off. I had NEVER thought about it like that before. But I could definitely look back and see how I had often chosen which option to pursue, because I was afraid of something. How have you been allowing fear to make your decisions? That awareness alone is what made it possible to see what I had been doing and begin to change it. When faced with decisions, I began to check in to see what option was from a place of fear and which option was from a place of love. I started choosing love. 

We step away from our spirits in many ways. One way is by doing things that we really don’t want to do, or holding ourselves back and not doing things we want to do. That inner knowing you get that something is meant for you is your spirit guiding you towards something in your highest good. Likewise, the pit you feel in your stomach that develops when someone asks you to something that you really don’t want to do is your spirit guiding you away from something not meant for you. It is up to each of us to learn what our spirit’s guidance feels like, so that we can follow it into our own alignment.

I know that times feel tough right now as much of the world is living in lock down, but I am here to remind you of your immense, innate power even in times like these. If you have the power of thought still intact, you have the ability to imagine and therefore create and align with a new reality of your choosing. We must not get lost in the current moment to the point that we limit ourselves for all that can be. We are meant to fully experience and live fully in this life, but if we’re constantly looking to others or to the current state of the outside world for our information of what’s possible, we will never jump off the hamster wheel long enough to begin thriving. Our beliefs are based on the past that we’ve experienced. When we hold strong beliefs about ourselves, the way the world is and the way the world works, we place severe limitations on ourselves and our ability to experience a reality that’s different from the one we’ve “always known.” 

So, I encourage you to start listening to the guidance of your own spirit that comes in the form of your joy, your passion, and your intuition. Start being who you came here to be by showing up fully as your own, unique version of a spirit having a human experience. Don’t shy away from expressing yourself and your truths in whatever form feels right for you. We always have a choice in this life with everything we do, even the thoughts that we’re having. Today, are you going to choose thoughts and actions that free you, cause you peace, and joy, and align you with your own spirit? Or are you going to fall back on your go-to emotions of fear and worry and lack that keep you trapped in an energetic prison where your spirit’s guidance falls on deaf ears? It doesn’t matter what is going on in the outside world, we always have a choice for how we’re choosing to show up and perceive it. A human in alignment with their own spirit is the most powerful force on the planet. Imagine what the world would be like if we all shifted our focus from the outside to our own alignment! The work we each do to connect with our own spirits is immensely powerful. We each experience our own, personally created reality, so it’s always in our best interest to do things to align with our spirit and to the best possible outcomes for our lives. 

My passion is helping connect others to the guidance of their own spirits. I do this through a powerful healing modality called Holographic Kinetics and also through 1:1 mentoring. You can reach out to me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com if you’re interested in working with me. I plan to lead retreats in the future, so don’t hesitate to reach out to me if that’s something you’d be interested in. 

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Sending you all so much love!

Jammie 

Return to Myself

I’m ready to heal the stories and stop pretending reality away

I’m not waiting for other people anymore to go on adventures with me upon this expansive earth

Out of my comfort zone, I find you

I see you there, through the lush, crisp trees, and my jovial spirit begins to awaken

We empathize with one another as humans who have experienced health crises

We are there, next to the rushing river, pushing past physical disability 

Testing our bodies to see how far they can travel, how much they can carry

Testing my heart, I felt so much release learning to love you without expectation 

My life has come full circle, and I come down to earth to live again, wild and free

Feeling my skin so cold and alive, my heart feels like it might explode with joy

I’ve stopped taking life for granted and I bask in the moments of hot soaks, cold dips, and a starry dome overhead as we sleep outside

As I feel my wet, cold face against yours warm and dry, I find myself and choose to live with love

Bit by bit, I remove the compartments I created as an attempt to control the chaos around me

I am supposed to write, so I release my words from the dam I had built and I feel a rush back to my authentic self 

I find myself naked with my heart wide open, ready to be the light that I came here to be

More consciously aware in this life than ever before, I realized the beauty as it happened

The exhilarating plunges into cold water collided me with my own spirit

After a tiresome vertical swim up from the depths of the outside world, I return to myself

My face breaks through the surface of the water in a splash and I inhale deeply as if I’m breathing air for the first time

My life will never be the same.

