The Nothing

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Movies can hold a lot of truths if we look and listen for them. I was only 5 years old when the movie “The Neverending Story” came out, but I remember watching it a lot with my sisters when we were growing up. I missed the lines spoken by the wolf character, Gmork, until last night when my son and I watched it again.

The Neverending Story

“GMORK— People have begun to lose their hopes and forget their dreams, so the nothing grows stronger.

ATREYU — What is the nothing?

GMORK — It’s the emptiness that’s left. It is like a despair destroying this world and I have been trying to help it.

ATREYU — But why?

GMORK — Because people who have no hopes are easy to control. And whoever has the control, has the power.

ATREYU — Who are you really?

GMORK — I am the servant of the power behind the nothing. I was sent to kill the only one who could have stopped the nothing.”

We have a nothing that’s been sweeping our world. Our lack of self-love and love for others is the root cause. The manufactured fear that we’re fed through the program reinforces all of the shame, doubts, and insecurities that we carry with us about ourselves and life. Our feelings of nothingness manifest as a void that we are then made to believe can be filled with things outside of ourselves. We buy the new gadgets and we yearn for the new homes and cars and and and, but we still find ourselves feeling like something is missing. We are missing love for ourselves and life. We have lost hope and have forgotten our dreams. We wake up, drive to work, punch in, work all day possibly doing things we don’t enjoy or possible hate, we have lackluster relationships with coworkers because we’re generally unhappy and disconnected from ourselves and we connect with them through complaining and gossip (neither of which leave us feeling good), we go home, eat dinner, maybe spend a little time with friends and/or family, then go to bed. We rinse and repeat this schedule day in and day out until we get to the weekend. Then, we do the work at home that we neglected during the week. Rinse and repeat. Or we live for the fun we have on weekends, and therefore spend the other 5 days of the week wishing we were already at the only 2 days that we actually like. And there we are, wishing away an average of 20 days a month, 240 days a year. In a 30 year career, a person who works the typical schedule of 5 days a week with weekends off may wish away 7,200 days! Yes, THOUSANDS of days spent pining for Saturday and Sunday.

People lose their hope and ignore their dreams and they fall into an energetic trap where they feel stuck and disempowered in the situations and relationships they find themselves in. They forget that nothing is permanent and that CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT in this reality. They forget that they are the ones that hold the key to their own happiness and satisfaction. We’ve been taught to seek validation and fulfillment from things outside of ourselves. But, everything is an inside job. Everything from our internal world is always being reflected back to us from our external reality. Our thoughts are always creating our reality, often subconsciously though we do have the ability to shift our focus and create our lives consciously.

So what can be done about the nothing, the void? How do we step back into our power and send the nothing packing? We start by remembering who we are- spiritual beings having a human experience, infinite consciousness in human form. We don’t get lost in the program that has us feeling miserable and hopeless. Yes even when we’re made to think that the misery is coming from particular political parties, groups, people or states of the world. In the end, it’s all played out the way that it is to stir the anger, hate, separation of the nothing, because there are powers behind the nothing that feed off of our negative energy. To them, it’s about maintaining a food supply. But the program tries to tell us that it’s about what one person said or another did. In truth, love, compassion, and togetherness is how we prevent the nothing from destroying our world. This comes in self-love and acceptance. This comes in unity. This comes in seeing the divinity of every human, including ourselves, and our apparent worst enemies. It doesn’t mean we have to hang out with people whose energy doesn’t resonate with ours, but we can choose to not direct any energy their way. This comes in seeing, really seeing, the parts of the program that are meant to keep us living small lives and generating more negative emotions. Our awareness is our superpower. Our ability to observe and not react to everything as well as to recognize our ability to control where we direct our vital life force energy are all part of our superpowers.

We recognize the power of our minds and therefore our thoughts. As energetic beings who have the power to create anything we can imagine, we’ve got to start focusing on WHAT WE WANT and not on what we don’t want. I’m not saying that we don’t need to allow ourselves to feel every emotion as it arises and then allow it to pass. I’m saying that we get to choose what we allow to disrupt our inner peace. My inner peace is everything, so if something in my life disrupts it, I change things and make new choices. We get to choose what we pay attention to. We can focus on solutions or problems. We get to decide where our energy will go and therefore what we will cause to grow.

We start living more authentically, and we learn to accept and love ourselves just as we are. From there, we follow our joy. We find reasons to smile and enjoy life every day, not just on the weekends that only take up 2 of 7 days a week. We realize that following our joy is actually the point of this life and in following our joy, we inspire others to follow theirs as well.

If you get nothing else from my blog, please know this….we are powerful beyond measure when we recognize that our uniqueness is our gift and that following our joy and intuition and aligning with our spirit is what we are here to do. Alignment feels AMAZING, and puts us on a trajectory to fulfill our purpose! Everything begins to fall into place from there — the right people, situations, and opportunities. We have to take inspired action on the guidance we receive. Our purpose is going to be something that lifts us up while helping to shift people and the planet into a new awareness and increased expansion.

Some of us have chosen to be the guinea pigs in this lifetime. We’re testing the boundaries by taking leaps of faith and living outside of the status quo and our comfort zones. We’re testing all that’s possible for us and humanity. We’re forging a new path and paving it, so others may follow. What we learn from living life as a giant trust experiment, we can then use to show others examples of what’s possible. It’s the path that I’m currently on. I am grateful to be alive during this pivotal time when so much is shifting. It’s not by accident or coincidence as nothing is. We all have a reason for being here. Each of us is needed.