About this poem: I wrote the majority of this poem on multiple paper strips years ago as part of an online writing workshop I took part in. This past winter, I found the strips, and added to them to create this poem. It represents the critically important time in my life when I literally returned to myself by following my joy. It was the year I realized that my health was back and that I could again hike as far as I wanted to without worry of my pericarditis coming back. I’ve cried with gratitude on many hikes, in complete awe that I was given a second chance to fully enjoy nature and this life again.

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Jammie

“Proof”

The war has very little to do with the virus. The virus is the method, not the point. We’ve long been driven towards a police state with wars waged and tragedies staged to get us to fight each other and accept stricter laws and increased surveillance into our personal lives. The viral pandemic was leading the way to a great depopulation of humanity followed by mandatory vaccines with microchips (ID2020) for all the survivors. After much research, that pattern is obvious. Vaccines (all or many) surely tainted with the very virus that they would be said to guard us from. I don’t believe we’re heading that way anymore. I believe that there’s been a shift. A gigantic shift. But it’s still in process. 

The only true “proof” that exists in the world is what resonates with us at our core, our spirit/higher self. It’s what I’ve come to know from my own alignment with my spirit. We’ve got to be able to discern how various thoughts we have/things we hear make us feel. Our feelings are the gateways to our internal guidance system, which is one way that our spirit communicates with us.

I most definitely feel that this is all moving in a positive direction to my core. I don’t need more proof than that. So I release the exact outcome knowing that time will tell and no amount of fear about it will help my current experience or that of the collective. Everything is energy and I choose to keep my energy elevated for all of us.

Those of us who are very sensitive grew up thinking that our sensitivity and psychic abilities were a curse, because we could feel everyone else’s pain, including the planet’s. But, we were mistaken and misled. Our intuitive abilities and sensitivity are what give us great power. It is my opinion that we are meant to fine tune our abilities, to fine tune our own inner guidance system that is led by our own spirit. In fully stepping into and owning our innate gifts, we become the fully free and sovereign beings that we came here to be! 

It is time to stop relying on things outside of ourselves for our “proof” and answers about what we are here to do and what will help us most on our journeys. We hold all the answers that we seek. We simply forgot.

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Jammie

Goodbye Old, Hello New!

I’ve been purging. I finally threw out all of my cards and letters from people that I had collected over the last 2 decades of my life. I’m a very sentimental person and I hang onto things that have been meaningful to me. I have been one to write a LOT of letters in my life. A LOT. But I keep being left with the same thought. If having so many things stored in my closet is bothering me, is holding onto these keepsakes to look at once a year (MAX) really serving my highest good? For me, that answer is no. When I picture my closet nearly bare, I feel more free and happy.

I spent part of my time today, OK maybe a large part, reading through some of my most valued cards and letters before saying goodbye. I came across words in a letter, from one of my best friends back in 2006, that made a huge impact on my life. I was struggling really badly with severe depression at the time and this friend was one of the very few people I had opened up to about it. It turns out that they had experienced depression in their own life and their words in this letter really soothed my then broken heart at the time.

Referring to lyrics from an Iron and Wine song, they write, “in song #6, he writes, “so may the sunrise bring hope where it once was forgotten, sons are like birds flying upwards I’ve the mountain,” that hit home.

The sunrise gives us all a new day and hope for a different experience than the day before when we’re really down in the trenches of depression. The fact that my friend responded with compassion when I told him I was depressed made all the difference to me. In fact, I credit him with being one of the people who saved my life in this lifetime. It feels sad to get rid of this important part of my history, but it’s really just a relic reminding me of things I’ve already assimilated. My memories of it live on. Every moment, every letter, every person, every place, every job is etched into the fabric of the life I have led this time around. Things can remind us of the good times, but the moments are ours whether or not we keep the things we associate with them.

The letters. I moved out of state for college, I then attended 3 different schools for my undergrad, and I traveled the country and lived away from loved ones, often in remotely wild and beautiful places. Sometimes snail mail was the only way I could consistently communicate with my friends and family. I had kept every letter I had received from people when I spent a summer in the backcountry of Alaska nearly 19 years ago now! I had all cards and letters including ones from the Mom of one of my best high school friends who died in our early twenties, I had letters from a friend’s Mom whom I adored who also died, I had letters from my high school sweetheart, cards and letters from my family, and best friends. At one point many years ago, I had just thrown all the letters in a container together and thought of them more as one item. I always thought about it as I’d get rid of or keep all of them. Every year, I open the box, read a few, and decide to close it and keep it all. Not this year.