Life is what we make it. If you want to feel hopeless then focus on every situation that creates those feelings within you every day. But if you want to feel empowered, then think empowering thoughts, feed yourself empowering food for your mind, and start getting comfortable in your own skin in your complete authenticity. We don’t have time to be wishy washy about it. We have to start choosing the better thoughts, telling ourselves the version of the stories that takes us out of the victim and complainer mode. We’ve got to take back our energy and learn to use it wisely. We have to realize the importance of following our dreams if we want more happiness in our lives and the world. When we remember our power and follow our dreams, we cannot be controlled. It’s up to each of us to stand up for ourselves in our own lives if we want to defeat the nothing. We’re much more powerful as a group. It’s time we all rise up!

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Sending you all so much love!

Jammie

Focus Your Energy on Your Own Alignment!

YESSSSSS!!! It has taken me most of my life so far to get to this point. But I’d say I’m finally here.

When I was younger, I loved debating with people. It challenged my mind and I enjoyed hearing both sides and making a case for the side I believed in. I remember writing papers in my high school Environmental Science class where we’d select a topic and choose a side to support while also representing both sides. I had a lot of really strong opinions about things like the importance of recycling and the destruction being caused by mountain top removal for coal mining in my own state.

I also had a bleeding heart, for everything. I saw so much heartache in the world and so much destruction to the environment and the plants and animals within it. It affected me deeply. That led me to my first career in wildlife/fisheries field biology. I worked on projects that gave a voice to the animals that couldn’t speak for themselves. I wanted to ‘save the environment’. I volunteered at a kill animal shelter on Saturdays in high school. This led me to my years of preferring animals to people. People seemed generally cruel and heartless. Many did whatever they pleased without ever considering their impact on anyone or anything else. So I set out to make changes. I became a vegetarian and even joined PETA (People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals) at one point. I took on the heartbreak in the world as my own. I was empathetic to a point of self-sacrifice. Of course I didn’t know that at the time. After all, I thought I was ‘doing the right thing’ by caring so much.

It’s not that caring is a bad thing. It’s good to have a caring heart and respect for all of creation. What’s not helpful is this bleeding heart mentality. Why? Because it usually has us directing our energy towards what we don’t want as opposed to what we do. Sometimes it sucks our energy right out of us to a point of negative thinking about life and the world and of apathy. It can make us feel hopeless, better able to find problems in the world than solutions. And the more you pay attention, the more negative things to worry about in the world come into focus.

For starters, we have to wake up to the fact that many things in this world are being created to get us up in arms, to get us to live in negativity, anger, apathy, and fear. It’s part of the design of this program we’re being fed. Of course I’m always speaking from the view of my own lens which stems from views as I see them from California in the United States. Notice how nearly every year, a new disease emerges that we’re supposed to be afraid of. Like clockwork in the Fall, something new is rolled out. Ebola, West Nile, swine flu, etc etc. A lot of the time, the campaign will be for a new vaccine we’re supposed to then get, poisonous spray we’re supposed to use on ourselves, and/or for decreased travel in the world because of the imminent danger we will face. Big Pharma is always happy to provide the new vaccine, the sprays, and the medications. The fear energy created provides the needed negative energy for various things behind the power schemes. Keeping us feeling like small, powerless, victims keeps us locked into the low vibration energy prison that I’ve written about before.

Less travel means that there’s less of a chance that people will see that people the world over are just HUMAN like them. The expanded awareness that stems from travel does not bode well for a government who wants to keep war going and supported by its citizens. After all, since we are all one, and every human is a member of my human family, why then would I support anything that put my family in harm’s way? Keep us afraid to travel, prevent us from expanding our awareness. Expanded awareness is key to this game if we want to live our best lives. So we should be highly skeptical of any paradigm that wants to limit our knowledge and therefore our power.

What I’ve come to learn is that we are all energetic beings. And despite what the program tries to throw at us, we each get to choose where we focus our energy. This matters greatly, because that which we focus our energy on grows. All spiritual teachers write about this dynamic. For instance if we want world peace, we have to focus on peace, vs being anti war. The Universe does not operate in negatives, so saying that we don’t want something or are against something is the same as saying we are FOR it. Our thoughts we think are the same as the words we speak as we are energetic beings first and foremost. Everything communicates in energy. This is why we pick up on one thing from a person as their words are saying another. We must learn to always trust the energy, because energy never lies. Our energy and intentions proceed us, and the most sensitive of us have learned how to sense them and respond to them over words we hear. The fact is that ALL humans can operate this way, it’s just that many are asleep to their innate abilities to do so.

It’s also imperative that we realize how things on the outside affect our energetic vibration. Our energetic vibration is EVERYTHING! The energy that we’re giving out is what we get back, always. Notice how when you have something that you don’t like happen, and you being to ruminate on it as a victim, that you then start drawing in other things that match your energy. For example, you get a flat tire, and then you lock yourself out of your house, and then you get rear ended. It’s not that ‘things always happen in three’s’, it’s that you dropped your energetic vibration after the first thing because you were so focused on playing a victim role and ruminating on all of the things you were unhappy about. You then ATTRACTED to you things of that same vibration. Knowing this, you come to find that when you sit around thinking about the environmental destruction, the current president, and the next disease of the day, you can feel your energy drop.