My bedroom closet is pretty big. It stores my clothes, my camping gear, my sewing machine (I never use), photos/albums, Christmas decorations and a few small things from other holidays, a filing cabinet with loads of papers sorted, and a few containers of my son’s schoolwork starting with preschool, his awards, and a tote of photo albums and pictures. My spirit has been nagging me for the last few years to throw out everything except for my clothes, furniture and things I use regularly. Now I see why.

I really dug into this purge with a purpose to eliminate most of what’s in my closet. Wow. I was holding onto to so many things from my past. Like today, I found a binder in the filing cabinet with ALL of my dog’s paperwork. The adoption papers from the shelter where I got him, his paper collar that listed his supposed breed and age, vet bills. Wow. My Gus dog died in January of 2016! I didn’t even realize that I had kept all of that. I discovered all sorts of things of that nature, whole folders filled with things I no longer need from anywhere from about 10-20 years ago!!!

Here I have been consciously working to usher new energies into my life, without realizing how much I was clinging to the old. Energetically, our space only has room for so much energy, so when we cling to old energies and ones no longer serving us, we unwittingly prevent new energies from coming in. So this week, I have been releasing the old thoroughly. I am ready for all the new that this Universe has waiting for me!

Here it is, nighttime again and I STILL have things strewn about my bed and room. I have made so much progress today. I feel accomplished and lighter. I’ve dropped pounds of literal weight and who knows how much energy that was tied to it. I have more to do, but I feel more ready than ever for my next chapter.

My son opted to get rid of things that were no longer serving him last week too. He really lightened his load. His determination to clear the old was inspirational. And I was proud of myself for not going through the things he was parting with to see if there was anything I could hand down to my nieces (or keep.) I didn’t even look through the books he had outgrown and decided to donate! Now that’s growth! And genuine desire to release the old to make way for the new.

Clearing all of that old energy is palpable. You may have never thought about it that way before: that getting rid of stuff changes the energy of a space, but it does. Think of a time when you’ve purged a bunch of stuff from a room in your house or even from a dresser or cabinet. Did you keep going back to look at the cleared space? It’s because you could feel the shift in energy. It’s more light and free. Sure, we love to see organized space where there was once chaos, but I believe it’s the way the new space FEELS that keeps us wanting more of it. We are, after all, energetic beings surrounded by energy. The nuances affect us whether or not we are consciously aware.

Have you been feeling the same need to purge your belongings lately? How are you doing? How do you feel?

You can listen to Iron and Wine’s song “Upward Over the Mountain” HERE.

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Animal Messenger: Peacock

FD2FB651-AAE1-446D-A040-F574255795A5You ever have something keep showing up for you repeatedly, yet completely miss it?

Yeah, that’s been my relationship with peacocks. I realized recently that peacock might have a message for me. I laughed as I thought of the peacock earrings I’ve been wearing daily for probably a year or more, the peacock Halloween costume I have worn several times over the last 7 years. The long skirt I had gotten even before that costume that looked like peacock feathers. Among many other times I reflected that peacock has made an appearance in my life! And as I was laughing with one of my best friends about it recently, I looked up and saw this tiny Polaroid of a peacock I’ve had on my mantel since my friend, Avi, gave it to me last year! Not only that, but they just. keep. appearing.

It’s funny because I was once told that one of my spirit guides is Quan Yin. I have been seeing that name pop up a lot lately and now I see that the peacock has been associated with her.

I have been guided, over the last several years especially, to lead with my heart and show up fully without regards to what people will think of me. I know that when we give ourselves permission to step fully into our power as bright explosions of ourselves, we give others the permission to do the same. Authenticity is a KEY to getting into alignment with our own spirit, and alignment is KEY to experiencing all the magic that life has to offer!

Peacocks don’t give a shit. They’re confident in themselves regardless of what’s going on around them. They are fearless in their expression. They don’t hide their true colors, they flaunt them. And they definitely don’t hold back their truth for fear of what others will think of them. Not everyone is going to like their bright feathers, and they’re OK with that. They don’t need anyone else to like or understand them, because they like and understand themselves and they’re just doing them. I have been learning to do the same. The peacock moves through the world just doing what peacocks do. They don’t doubt, they don’t question, they don’t hold back. Peacocks trust. They know they’re going to find their path/mate/tribe as long as they keep showing up just as they are. They know that the things/other peacocks meant for them will be drawn to them like a magnet. It’s what they experience over and over again. Show their full beauty and attract all that they desire. Wow, such wise beings, right?!

I have never been as confident in myself as I am right now. I was building it and gained so much confidence following my training in Holographic Kinetics. It was a noticeable shift right away. It feels electric and grounding simultaneously. I feel myself stepping more into my power all the time. Learning to fully recognize and embody the energy of my spirit while setting healthy energetic boundaries for myself. Working with and feeling my shift internally, cocooning to integrate the lessons and allow myself to adjust myself to the new levels of energy, and then seeing the shift in my outer world. My word for 2020 is empowered. I can see that peacock has been sharing its flamboyant energy with me to help propel me into my full empowerment. Thank you, peacock.

I am very synced with animals and find that I’ve had so many beautiful animal messengers land on my path throughout my lifetime. The animals shift as I move along my path. They always carry the message I need at the time. Jellyfish is my spirit animal, but I am so grateful for all of  animals who have touched my life.

What animal(s) hold messages for you? Do you know what your spirit animal is? Is there a repeating animal showing up for you right now?

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Jammie

Shed the Mask

After all of the years that have run their course since Shel Silverstein wrote this, isn’t it still so powerful? To me, it represents how we often move through the world hidden behind masks of conformity, unable to connect to the people who radiate the energy and qualities we most seek through connection. How do we get to a place of showing up most authentically in our lives? What allows us to finally drop the masks we’ve been holding up, so that we can find our tribe, our partner, and OURSELVES?

We are born beautiful bundles of light wrapped in adorable little suits complete with the biggest eyes and tiniest toes. Open, present, and connected to the Source that we are. I’ve seen many babies born and have had the pleasure in caring for them immediately after birth. Have you ever felt the energy of a new baby? Their energy shifts the entire room. People laugh, cry, shake, clap, hug, scream, beam, and delight simply because of the presence of a newborn baby. Yes, of course part of that is because of the excitement the family has for this little one, but as everything is energy, there’s so much more to it than than the purely human/physical experience of it. In witnessing birth, we are literally witnessing a portal open up from the spiritual to the physical as a mother ushers new life into the world. How truly amazing is this life? Women are the connection between the spiritual and physical planes.

Because of the work I do in Holographic Kinetics, I have come to know that the spark of a new spirit enters its earthly form at the time of conception inside the mother’s womb. From that moment on, as holograms of our mothers, we become observers to her entire experience. Our mother’s thoughts, feelings, and experiences feel like our own as we are so intimately connected. Even at that stage of our development, we can take on beliefs and thoughts about ourselves and life that will continue to shape our realities throughout this lifetime and sometimes beyond.

Little children do not conform. They want to wear rain boots when it’s dry, sunny and 110 degrees out, they want to wear mismatched, colorful clothes, they want to sing and dance wherever they find themselves. But then, they get sent to school and around 4th grade/9 years old, they notice that other people are paying attention to them and what they’re doing, saying, and what they’re wearing. They’re noticing the same about others. And their whole world shifts. Rather than being completely free, they become easily embarrassed. They move away from their free-spirited nature, and towards what everyone else seems to expect from them. At this point, they might put on a mask to conceal their true nature. And their light dims.

As teenagers, the judgements grow as do the comparisons to each other. With social media booming, people are exposed to, and are therefore able to compare themselves to more people than ever before in humankind history. But it’s a false comparison when we pit our insides against anyone’s outsides, especially the outsides that are neatly displayed on social media. Nevertheless, all of the comparison quickly steals joy. Teens can start feeling lonely and isolated during this time, because many are not connected real person to real person, but rather masked person to masked person. They question how anyone can love them, since they know, even if only deep down, that no one REALLY knows them. And their light dims even more.

For those people blessed enough to make it out of their teens and into adulthood, they often find themselves checking off the “requirements” of adulthood as deemed appropriate by society, their parents, and their peers. College, job to pay for college, material possessions, a house large enough to store the material possessions, marriage to another masked individual with much to be revealed once the papers are signed, the debts are incurred. Passion takes a backseat to responsibility. Feeling further separated from their own inner guidance system, their own spirit and truth, their light dims more.