We cannot help anything without first helping ourselves. Helping ourselves looks like showing up as our authentic selves. It looks like following our intuition about EVERYTHING which means we do things like say no when we mean no, we don’t hang out with people who make us feel bad, and we don’t eat foods that wreck our stomachs once we realize they have that effect. We follow our joy as often as possible. We essentially do these things which leads us to align with our spirits. That’s the MOST important job we have on this planet today! ALIGN WITH OUR SPIRIT (higher self). When we are in alignment, we live at a different vibrational frequency which draws to us amazing people, situations, and opportunities. In that place, we notice how various things affect our energy, so we cut out things that lower our energy and increase the things that raise our energy.

In this way, rest is just as important as any other inspired action. Hustling at a detriment to our energy is out. People who exude negativity are out. News that glorifies only the atrocities in the world is out. Music that carries a negative message is out. Doing everything for everyone else without care to your own being is WAY OUT! If you’ve played that giver role long enough, then you’ve begun to see the physical effects of doing so…mystery illness, migraines, aches and pains, cancer etc.

The truth is that putting your needs first is NOT selfish. It’s needed. It’s the most needed because how we take care of ourselves directly determines our energy state. If we’re depleting ourselves in taking care of others, it will catch up with us eventually. When you do that, you’re essentially telling the source/god/universe that is you that you’re not important. All of your experiences will then reflect this back to you. YOU AREN’T DOING ANYONE ANY FAVORS BY PLACING THEIR OXYGEN MASK ON BEFORE YOUR OWN. Really internalize that. You will be of no real service to others if you’re giving from a place of taking care of others ahead of yourself. The reality is that your loved ones want you healthy so you’ll be around longer to enjoy time with them. Your partner needs you to fill your own bucket first, so that they can enjoy the overflow of unconditional love and exuberant energy that will be radiating from you. The world needs you in the same ways.

The sooner that you begin to view the love that you give to yourself as more important (or at least the beginning as JUST AS IMPORTANT) as the love that you give to others, the sooner your own life and therefore the world will benefit!

On my journey, I’ve come to understand that there is much to this multidimensional life and world than what we are taught, so I no longer think that I know anything definitively, nor am I interested in debating. I like to hear from all sides and I pay attention to what resonates at the spirit level, and the things that keep repeating in my reality. I’m more interested in doing my spirit’s part of the work here than taking on every problem in the world. I know that the way I contribute to the collective energy by expanding my awareness, standing in my power, and cultivating my alignment and therefore increased energetic vibration are the number one ways for me (and all of us) to shift our reality into one that I prefer more than the current. I place focus on things that lift me up and inspire me, because that’s how I keep my vibration up. I no longer give my energy away to causes that bring me down. I realize the power of my energy, and so I have become very intentional about where I focus it.

As Gregory Toole stated on Sunday in his message to those of us at the Center for Spiritual Living, if we can all internalize the fact that we are all one, all of the world’s problems would cease to exist. When we acknowledge that we are made of the same energy that runs through all living things, so are essentially the same, and all impact each other, we would stop wishing harm or causing harm to each other and the planet.

We are not helpless victims, we are extremely powerful creators. We each walk around with an energy that extends out much farther than the apparent edges of our current meat suits. We each have the ability and responsibility to direct that energy in a way that first uplifts ourselves, and then ripples out and uplifts others and the planet as a whole. Are you doing the intentional and intuitive work to keep your energy elevated? Are you focusing on what you want or what you don’t want to see more of in this world? Are you placing priority on aligning with your spirit or does your priority lie with listening to and following the whims of the outside world? These are the questions we need to be asking ourselves. The time is NOW.

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Dance like EVERYONE is Watching!

Seriously! Set yourself FREE and DANCE however you feel regardless of who is watching!

What are we worried about when we care so much about people seeing us dance and have fun? Like really, what do we think is going to happen?

I think generally we’re worried that people won’t like us. Or that they’ll think we’re weird and talk about us behind our backs. Or that they won’t want to be our friends or be seen with us.

Or….maybe it’s that we’re afraid that if we dance the way our bodies want us to, that maybe we’ll actually be seen. We’ve had experiences that have shown us that it’s much more comfortable for us to maneuver through the world sort of invisible. We’ve gotten so used to shirking away from any attention that we’ve gotten really comfortable with fitting in and remaining small. It’s easier to go unnoticed than to put yourself out there for everyone to judge. Right?!

Here’s the thing, trading in our joy for other people’s acceptance also trades away our freedom. Little by little, one small concession at a time. Eventually, we find ourselves unhappy, maybe even depressed, surrounded by people we don’t feel connected to, doing things that don’t light us up, with bodies riddled with dis-ease.

Our ultimate well-being comes from showing up in this world 100% us! Showing up authentically doesn’t mean dancing for everyone, but it does mean putting our own JOY ahead of what anyone else will think! It means doing the things that light us up the most regardless of who is watching! I’ve had to push myself past my own fears and insecurities to the point that I will dance just about anywhere, anytime. But there are things that are outside of my comfort zone, and it takes courage for me to push past my own perceived limitations and do them.

We’re all human. It takes courage for all of us to do things we haven’t done before, and to be the people we came here to be, but haven’t been before.

I have found that the amazing parts of life come from pushing past my comfort zone. And I’m telling you that in the last year of living this way, I’ve experienced the deepest connections of my life MULTIPLE times! One of those connections alone is worth every ounce of nerves I felt as I stepped into full alignment with my spirit!!

So stop being afraid of what/who you’ll lose if you show up in all of your glory, and start being excited about the path you’re going to be placed on when you align with your own spirit! The people you stand to lose because you dance however you feel or say what’s in your heart, are NOT your people to begin with. Your people will be the ones dancing with you! Your light will not blind or offend your people. Your people will be attracted to your light like a lighthouse shining down on a dark sea. Be YOU! Own your space! Own your light! DANCE however the hell you want to, BECAUSE everyone is watching and they need to see examples of people aligned with their spirit! DANCE ALIGN ELEVATE THRIVE!