Clearly, I’m speaking generally. Not everyone masked themselves as children. Not everyone felt the need to conform to the rules. But the reality is that many have felt those pressures and can relate to what I am writing.

So then, how do we break free from that life-long programming that has us worrying so much about what other people think of us and what we “should” be doing that we allow our own light to be dimmed? I think for many of us, we hit a breaking point. A time when our mind, body, and/or spirit simply can’t take it anymore. The exhaustion and stress of holding up the weight of everyone else’s expectations, and misaligned expectations that we have placed on ourselves opens us up to dis-ease, breakdown, crisis, and/or collapse. Mine was dis-ease that turned into Lyme disease that attacked my heart. After years of not following my own heart and inner guidance, my physical heart nearly stopped beating. Did I recognize this beautiful metaphor as I was living through it? Absolutely not. Did I need to recognize it for the medical emergency I experienced to lead me down a road to completely shift myself and my life? No! Believe me, I was backed into a very tight corner eventually and the state of my health FORCED me to change my life.

But, I want you, the reader, to know that you don’t have to wait until body/mind/spirit pushes back and your heart nearly fails or you get into a serious car accident to change how you’re moving through the world. You can choose to listen to and follow your own spirit’s guidance now. You can make a conscious decision today to take steps towards a new reality. A reality with less rigid rules to follow, more joy, more freedom of expression, and most importantly, more alignment with your own spirit.

5 Important Reasons to Stop Fitting In:

1. Conformity squashes our spirit. You were born to be YOU!! Not your sister, brother, Mother, Father, or friend. When we’re constantly trying to fit in, we will constantly feel tired and rejected. We are, after all, rejecting ourselves by behaving this way. We have to start accepting ourselves fully and internalizing the fact that we were born to SHINE, not fit it!

2. Your vibe attracts your tribe. So if you’re showing up inauthentically in your life, you’re going to have a sense of not belonging to the groups you find yourself socializing in. Your connections will feel very surface level, because you, yourself, are staying surface level with what you reveal about yourself to others. It’s only when we expose our own depth that others will reflect that back to us and we’ll find ourselves having more meaningful connections and conversations. You can’t find your people while wearing a mask. How will they find you if you just look and act like everyone else??!

3. Authenticity is one of the most important ways to align with our own spirits and reach new levels of freedom. If we want to feel fulfilled. If you want a life of freedom, joy, and love, the best way I’ve found is to connect in with our own inner guidance system/our spirit and live from that place. If everyone showed up authentically in this world, I truly believe that there would be no gap in finding the solution to every problem. Our energetic vibrations are unique and fill a very specific need on our planet. Alignment with my spirit has led me to amazing people and opportunities. Alignment can look and feel like magic.

4. Our purpose in life is who we are, NOT what we do. As we move through the world as uniquely ourselves, we help create positive change. When we prioritize our own alignment and live with passion, freedom, and joy, our experience and elevated energy ripples out and positively affects the collective. In alignment, I’ve found that I still feel called to help people, but the difference is that I now realize that I don’t have to DO anything specific to make that so. In alignment, the things we say in conversation give people just the right insights at the right time, and we can be the catalyst for downloads of remembrance for people.

5. Following our joy and passions is a requirement, not a luxury if we want to lead more fulfilling lives. When people follow what they think they “should” do for money, fame, or to please their own parents, they often ignore their own inner guidance system (intuition/spirit) and end up feeling depleted. If you want to feel better, you’ve got to start doing more things that light you up! What made you feel most alive when you were a kid? What passions have you forgotten that you had? What part of you have you been neglecting? Our passions are a direct link to our spirit. Follow them into alignment and you’ll be rewarded with increased synchronicities that guide you towards people, situations, and opportunities that are for your highest good.

I am so grateful for the shifts that are happening on this planet. So many have come here to question and push against the status quo. There are so many beautiful spirits here who are living their truth and making it a priority to remain aligned with their own spirit. When we show up authentically, we give permission for others to do the same. When asked what love means to me recently, I answered something like: love means holding space so that a person feels comfortable being their authentic self. It’s what came out when prompted with little time to think about it. But seriously, if all we do in this life is love people into their own best version, we will have done a LOT to shift the state of this planet. Think about it: we give the people in our lives unconditional love which to me means holding space for their authenticity…authenticity is key to alignment with our own spirits…and alignment with our own spirits is what leads us to living our best lives full of more freedom, joy, love, and fulfillment!