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We’ve Been Locked in an Energetic Prison

 

 

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We’re slaves in a energy-depleting system designed to keep us down, suffering, and feeling separate from one another. We spend the majority of our lives giving our energy to jobs we don’t like in exchange for a paycheck. We are then sold a measure of success based on outside things like degrees, houses, cars, other high-priced material items that we then go into large amounts of debt to attain. The system is set up so that we feel worthless without these items. The truth is that we all have intrinsic worth. The debt only acts to further enslave us, because we work the majority of our time to use the majority of our paycheck to pay down our debts. Rinse and repeat. Year after year. Generation after generation. Enough is enough!

We’re trading our most valuable commodity (our energy) for a paycheck. Most of us are working jobs that only serve to take our energy and do not give any back to us. It’s designed this way. I realize now how draining my RN job in the hospital was. Yes, I ‘only’ had to work 3 days a week (for a minimum of 36 hours, note full-time), so I had 4 days off a week. When I look back, I see how I’d give away most of my energy at work, then I’d have days off and by the end of it, I would have raised my vibration a little, only to go back to give my energy away again. It’s like I was stuck in a repeating cycle of low energy. Mind you, I LOVED working with people in a caring/nursing capacity. What I didn’t enjoy was the way that it was ran, and the constant drama created as more tasks were added to an already packed schedule and the worst nurses were always the ones getting rewarded and promoted to management positions. The negative energy was multiplied and I always left wishing that I could spend more time with my patients rather than in front of the computer. It’s all by design. If we had extra energy on our days off and didn’t have to spend them primarily catching up on the chores at home that we let slip during the rest of the week, we’d likely do more fun things which would raise our vibration. But as it stands, ‘fun’ is treated more as a luxury or bonus than what it actually is, a necessity. It’s necessary, because having fun and feeling good is a big part of what elevates our vibration and aligns us with our spirit. Following my joy and intuition about EVERYTHING in my life has been KEY to the level of awareness (consciousness) at which I currently function, and my alignment with my own spirit.

Most people are functioning at such a low vibrational level, because during the day, they’re working at jobs they hate. In the evenings, they’re watching all of the television PROGRAMMING designed to fill us with low-vibration, negative emotions. On weekends, many people spend much of their time doing household chores during the day, and drinking alcohol and/or doing drugs to cope with their generally low vibrational life at night, which acts to further lower their vibration. Alcohol is such a widely accepted way to numb our feelings and ignore the fact that we are living lives that do not make us happy. It may seem that alcohol (a depressant) makes you feel better, but in fact, it’s just another thing that lowers your energetic vibration, plus it lowers your defenses and can open you up to inter-dimensional interferences that can then enter your field and create further havoc in your life. When I became aware that my RN job was affecting me so negatively, I had the thought that I should maybe take up drinking wine in the evenings or smoking pot to cope with the levels of stress I was experiencing. I drank some wine, but never started smoking pot. If you’re at that point, I can tell you from experience that you need to find a new job. If our work is making us feel like we need drugs and alcohol to get through it, then we’re doing the wrong work. There’s no way around it. I’m not saying that everyone needs to leap out of their current job cold turkey, but the mindful thing to do would be to start imagining up what you would like to do instead. Take steps to learn something new to expand your horizons. Start seeing your current gig as the stepping stone to your next life adventure! When you come into alignment with your own spirit, you will feel high on life, and won’t need substances to do it.

When humans are kept on this intended negative energy treadmill, our energy keeps us experiencing life in a limited way as we are forced into connecting with ourselves only as physical bodies and the physical world around us with our extremely limited five senses. We tend to be filled with feelings of hopelessness, fear, anger, loneliness and separation. In this state, not only are we easier to control, but we are never able to tap into our innate, limitless infinite consciousness and well-being. When we’re made to be so focused only on ‘what is’ in our physically detectable world, we miss out on being able to see all that’s possible, and all that we ARE. We have to get to a point where we realize our infinite potential if we truly want to escape this limited reality and manifest an amazing, boundless life!

We’re made to feel angry about things such as:  differing political parties that don’t really control things. All sides/parties are on the same side of controlling us; race that is only part of our rented meat suits for this one life as our spirits are raceless. It’s another distraction from real issues and is meant to further separate us. Inequality based on race is fueling that division; gender division and therefore separateness in our solutions to the inequality we see in the physical world. We are only going to see substantial shifts and elevated energy states in the collective if we stop allowing things outside of ourselves to control our emotions (our energy), and our feelings of self-worth. Stop doing things that feel bad. Stop watching the fear-based PROGRAMMING. Stop focusing on everything politicians say or do. Stop thinking that everything outside of you has to be a certain way in order for you to be OK. In other words, TAKE BACK YOUR POWER. Stop getting distracted by all of the purposeful energy sucks outside of you. YOU and only you have the power to direct your energy towards the things you WANT to see in your life and the world. Cultivate inner peace that doesn’t get disrupted by outside things. The outside things are not going to improve until all of our inner things are dealt with and healed. Erase the term selfish from your vocabulary, because when we each do our work to serve up our highest vibration and authentic self in this world, we aren’t just helping ourselves, we’re helping EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING. Internalize the fact that we are all energetic beings living in an energetic world, and our energy is the MOST important asset we have, because it is DIRECTLY connected to our mental, physical, and spiritual health.

People think I’m magic, because in relation to the general size of the world’s population, there are very few of us who have figured out how to tap into the power of our own spirit. I cannot say this enough: all that is available to me is available to you! You are infinite consciousness in a human meat suit too. You can find a way to rise above the nonsense of the game just as I have learned to do. You are more powerful than the powers that be want you to know. As a powerful creator of your own reality, you have the ability to consciously create the life of your dreams. But to do so, you MUST find ways to elevate your energy. One of the easiest ways to do this is with a daily gratitude practice. When you shift into the energy of appreciation for all that you have, you draw to your life more things to be thankful for. You also increase increase your happiness by noticing all of the things in your life that are going RIGHT!

Another easy way to shift your energy up is to start following your joy as much as possible. Have you forgotten what brings you joy? This is pretty common in a system that is set up to have us put our own needs last. Start by making a list of what brought you joy as a kid. As children, we’re more in tune with our own spirits, as well have more balanced left brain/right brain approach to life. So quite often, the things that we loved most about life when we were young are the same things we love later in life. In the end of my position in the hospital, I learned to keep my energy elevated by developing an uplifting morning routine that had me waking up at 4 am, excited to get out of bed (I had to punch in by 6 am)! I’d set the intention before going in that I was going to have a great day and that regardless of what happened, nothing was going to bring me down! Of course stressful situations still arose, but I began to see the humor in what I was able to handle and go through yet still come out of my day smiling. I never considered myself a morning person, but my job required that I be. Give yourself the gift of an uplifting morning routine: meditate, listen to music you love, listen to positive podcasts or YouTube videos, dance, sing, do yoga, read positive affirmations, get outside! Do whatever makes YOU feel good!

Part of the system is also about making us more left-brain dependent by pushing science, which wrongly teaches us that only things provable in a physical way are real, when in fact much of this multidimensional world exists outside of our limited perception. So, we’ve got science dismissing our spiritual nature and we have organized religion convincing us that god is somewhere “out there”, when in fact source/god energy is what we’re all made of. Science and religion each cause us to seek answers from outside of ourselves, when actually we contain all of the answers we’ll ever need within us, our spirit. Even the current ‘New Age’ movement also leads us to seek help from outside of ourselves in the form of angels, crystals, and light/energy. In alignment with our spirit, we realize our true power, and we stop feeling the need to call things from outside of ourselves. All that I had been noticing and feeling about my own alignment with my spirit was confirmed at my training in Holographic Kinetics. When we are aligned with our own spirit, we heal ourselves and others, we are naturally protected from things that seek to cause us harm (which has manifested in me feeling completely safe even when traveling around big cities alone), and our innate psychic abilities increase as does our ability to manifest things in our life. You can balance out your left brain right brain use by balancing your use of logic with your use of your imagination and creativity. Music lessons to balance the science classes. Following your intuition will also help you tap into the abilities of the right side of your brain. Encourage your kids to play freely when they’re out of the walls of their classrooms. We’ve got to keep our inner child alive and well to push past all of the programming that is being fed to us daily. Remember, it’s our inner child that is tuned in with our spirit, and therefore our joy.

It’s important as you move through life having various experiences that you take note of how they make you feel. Start making a mental note of what you’re doing when you feel most alive, and then do those things as often as you can. In my experience, as you start doing one thing that lights you up, you will naturally be guided to other activities that also uplift you. As you follow your intuition by saying yes to joy and no to things/people that leave you feeling bad, your intuition will get stronger. You’ll start to feel more alive and you’re energetic vibration will increase. Your spirit will then guide you to purge all in your life that is no longer serving your highest good, while it sends you new people, opportunities, and situations that match your new, increased frequency. As you get more in tune with your spirit, you will be able to sense people’s energies and intentions even before you physically meet them, which then allows you to choose when to focus your energy on a connection or not. Gone are the days of giving our energy away to situations and people that will not ultimately serve our highest good. Life gets better and better from there!

Contrary to what we’ve been led to believe, life is meant to be fully LIVED with lots of love, joy, well-being, and connection! We are limitless! Life is limitless! Prioritize your own energetic frequency, so that you’re able to align with your own spirit. From that place of alignment, life becomes a fun adventure, and absolutely EVERYTHING is possible!!

If you need extra support as you level up, expand, and move into spiritual alignment, I am available for Mindfulness Coaching and Classes. I currently teach a Mindfulness for Children class through my local Parks and Recreation for 8 to 12 year olds. If you’re ready to purge issues that have been repeatedly holding you back, I can’t recommend highly enough that you try a session of Dreamtime Healing using Holographic Kinetics with me locally, or with a Practitioner near you! It has changed my life in so many positive ways, and I see it also transforming the lives of those who have already had a session with me! There is no other healing modality like it. The time is NOW to free ourselves from the past, so that we can create a new present, and therefore a new future for ourselves! You can read more about my journey to Holographic Kinetics HERE and contact me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com for more information.

See Maya Angelou perform my favorite poem of hers, “And Still I Rise” HERE. Let’s all take our power back and choose to RISE!

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Emotions vs. Physical Pain

For those of us who are very sensitive and feel the energy of everyone and everything around us (many people here right now), it can be really easy to get swept up in it all and lose ourselves. We grow up looking to the people around us for ways to cope with emotions, to cope with life. Many of their coping mechanisms were not healthy for them, therefore many of the coping mechanisms we learned are not healthy for us.