I hope this post inspires you to take a step towards connecting with your own spirit, while disconnecting from the conformist program. I don’t know about you, but I never wanted to live a shallow life. I’ve always craved more juicy depth and meaning in my connections. We get to decide how we show up, therefore we get to decide what reality we experience. Show up as your true, raw, authentic, and vulnerable self, and you will attract everything you seek like a magnet.

“Driftin’” by Matisyahu

“Expansive soul with my wings in the air
Try to fit a circle in the square
All this talk about my look, who cares
Shallow minds just got to surface”

Listen to “Driftin’” HERE.

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Confidence

I used to buy notebooks and journals all the time, and never write in them. Then, in about 2015, I started filling them and I haven’t stopped. The words just keep pouring out of me. During the times in my life when I lost my voice and gave my power away to other people and other things outside of myself, I withheld my creative expression. Now, it’s as if the floodgates have opened!

I remember times in my life when my energy overwhelmed the people I was closest to in my life. I remember times of having my words and actions questioned to the point of causing me to retreat deep inside of myself, because I felt “wrong” in every way I was trying to show up in the world. I remember the numerous times when people said I talked too much. You know, when you’re as sensitive as I am, you’re hearing people’s words and sensing what they’re thinking and feeling about you.

I am so happy that I have taken the time to get really confident in myself to the point of not caring if someone doesn’t like the way I’m showing up. I know that my energy attracts my tribe and I see how the people and situations in my life have shifted accordingly. I am happy that I have cultivated my communication over the years, because it’s extremely important for my purpose and the work I do. Communication is key to my favorite — connection. I’m so glad that through the course of my lifetime, I have taken classes, and have been in situations that required me to write a LOT. Again, all important for my purpose.

On May 31, 2018, after leaving my last shift as an RN in the hospital, I wrote: “I have chosen to follow my intuition, the synchronicities, and the urgings of my spirit and step onto a mostly invisible path. And I’ve never felt more at peace or more confident in my decisions as I do right now. I turn 39 tomorrow and fly around the world to a place I have dreamed of going since I was 18 — AUSTRALIA! It has taken me the better part of 39 years to get to this place. Today, I feel like I walked to the edge of a tall, spiring cliff, arms raised up like wings in the air, and jumped off into the great unknown with a confidence I didn’t have 3 years ago.”

Show up! Take risks! Live large!

I could have never seen the changes that would happen in my life from the ones I made back in 2018. My life looks nothing like I thought it would. I’m doing things for work now that didn’t even know existed back then! My personal sessions of Holographic Kinetics have only added to my confidence. One of the issues I cleared isn’t one I knew I had – feeling like there was something wrong with me. I had been carrying that around with me since my 20’s. It has been an experiment of sorts to clear issues like this one through Holographic Kinetics and then wait and see how it shifts my life. It’s hard to pinpoint the individual shifts and what issue’s release led to them, but I do know that I just feel so much more confident and comfortable in my own skin, and so much more trusting in my journey.

If you’re interested in having a Holographic Kinetics session with me, email me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com for more information. This week, I have openings on Thursday morning, Friday evening, and Saturday. I usually have availability on Tuesday and Thursday mornings and Saturday and Sunday. I schedule within the week we’re in. You can also visit http://www.holographickinetics.com for more information.

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Jammie

My current song obsession can be heard HERE. It’s Nahko and Medicine for the People’s “Aloha Ke Akua”. And the even more fitting song, “Confidence” by Matisyahu HERE.

There is So Much More To Dancing!

Dancing has never just been about dancing. The indigenous people around the globe know it. The church has known it (which is why some have tried to stop it from happening in the past). There is a true freedom that arises when we dance. A pure joy that emanates from the spiritual beings that we are. A swirling and igniting of energies that ripple out from our own field and connect with the earth, the spirits of everything in nature, and each other. Expressing ourselves fully through free-form movement and dance can change the world!

I have found that being authentic, following my joy, and following my intuition (guidance from my own spirit) has led to my alignment with my own spirit. Alignment is the KEY to everything we seek! Well-being of body, mind, and spirit, inner peace and a sense of fulfillment, happiness, love, freedom, and abundance. Our alignment holds the answers for all of the questions we seek answers to in regards to the meaning of our life and our purpose this go around.

When we dance, we tap into our true nature. We can set intentions when we dance to create and send love out into the universe. By doing so, we extend even more positive energy out into the world from living our joy and dancing!

Dance more! Shine your light! Your energy ripples out into the world and affects everyone and everything. Be mindful of the kinds of ripples you’re creating. Follow your joy! Allow yourself to thrive! DANCE ALIGN ELEVATE THRIVE!

I’m on a cloud today after speaking at Visalia Talks & Wine last night about “Healing Depression with Mindfulness and Holographic Kinetics”. I shared some deep parts of my personal experiences with depression and suicide. Stay tuned, because I’ll be posting the video of it when it’s ready! I know it was the first of many such opportunities and I’m so excited!! Thank you to @kelseylowshow for creating the event and being so dang amazing and for everyone who took the time to come to the event and connect with me afterwards! I am so grateful!

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Observe Not Absorb

Picture from: Quantum World: Awaken Your Mind (FB/IG)

I saw this post come up in my FB feed recently and out of curiosity, I began to read the comments, which I don’t often do. Most people were saying that observing rather than absorbing the energy around them was an impossibility as empaths and “healers”. My intention was to shed some light on the subject to help give people a sense of their power for creating their reality. Humans are quick to label and be fit into boxes with self-limitations. Realizing I fit the description of an “empath” was only the beginning of the truth for me on that subject, not the end. It helped some things about me make more sense, but it hasn’t ultimately defined me. I have learned that I had to grow from that place, vs stay stagnant in the definition of empath. The truth is that we are infinite consciousness in human form and therefore powerful creators of our realities! I decided that it may be helpful to include what I wrote in the comments here, so that the messages can reach more people. I had several people write and ask questions or comment and this is missing their portions, but it is my hope that you’ll still be able to take something useful away from it nonetheless. This information can be helpful for everyone, not just those who identify as being empathic.

“I think people are missing the point. Empaths pick up on energy, but we definitely don’t have to be absorbing it. That’s part of being an empath is learning self-care and boundary setting and realizing our power to NOT be swayed by the energy of the things and people around us by simply stating Observe not absorb. We are all energetic beings who are affected by energy around us. Stating this helps us be an observer of games we walk into without falling into it. This is also an extremely important phrase to say that prevents us from taking on things from other dimensions that wish to control us. I say it to myself before I watch movies and listen to the radio, before going to a bar to dance, before going to public events, or places with group meditations going on. We are living by universal laws, NOT human laws, and this is a phrase that stands to help us all immensely.”

Responding to someone who equated being an empath to HAVING to absorb energy:

“Yes I’m included in that group (empaths), and I have had to learn my own power to find ways to not absorb. It’s not that we have to absorb just because we’re sensitive to energy and absorb naturally. Setting intentions to not absorb and learning how to differentiate our energy from the energy outside of ourselves is key. It’s been a journey to get to where I’m at with it and part of it is knowing I don’t have to absorb if I don’t want to. We think it’s so difficult, but saying ‘observe not absorb as an intention to our own spirit really is powerful. When we make requests to our own spirit, it will rearrange the universe to make things happen. We’ve lost sight of this because people think they need prayers to a god or angels to make things happen. We do not. In fact, that only opens us up to things in other dimensions. Do I transmute energy by being me? Yes. Do I shift energy around me by being in alignment? Yes. Can I get knocked out of balance by another person’s energy? Yes. Does energy of the collective affect me? Yes. But I’m aware now and can recognize it and I know effective ways to not take on energy/interdimensional interferences around me. Empaths need to learn their power. Many have gotten stuck at the discovery that they are extra sensitive and have wrongly, seemingly, assumed the role of a victim because many of us have gone through relationships with narcissists. Our empathy is actually our superpower and can be used in amazing ways when we learn how.”

Responding to someone experiencing a lot of “negative” energy currently:

“There’s a lot coming through for all of us right now as part of the collective to show us things we need to heal at a deeper level. For example lots of childhood wounds have been coming up for me and friends of mine because our spirits are ready for us to heal these things once and for all. Just recognizing the energy and feeling the emotions it brings or saying that you release what isn’t yours helps. When we recognize energy as not being ours, we can ask to not absorb it or to allow it to move through if it needs to and then be released. We never have to cling to energy and try and figure it out with our minds. Sometimes just cultivating that awareness that you are is enough to not have it affect you as much. Feeling negative energy isn’t a problem. It’s when we internalize it that it gives us problems.”