I had a friend tell me that it is easier to deal with physical pain than it is to feel their emotions. They hit the nail on the head, because they had learned early on to stuff their emotions deep down and just deal with them as the physical pain that they manifested as in their body. It shows how intense emotions can be for some of us. So intense that we’d rather experience the physical pain. Have you noticed this truth for yourself? Do you find that physical pain is easier to deal with than your emotions? Can you see how that belief causes you to push down your emotions while you create physical pain in your body? Yes, our thoughts and beliefs are THAT powerful.

I was in the same boat for most of my life. I coped with my emotional pain by stuffing them down. I felt EVERYTHING, and when it meant tension of parents who were usually fighting or not talking, I chose to live my life as small as possible to try and reduce the number of waves in the house. Did it work? No. I didn’t have the power to change the interpersonal dynamics happening around me. The waves were still there. I still felt everything and then on top of it, held myself back from activities that I knew would create issues. I got quiet and held in all of my confused emotions of fear, sadness, and anger about the situation in my house. I was there as a confidant to my Mom, because I began to feel that when others around me, especially my Mom, were OK around me, that I was OK. Otherwise I felt far from OK. This pattern has continued throughout my life. I realized during my own Holographic Kinetics sessions that my ability to feel all of the energy around me made me prone to take it on as my own, adjust my own being to not add to its ‘negative’ feeling nature, and to place more importance on how people around me were feeling rather than on how I was feeling. As you can imagine because you’re human too, learning to put my own needs last ended up being detrimental to my health. I struggled with depression for many years, and later had a mystery illness attack my heart. Take it from me, it’s extremely important that we put ourselves and our needs FIRST. It’s not selfish, it’s necessary.

After talking with my friend about it being easier to feel physical pain vs emotions, my ankle pain popped into my head. I remember most evenings sitting with my family in the living room watching TV as I cried and rubbed my sore ankles. The pain would shoot up from my ankles, up through my shins, and into my knees. I remember in those moments, trying to remember what it felt like when my ankles were’t hurting. I would just sit and wish that they weren’t hurting. My Mom would give me ibuprofen, which would help. I hated taking pills. I had so much trouble swallowing them.  I used to think that it was the shoes I was wearing, or the structure of my feet. But last week, I hiked in sandals not meant for hiking, or even walking long distances really. I hiked up and over granite boulders, through meadows, and over gravel and dirt, and I didn’t have ANY ankle pain AT ALL (or knee, or shin pain etc)! I can see how everything lined up to have me connect these dots right now. I was so concerned about my ankle pain that when I went to Alaska after college for an internship, I wondered if I would end up being in a lot of pain. I wasn’t, but my mind told me that it was because I was wearing good hiking boots that supported my feet well, and that I wasn’t walking on hard pavement.

In writing this post, it became clear to me why I felt so much pain in my ankles as a child. A quick search about emotions and ankle pain revealed that my issue wasn’t physical, but emotional. I had what felt like a lack of stability in my support system. I also felt like I had the weight of the world on me, because I was unconsciously taking the blame and responsibility for the stress in my house. The weight became too much to bear, and my ankle pain was also unbearable at times. Interesting as well is that I sprained my ankles several times as a kid. I was literally feeling a lack of support in my life that was expressing itself in a lack of support in my own physical body! I learned to build my own support system. I stayed with friends a lot. In high school, I had a really great boyfriend with a family who supported and encouraged me. Looking back, as he went off to college during my senior year of high school, my self-created support system was shaken, and I sprained my ankle pretty severely the week or so before school started and he left to go out of state for college. Now I can see how it all fits together, and it makes so much sense. I had trouble feeling and coping with my big emotions and the situation around me, so it all showed up as physical ailments. As it turns out, the fact that I have become my own support system and have learned to feel my feelings is all that I needed to ‘cure’ my ankle problems. Also, I have an AMAZING support system made of family and dear friends. Are you allowing yourself to feel your own emotions? Are they showing up as physical pain in your body? Are you taking on pain and stress from people around you?

It has taken me the better part of 40 years to learn the real secret. That emotions, like everything else in this life, are fleeting and that the best way to handle them is to feel them when they arise. It has taken lots of practice to not stuff my emotions down. This can mean that I allow myself to cry at apparently inopportune times like when I’m processing big shifts and the emotion wells up in me like a tidal wave and the tears begin to stream down my cheeks at my favorite coffee shop. How many times have you held back tears? Why? I’ve held them back at work before like when I was working in the hospital and had a lot going on in my personal life, which feels appropriate except that I even held back in the break room away from patients, families, and coworkers. We have been taught that feeling our emotions and god forbid expressing them outwardly makes us weak, even more so for men who are taught from a young age that they need to be strong and keep going through their hardships without stopping to feel, to cry. Ironically, as more and more people allow themselves to feel and express their emotions as they arise, we are going to create a world community that is stronger than ever. Emotions are real life, they aren’t weak. I see so much strength in the face of a man who has tears flowing down his face. I know that he is fighting against the norm of what he’s been taught to do his whole life. And wow do I think it’s really fucking beautiful! I feel so incredibly grateful for the men in my life who have felt safe enough with me to express the full range of their emotions in front of me. We all need you to keep feeling and releasing.

Several years ago, as I had a big relationship/friendship end just before my dog of 14 years died, I thought that I would spiral into a severe depression. Honestly, the relationship had been over for some time by this point, so I had already prepared myself for it’s end. But nothing can really prepare a person for their dog dying. That pain was intense to say the least and I am still so grateful that a dear friend of mine offered to drive me to and from the veterinarian. It would not have been safe for me to drive myself. I left that office completely beside myself. I cried for the better part of two days straight. I called into work sick for two days and I don’t regret it one bit. It is VITALLY important for us to recognize these moments in our lives when we need to make space for ourselves to feel the full range of our emotions and to release them through a river of tears. No person, situation, or job is more important for us than giving ourselves that kind of love and space to feel how we feel in the moment. It is always better to let other people down than to let yourself down. Send a strong message to your body mind spirit, and Source that YOU ARE IMPORTANT. You can do this by taking good care of yourself.

At this point in my life, feeling my emotions as I have them has become MUCH more appealing to me than having pain in my physical body. It is natural that when we’re children, we experience things as trauma, both large and small events, because everything feels so big and important to us. We get overwhelmed easily and make up stories about what we’re experiencing, and so we stuff down our emotions and forget about the traumas that created them.  I have also learned how to separate my energy out from other’s energy, which prevents me from getting so overwhelmed by the energy circulating outside of myself. Working as an RN in the hospital really enabled me to hone that skill, because I was surrounded by so many varying sources of energy.

We’ve done ourselves a disservice because we’ve got a country full of people who are numbing their feelings with drugs, alcohol, other people, sugar, gossip, screen time, work etc. People have more dis-ease and more chronic pain. And we’ve been taught that the way to move beyond our dis-ease and pain is to seek solutions outside of ourselves. While western medicine does have its place, start viewing your body as a messenger. Get quiet and start tuning into the wisdom of your own body as you’re trying to get answers about the way things are physically manifesting. What stressors are you currently dealing with? Have you been ignoring your intuition about something? Are you feeling a lot of fear, anger, guilt? What food are you feeding your body and mind? Are the things/people/situations you’re allowing into your life lifting you up or tearing you down? If you answered with the latter, consider it spring cleaning time in July and ruthlessly clear out the things that are no longer serving your highest good. Set the intention and watch as people and situations clear out of your life with hardly an effort. You have a choice on what you are allowing in your life. You are not a powerless victim. Realize your power to change your life at any time. Will it feel scary at times? Yes. But will it also feel exciting? Yes. Are those two emotions easily parsed out? No, so choose to reframe your feelings as excitement rather than fear. This is where the adventure begins. Get excited about all of the things that can go right! Get excited that your future can look completely different from your past.

I have seen the cause and/or activation of issues for myself and others be traced back to childhood, the womb, at conception, past lives, or within the genetic line through my sessions in Holographic Kinetics. Our subconscious mind can lock in beliefs about ourselves and life that we then create from over and over. Our thoughts literally create our reality. Trauma from past lives as well as from distant family members can be passed down repeatedly until someone takes the time to clear and heal it. If you’ve been doing a lot of inner work, but you still feel like you have things holding you back that you can’t quite put a finger on, consider having an in-person Holographic Kinetics session with me. You can read more about Holographic Kinetics at http://www.holographickinetics.com. Feel free to reach out to me at peacefuljellyfish@gmail.com for more information.

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It’s Time to Rise Up!

Join me in realizing that we don’t know the half of what’s going on in this world and who is behind the puppets in power/fame in this country. As the news of sex trafficking and pedophila related to Jeffrey Epstein and his sick island come out, I suspect that loads of high profile people will be outed not only as knowing that this was happening, but in being active participants as well. This isn’t a new problem. This isn’t even the first time that this information has been brought forward. I stopped paying attention to news when I lost my health many years ago because I noticed the fear-based model they were using and I did not need more to be afraid of than the thought of never being healthy enough to fully live my life. We’ve already heard so many people in Hollywood partaking in these sick behaviors and yet they continue to happen. Celebrities molesting children. Celebrities being forced to sell their souls and have sex with certain people to gain their fame and fortune. Rapes, sexual assault, and abuse.

This post is from the spring of 2017. The scope of the problem has been known for some time now. https://newspunch.com/dr-phil-elite-pedophile-rings/

We’ve got to wake up and take our power back in a world where we’ve become so held down by our 9-5 busy, indebted, enslaved culture that we’ve allowed our energy to be held at such a low vibration for so long that we have a hard time believing that we are infinite consciousness. We were programmed and trained to be slaves to a system that only wants us to keep it running so that the wealthy 1% can remain wealthy and in power while the ones above them fund both sides of wars and arguments to keep us at war with and fighting each other.

Everything you think you stand for that makes you feel at odds with other groups of people was designed to do just that. Every conviction you have that your neighbor has the opposite and so you choose to hate them was designed so that you would hate. Race, religion, sexual orientation, politics: all ways to distract and divide us. Dig yourself out of the programming and start questioning EVERYTHING. I’ve said this so many times: we are easier to control when we are divided. If you don’t think we’re being divided on purpose, then you’re not paying attention. I am not the labels being placed on me. I am infinite consciousness in a human body, and so are you. We rise by lifting ourselves and others up. Start taking back your power by following your own intuition and joy! Work to expand your mind beyond what your limited five senses are telling you. (Did you know that we are essentially blind, because we’re only able to see visible light which is a minute fraction of what actually exists in this expansive world?!) Don’t believe everything you’re taught or told, in school or otherwise. Realize that your thoughts are creating your life 100%, including the subconscious ones of which you aren’t yet aware.

Let’s stop living in fear and stress. Let’s make the choice to stop hating others who believe differently than we do. Let’s start showing the love and compassion to the planet, our fellow humans, and all life that we are all saying we want to see more of in this world. Change starts with each of us. Are we done playing small yet? Are we done fighting with each other? Are we ready to remove the walls between us and love more? I am. Every day, we can each choose to show up as the kinds of people who we want to connect with in our day to day life. Each day we can choose to see the bigger picture beyond our limited scope of reality. As you shift your observation, you’ll start to see how magical this life can become when you connect with your spirit and you let go of all of your convictions that have maybe seemed, at times, more important than other humans. It’s OK, we’re all learning. We can choose to learn together. We can choose to stop fighting each other and killing each other. We can choose to LOVE each other.