Responding to someone who spoke of light forces and dark forces and the belief that we’re not doing any of this alone (referring to spirit guides etc):

“I have come to realize that all I need is alignment with my own spirit. I do not wish to call on anything from outside of myself because of what I have learned on my journey. I have no doubt that we also have benevolent beings assisting us, but I have come to realize my own power in my alignment that I do not need outside help anymore. I know what you’re saying. Our beliefs sound similar and a bit different which is welcome by me and OK. This is how we expand our consciousness. If you want to know some of what I have learned, feel free to check out the powerful healing modality I’m trained in called Holographic Kinetics based on Dreamtime Healing of the aboriginal people of Australia at www.holographickinetics.com. Many of my views shifted after this training and what I’ve witnessed in my own sessions and my clients’ sessions. I will never pray to gods or guides or angels again, just as I will never practice reiki or any healing where I get the energy from anywhere but my own spirit. When we learn universal laws at work and how interdimensional interferences can get in to control us, we get VERY selective and intentional about everything in our lives. Just as things like religion have tricked us into being controlled, so has the “new age” movement in many ways. People are so quick to still think they need help from outside of themselves when I’ve had the same results with sending only healing energy from my own spirit, and the same results asking my own spirit for guidance as I used to from other sources. If we’re being told we need to rely on ANYTHING from outside of ourselves, we’re being lied to. I appreciate this conversation with you. Thank you for opening this up so much.”

Responding to someone who said they wished they could experience life from my perspective and who asked if I had advice about learning how to not take on other people’s energy:

“I really appreciated this message when I read it earlier. Thank you for being a witness. I wanted to take time to think about how to respond to you. The most basic thing I can say about what I’ve learned is that alignment with our own spirit is the KEY to absolutely everything else. It is also important to learn how to quiet the mind and be an observer of our thoughts. I have spent so much time in alignment now that I know how that feels in my body and mind. For instance, I used to have so many thoughts a day that it was overwhelming at times. Or maybe I didn’t know it was happening but it was affecting me. Now, being mostly in the present moment at any given time, my mind is much quieter. So I can really tell if I’m having a day where my mind is all over the place and feels jumbled. I recognize it and then practice calming it. Same for energy. Really I think being a nurse in the hospital for nearly 5.5 years was my best practice for learning what was mind vs someone else’s. It started to be obvious to me when my mood took a nose dive after giving report to a night nurse who had a lot of negative energy coming from her. The first time it happened, my mood went down and it affected me for the night. Then, I started noticing the pattern and that awareness could then allow me to release that energy I had taken on as not my own to deal with and my mood would shift fairly quickly. Then, the practice became recognizing their energy as it was happening and choosing to not absorb it so then my energy and mood wasn’t affected at all. I just started feeling love towards the person as it was apparent to me that they had something going on in their life. Where I once dreaded giving report to this person, I stopped taking it personally (at first it felt like they didn’t like me at all). Before I left that job, she was one nurse who would always get excited when she saw I was giving her report! We see what we expect to see. If we believe that we’re empaths and in a way victims of taking on energy from around us, then we get stuck in that role. But we don’t have to stay there. I’m still sensitive to energy, like being able to read it and be super aware of it, but I choose to not take it on. Our intentions that we say out loud are extremely powerful. Start by setting the intention to only observe and not absorb anything as you start your day. Set the intention to not take on other people’s energy as you move through your day and tell your spirit to let you know when you’re picking up something from someone else. Or if you notice someone giving off energy you don’t want to take on, then say so in your head as you’re around them. Our thoughts and words are THAT powerful. We don’t need a ritual or a prayer or a crystal to do it because we have our infinite, limitless, powerful spirits to do it for us! In our sovereignty, we hold all the power.”

This isn’t my complete view on these subjects, but this is what came out during the discussion with multiple other people. No subject is black and white, and I remain open to adjusting my perspective with everything I come to learn and experience day by day. I hope that you give yourself and your mind that same freedom. We never have to lock into one way of being, doing, seeing, or believing. We are multidimensional beings who are constantly evolving our consciousness past the boundaries that we functioned within yesterday, or even 10 minutes ago. The more comfortable we get with questioning everything and not holding tight to any belief, the more free we become, and our spirits yearn to be FREE!

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