If you’ve read all of this and you still have something you feel so strongly about that you feel hate, fear, anger welling up in your body over, then I ask you to dig deeper into why you feel that way, where you’ve been getting your information, and what you can do to transmute those emotions into positive action and more positive emotions.

We’ve got to stop playing victims in this world. There is no one to blame beyond ourselves because we’ve allowed our thoughts to be controlled and manipulated, so that we’re left feeling small and powerless, and wanting for all solutions outside of ourselves. I’m telling you, your freedom exists within you, not without. Your power lies in your thoughts, words, actions, and deeds. They are the basis for the reality that you are creating around you. If you’re living a life true to yourself with all of the unique expression you can muster, then I applaud you and ask you to please keep it up for yourself and well-being of humanity. If, on the other hand, you are living what feels like a small life and know that you are functioning at a fraction of the potential you can feel to your core, and are feeling like you’re living in a box, constantly worried about what people will think of you, I ask you to expand your conscious awareness. Find ways to step out of your comfort zone often. Start following your joy more, so that you can then connect more deeply with your own spirit/intuition. YOU are the one who has the power and ability to change your life. YOU are part of the delicately selected thread of people chosen to be here at exactly this time as your complete, authentic, and vulnerable expression of source/god/universe itself. We do not need the version of you who conforms and follows the other sheep. You are here you be YOU in all of your unique grandeur and weirdness!

When we step into our own power and align with our own spirit and stop giving our power away to things outside of ourselves, we take our power back and change the kinds of things that are able to happen on this planet. Rise up my friends! I’ll meet you there!

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Watch Michael Franti and Spearhead’s “Once a Day” music video HERE for more inspiration to RISE UP!

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Let’s Erase the Stigma of Mental Health

Seriously. No one should feel bad or ashamed, because they go to a therapist. We need to erase the stigma surrounding mental health in this country.

When I was battling severe depression, it was doubly exhausting to feel the weight of the world on my shoulders as I felt the need to hide my issues from others. Anyone with depression knows, it zaps your energy enough to then put so much into keeping it all a secret. But at the time, it felt necessary for me. I felt ashamed and less than because I was struggling with a sadness so severe that I could barely function. It made me have an anxiety attack once just to go and talk casually with a potential new employer about work I really wanted to do for them, because the thought of having to be ‘on’ and ‘sell myself’ was THAT overwhelming. It was also no fun to be on the verge of tears literally all the time, yet still have to go to work and hold them back. I avoided talking to people. I avoided phone calls. I avoided as much life as I possibly could. I always worried that my secret would be found out, which at the time terrified me. I felt like I was broken.

Just taking the steps to find my first therapist was daunting. But that step ended up being crucial to turning things around. I went to someone who had me try loads of natural supplements and even a SAD light as I was living in a rainy, gray Oregon winter at the time. When none of those worked, we moved onto medications. First Prozac which helped me immensely at the time. Then there became a need for less side effects, so I saw a psychiatrist to have my meds adjusted. Moved onto Wellbutrin. Then eventually landed on Lexapro. The names of medications don’t really matter, because they’re what I needed at the time. I write this for anyone else who has struggled with depression and has taken multiple medications before finding the ‘right’ one. There was a time when I thought I’d be taking Lexapro indefinitely, because of how my doctors believed my Lyme Disease was affecting me.

You are not alone. Many of us deal with mental illness and most don’t talk about it. I’ve been able to move past my years of depression, with appreciation that I’ve experienced such lows in my life. Those things we’re most ashamed of tend to connect us the most deeply with our fellow humans. This human life can be really difficult. We aren’t taught positive ways to cope, so we end up getting completely overwhelmed when challenges inevitably arise. If you’re like me, then you may relate to the fact that I used to internalize everything happening around me as something that was my fault. As a child growing up in a tense household, I took all of the negative energy on as my own and it was the start of my depression. I felt confused, alone, and unlovable.

It is my hope that in sharing, I can help remove the stigma for just one person currently being challenged by mental illness. You are not alone. Do not be ashamed of needing to see a therapist. It’s brave of you to take that step and you should be proud of yourself for recognizing when you need help and asking for it. I know none of it is easy for you.

Know that many therapists will offer a sliding scale if you lack insurance that covers it. Don’t let money stop you. There are ways. If you’re a student, check in with your school. One of the best counselors I ever went to was at the community college I attended for nursing school. She was in training, but she was the best for offering practical and positive ways to cope with my stressors at the time, which was my health crisis.

Know too that you might not find the ‘right’ therapist for you on the first try. I have been to several and they are not all the same. I’ve had some that were a good fit and some that were a terrible fit. I was once so overwhelmed with life that I asked my therapist directly for positive coping mechanisms to get me through the stress I was feeling. She didn’t offer me any that day, and I never went back to her again. You know yourself better than anyone. If you’re not having a good experience with your therapist, trust yourself and find a new one. Of course be mindful that you’re not just sabotaging it, because you never wanted to go in the first place. But your therapist should help you feel better overall, and you should feel safe and heard.

Pay attention to your intuition or repeating messages. Is a particular office calling to you? Do people around you keep mentioning the name of the SAME therapist to you? Do you keep seeing an advertisement for a particular therapist over and over? Follow those leads, because your higher self is guiding you. Trust it.

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